I can honestly say that, I'm on the verge of tears while reading this. And I don't cry over shit unless an animal dies or gets hurt in a movie or something.
I've dealt with so much shit from my parents, they think I'm a failure, and I always thought I was fat. I fucking hated myself. I starved myself so I could lose weight.
I'm 5'4, twelve years old, and underweight at 80 pounds.
But now I have real friends, one of which who cares about me so much, that she was on the verge of tears when I told her I cut last night. I remember her whispering "I don't want you to not do this for me, I want you to not do this for you.". She held me so fucking tight. for once I actually felt loved and cared for.
I've considered suicide so many times before. I've been to Hell and back.
Please understand that no matter what, people love you. Nate loves you. Everyone on FicWad loves you. We all care about you, and I have to agree with Anna, I would easily flip my shit if something happened to you.
Just keep being yourself, and looking on the brighter side of things when life kicks you in the ass.
And just remember, we all love you so very much.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zm6i-C0p1Y
-Kat