Wow.
Wowwwwww.
You're so talented. This was absolutely amazing. Sometimes I feel just how you feel; a wreck, useless, completely untalented. And I flip out on everyone I care for and afterwards I have no fucking clue why! And it sucks, to know that you're completely overreacting because there are people out there who have an actual reason to feel that way. But, dude, come on, we both have to cut ourselves some slack! We're only human and that's the beauty of the whole spectrum of human emotion and that's what makes us mighty. Just remember that you'l always be loved by the people on here, and that is the most amazing thing about this whole site; we're bond together even if we don't know each other and we won't admit it.
It'll get better. It always gets better. There are people who love you, and you have to learn to love yourself and the day you sit back and think "God, I was so stupid thinking all that dumb-ass shit about myself" will come sooner than you'll expect. Trust me.
Keep reading, writing, rocking and generally being Ben. Everything's gonna be alright.
I believe in you.
xx