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"Hey." Alicia said enveloping me in a tight squeeze. "Here we go again, right?"
It was way too early for her perkiness. I looked around hoping to spot the source for the wonderful aroma of coffee that was filling the bus. Alicia laughed.
"Need coffee?" She guessed.
I nodded. "Yeah."
We walked over to the counter and she poured me a mug. "Should you be drinking coffee?" She whispered.
I was glad she remembered that Gerard and I hadn't told anyone about my pregnancy yet. "I've cut back some but damn it I need a cup in the morning to get going." We took a seat on one of the sofas and watched as the guys started stowing away personal belonging.
"Ray told us that Christa isn't coming." Alicia said softly as we both watched him walk down the hall toward the bunk area.
I was shocked. "She's not?"
Alicia shook her head. "She couldn't get that much time off from her job. I think she's planning on joining the tour later."
That seemed strange to me. Since she had found out about Merri she rarely let Ray out of her sight. Of course I didn't let Gerard out of mine either. "Did you tell Mikey about my pregnancy?" I asked changing the subject.
Alicia looked uncomfortable. "Uh, yeah but he already knew."
"He knew?" I repeated.
She nodded, "Yeah, Gee told Mikey yesterday."
Gerard entered the bus and walked over to us before I could say anything else. He took the mug from my hands and took a drink. He handed it back to me. "I needed that."
I stared at him. "You told Mikey?"
Gerard cut a glance at Alicia. "He told you?"
Alicia laughed, "Actually Laura told me first."
"Traitor." I said glaring at her.
"Well you did." She laughed.
Gerard cleared his throat to get my attention. "Excuse me? You were going to yell at me for telling my brother and you told her?" He pointed at Alicia.
"I thought we weren’t going to tell anyone yet." I said ignoring his question.
He laughed. "Nice try. Yeah, I told my brother and you told your best friend."
"My sister." I said looking over at Alicia warmly.
"Fine then we're even. So no one else yet, right?" He asked touching my cheek softly.
I nodded, "Right."
Ray came back down the hall. "So where are Frank and Bob?"
"For that matter where is my husband?" Alicia asked. "He disappeared about 10 minutes ago."
"He's out talking to one of the techs." Ray answered.
Alicia nodded, "Fine just so he doesn't forget any of my bags."
We all laughed. "Just how many bags did you bring?" I asked.
She grinned, "Four. Only three are full though. I plan on doing a lot of shopping on this tour so the fourth one is empty."
"A good plan." I agreed. Beside me I felt Gerard touch my thigh and give it a squeeze. I knew he was giving me an unspoken message. No shopping for me unless Worm was at my side. I looked over and him and nodded slightly so he knew I understood.
"Shit, traffic was brutal." Bob said coming up the steps of the bus. "Didn't think I'd make it here on time."
Mikey followed him up the steps. "Wouldn't have mattered. We'd just replaced you if you hadn't."
Bob turned to look at him. "Very funny."
Mikey smirked, "You think I kid?"
"Yeah, I know you do." Bob said not falling for it. "So everyone else here?"
"Frank's not." Ray answered.
"I talked to Jamia a few minutes ago." Gerard said standing. "She said he's on his way."
Ray nodded, "Good. We need to get going. We got a lot of miles to cover."
I sipped my coffee happily. I hated to admit it but I was glad that for a least a while Alicia and I would be the only women on the bus. I liked Christa but I could always sense her underlying mistrust in my husband. Well that was okay, I didn't fully trust Ray. I truly wanted to and I knew Gerard believed him but still...
Frank arrived a moment later. "Okay, tell me I'm the last one here." He said pulling along his duffle bag behind him up the steps.
"You're the last one here." We all said in unison.
"Figures." He said with a sigh. "Okay, but I'm here now so the tour can begin." His trademark giggle ended the statement.
Bob shot a look over at Mikey, "So how come you didn't tell Frank we would just replace him?"
Mikey smiled innocently, "We could never replace Frank. He's an important part of this band. But you know drummers are different."
"Mikey, behave." Alicia laughed.
I loved how everyone was laughing and kidding each other. I glanced up at Gerard to see him staring at me. He looked so worried. I smiled at him. I mouthed 'it's gonna all be okay.' to him. Now if I could just make him believe. Hell, if I could just make myself believe.

We traveled for hours and hours. Finally the next morning we arrived at the first venue. I had to admit I was extremely happy. My stomach was upset from the constant rocking of the bus. I'd slept little even held tightly in Gerard's arms. The others kidded us that we slept in the same bunk. I had just laughed but Gerard had gotten angry. I'd tried to tease him about it but his dark mood had lasted far into the night.
"Let's stretch our legs while the guys check out the venue." Alicia suggested as soon as I appeared in the lounge area of the bus.
Gerard, who had followed me down the hall, touched my back lightly. Shit, this was going to be weird having Worm follow me around. I turned to him. "I'll be with Alicia." I said softly.
"You were with her last time,” he reminded me with a frown.
No, actually I was with Jenny but why debate it with him? "Isn't Worm busy?" I asked. I knew Alicia was straining to hear us.
"I'll go get him." Gerard said walking past me and off the bus.
"What's going on?" Alicia asked as soon as he was out of earshot.
I sighed, "Gee insists that I have Worm with me if I leave the bus." I said taking a seat by her.
"Oh cause of what's happened? Yeah, I can understand that." She said nodding. "It's scary to think someone is trying to hurt you."
"But I hate to be babysat." I explained.
Alicia sat back and looked at me. "Laura, why do you think someone is trying to hurt you? Do you think it's a crazed fan? Someone who is upset cause you married Gerard?"
I hated to lie to her. What was happening to me was because of Merri. It was because of the past. I decided it was best just to agree with her. "It could be, I guess."
"Man, that sucks. Shit, there was some hatred towards me when I married Mikey but nothing like this."
I simply shrugged.
A minute later Worm appeared. He stood waiting at the foot of the steps for Alicia and me. I liked Worm but wondered just how much he knew about the situation. He'd taken care of Gerard many times. He had to know something wasn't right in Gerard's world before now.
We stepped out into the sunshine and stretched. Worm stood silently watching from a distance. Slowly we walked through the busses towards the front of the venue just to get a look at the arena. As we were passing one of the smaller busses I heard Jenny's voice.
"Hey, guys." She called out.
I smiled, "Hey, how's it going?"
Jenny walked off her bus and joined us. "Not bad. Just getting ready to start work on the plans for tonight’s Meet & Greet. I'm so glad you've given me more responsibility. So are you going to go over the radio station's list of guest or do you want me to do it?"
Oh hell, why hadn't I even thought about my job? I had made such a fuss about keeping it. I loved being in charge of the Meet & Greets but I knew Gerard wouldn't want me doing them. "Uh, you know I'm not really feeling all that good. Do you think you could handle tonight's by yourself?" I asked.
Jenny looked surprised, "What's wrong? Are your knees bothering you? Shit, I didn't even think to ask before now."
I smiled at her, "It's okay. Yeah, the hurt but I just sorta feel under the weather, you know?"
Jenny looked at me closely, "I'm sorry. Sure I'll be able to handle the Meet & Greet." She suddenly spotted Worm standing leaning against a bus watching us. "What's up with Worm?"
I sighed, "After what happened to you Gee decided I need a bodyguard."
"I think it's a good idea." Alicia piped up.
Jenny nodded, "Yeah, me too."
I looked at both of my friends and smiled slightly, "I'm just hoping it eases Gee's mind. He needs to concentrate on the tour."
"True." Alicia said stretching her arms above her head. "So ready to get going?" She asked me.
I turned to Jenny, "If you have any problems I'll be on the bus. Alicia and I are just going for a quick walk."
"Okay but don't worry." Jenny said, "I can handle it."
As Alicia and I walked off I realized I was being childish but damn, I hated that Jenny was doing my job.

It was a few hours before the concert and I was sitting on the bus watching TV when Gerard came in. He immediately took a seat next to me and gave me a quick kiss. "So how are you feeling?"
"Fine." I answered "but bored. You know Gee, I really think it would be okay for me to run the Meet & Greets." I had more to say but he cut me off.
"Absolutely not."
His attitude bugged the hell out of me. "Absolutely not?" I repeated.
He shook his head angrily and stood. "No, and that's final."
Okay I snapped. "You know I actually work of Reprise. Not you."
"I don't give a fuck who you worked for. You're not working anymore." he walked over to the kitchen area and grabbed a soda from the fridge.
Alicia appeared from the bunk area where she'd been grabbing something out of her bag. "Uh, I'm gonna head backstage." Obviously she'd overheard our argument.
I nodded to her. "I'll be there soon."
"Anyone else here?" Gerard asked turning to look at me.
"No, we're alone. Why? Gonna yell at me some more?" I shot at him.
He glared at me the turned to walk to the front of the bus. I watched him growing angrier by the minute. I thought he was going to leave but he secured the door then moved towards me. I only had a minute to wonder what he was doing before he grabbed my hand and pulled me down the hall. He halted at our bunk and pulled me to him roughly. "Damn you woman." He cursed me before his lips crashed down on mine. I was shocked by the intensity of the kiss. His hands were pulling at the waist of my skirt and it fell in a puddle at my feet. "I fucking need you." He ground out as his fingers slipped under the elastic of my panties to push them down.
I understood. He was afraid. He was trying to control me as he had done in the past. "Gee, this doesn't change things." I whispered. "We still need to talk."
"Fuck talking." His anger shocked me. "Just fuck me."
His words struck me. I dropped my hands not wanting to touch him. As he lifted my shirt over my head he saw the look on my face. I saw the anger leave his features. He struggled for words. "Please, fuck me." He whispered. "It makes me feel alive. I don't want to ever feel dead again like I did before I met you."
Tears sprang to my eyes, "I love you." I whispered as my fingers fumbled with his zipper. I knew we didn't have much time. Soon someone would come looking for him. He helped me with his zipper and I pulled the jeans down his legs. He stepped out of them and I sat on the bunk. He was standing in front of me and I lowered his briefs. As soon as I sat back up I blew air on to his tip savoring the look of lust and annoyance in his eyes.
"Suck it, Sugar.” he said his voice shaking with anticipation.
I smiled and placed my hands on his thighs then lowered my lips to his dick slowly, loving the power I had over him as he struggled for control. Extending my tongue I gently licked the tip.
He grabbed the overhead bunk and moaned.
"Oh shit, Laura,” he said over and over again.
I used my fingers to cradle his balls as my mouth sucked then release him. His need had made him ready before I'd undressed him. Now he was so close I knew he would explode at any minute.
"Wait." he cried out. He dropped to his knees in front of me. "I need to taste you." He gently pushed my legs apart careful not to touch my knees. "I want your flavor to linger in my mouth."
Oh fuck, his words made a fire course through my veins. I watched as he lowered his mouth and began to use his tongue to taste me. Soon I was begging him for more. He lay down next to me on the bunk and carefully pulled me on top of him. As I slid down on him he moaned loudly. "Ride me, Sugar."
Our joining was quick and satisfying. We only had a brief moment to catch our breaths before Mikey knocked on the bus door. Gee and I threw our clothes back on quickly. Gee opened the door to find Mikey smirking. "Shit, bro. You and Laura gonna be doing this the whole tour?"
I smiled when I heard Gerard's answer, "Yeah, the whole fucking tour."