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After I got all of my laundry done, I went downstairs to make myself something to eat. I passed Henry’s bed on the way to the kitchen, and I picked him up, leading him to the front door so he could go outside and do his business.

I couldn’t get that guy out of my thoughts.

Gerard….What a cute name…it suits him though…not like Frank…Frank sounds so…Blah….But hey who am I to say anything?

I still can’t believe I had a dream like that about someone I’ve never even spoken to.

I shook my head and pulled out a package of poptarts from the cabinet because I refused to cook myself anything at this hour.

I thought to myself for a few moments, feeling horrible that I couldn’t stop replaying that dream over and over in my head.

I’m really losing my mind aren’t I?...I’m having dreams about quiet kids from Physics class and I’m Thinking to myself...perfect…just perfect.

It‘s 5am on a Friday morning…what are you doing up Frank?…Go back to sleep…maybe you‘ll have some nice reoccurring dreams…

How on earth am I going to sit next to Gerard in class?…I’ve got about 4 classes with him…I cant have my dream fresh on my mind and be a foot away from him..

This sort of thing happens to me all the time…not the whole waking up after almost having sex in a dream kind of thing, but the whole not being able to sleep and then waking up at random hours of the night sort of thing.

The best thing is when I wake up and know I need to go to school only about an hour later…that’s the best feeling in the world.

Note the hint of sarcasm there….

I finished eating breakfast, and went up to my room to get dressed for school.

I’m actually surprised I did all my homework, that’s a first in a long time.

Once I finished getting all my things set for school, I grabbed my keys and went outside to start up my car.

One of the nicest things my parents ever did for me was buy me this car…..I think it was their idea of compensating for all the times they weren’t there for me.

I wasn’t complaining though…I loved my Mustang.

I felt my eyes burning from the complete lack of sleep I got last night, and it took me a few swerves over the line of the road to realize I should stop and get myself something from the store.

I pulled over at the deli right by the school, and got out to get myself something to stay awake.

Holy shit when did it get so cold?…

I zipped my hoody closed all the way, and walked inside the shop, feeling my ears sting from the cold.

I didn’t want coffee because today just wasn’t a day I wanted to burn my tongue again…it had just healed over from last time…and Charlie had a wonderful entry on that disaster.

I decided to get myself a can of Monster, and I went up to the register to pay, feeling my face get hot as I saw who was in front of me on the line.

“How much is it again?…Sorry I just need a minute…hang on….” He whispered, digging hopelessly through his pockets as I saw a bagel settled nicely on top of a plate in front of him.

The shop was always empty, one of the main reasons why I came here so often. Yes I’d run into the occasional asshole from school, being that it was right down the street….but I’d never seen him here before.

“I’m sorry just one minute…..I know I have it….” He said, and I heard the quiver in his voice.

God his voice is just as beautiful as he is…

HELP HIM YOU IDIOT

I shook my head, and pulled out my wallet, pulling out a five and tapping him shyly on the shoulder.

“Here…its okay…” I said softly, feeling my face get hot as he looked up at me for the first time.

God….he’s looking at you…you’ve offended him…he’s going to think….Wow Frank since when do you care so much what other people think….?

I took a deep breath and held my hand up to the cashier, handing him the bill and gesturing towards the bagel and the can in my hand, as I gave Gerard a small smile.

“You didn’t have to do that….I...I’ll pay you back…Frank?…” He said to me as the cashier gave me my change back.

My heart…My heart fell to the fucking floor…He knows my name…He’s speaking to me….He’s smiling at me…Oh shit he’s waiting for me to reply.

“You…know my name….” I said stupidly, as this small smile crept across my face.

“Of course I know your name…you sit right next to me in class…I think you were on my bus last year too…but you drive now don’t you?…” He smiled, taking the bagel from the counter.

I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t even think properly, surely I haven’t woken up.

This is just another dream…oh alright…well is he going to do something to me again then?…

“Right…well…Thank you…and….I’ll pay you back….I’m sorry…I thought I had money…I must’ve given it to Mikey for lunch…well er…thank you…I guess I’ll see you in class then…?” He smiled, as we walked outside, and I still wasn’t able to say anything.

God he’s gonna think you’re a fucking idiot Frank…SAY SOMETHING

“Yea…Yes I drive to school now…” I smiled, my blush growing deeper as I realized he wasn’t even speaking about that anymore.

“I know that….That’s what I said….” He laughed, bundling up his jacket as we walked out to the parking lot.

His laugh….god I’ve never met anyone so adorable….how’s he even speaking to a dumbass like me?

“Bye Frank…thank you again…..” He smiled, waving to me shyly, as he walked off in the direction of the school, leaving me standing there, with my drink practically frozen in my hand.

He spoke to me….Holy shit….Was he on my bus last year?. How could I miss him?…Aw look at him walking…

Wait he’s walking…it’s freezing….oh dammit…do something…say something….

Say what?….Ask him to get in my car…I don’t think I’ll remember how to drive.

Just stop it…he’s going to think you’re…..no…he’s going to KNOW you’re insane…

GAH SAY GOODBYE

“Bye Gerard!…” I called out, quickly shooting my hand up to cover my mouth as I realized I had just yelled out his name terribly loud.

I watched him shake his head, and turn around, giving me a small wave as he quickly shoved his hands back in his pockets to stay warm.

Shit….School…The bell…Fuck I need to get to class!