Hey i dont even know you but you can email me too!crystalangel221414@gmail.com .this id definately not ok dude.they would want you to stay strong and keep fighting the good fight.we all know how you feel we know is heartbreaking and devistating but please dont do anything of that sort.it would defeat the entire purpouse of this band we all love so much who want toSAVE OUR LIVES not destroy them.so please take care of yourself tonight there are people who you obviously care about here who also care about you.please be safe tonight.ps sorry if review reposts a dozen times