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Disclaming gets old quickly, if you read the rest of the story you know I dont own it.

Chapter 28: Nothing More Than Feelings

Harry had a letter to write to Amelia Bones with the names of the DA and a select few others. First he retrieved his copy of "Occlumency for the Occluded" and handed it to Susan who began reading it immediately as she lay on his bed. He sat as his desk and Gabrielle sat on the floor at his feet despite his protests.

He began his letter:

Amelia,

It is strange to call the Minister of Magic by her first name, though Fudge tried to get me to do so. Congratulations appear to be in order, as Susan has informed me you have a good chance of being confirmed soon.

I have included a list of those persons I have trained or feel have enough training to be trusted in a dangerous situation. You may not agree with some of the names on the list, but I hope you will trust my choices.

I have purchased Susan a small wardrobe of Wizard clothes, including an assortment of casual robes and necessaries. However we have not had the chance to shop for anything remotely Muggle. I look forward to a shopping trip with you.

Congratulations once again, and I am sure Susan would enjoy a visit from you in the near future. You know where to find us.

Respectfully,

Harry Potter

He reviewed the letter quickly, trying to make sure there were no political motivations to his words. He just wanted to send a friendly letter. He figured he could have Susan look over it later. He then pulled out the letter he had been waiting for.

Harry,

Included is the overview of the requested information if you wish an in depth accounting I would be more than happy to meet with you.

Griphook - Account Manager, Gringotts London

On the second and third pages he found the list of accounts, investments and holdings.

He apparently was worth nearly four billion galleons with his two families combined and being the only remaining member with a claim to either one. About half of that was liquid assets, the rest were, as the man said at Quality Quidditch, wrapped up in most of Knockturn alley and half of Diagon Alley, there were also many Muggle businesses he was invested in, scanning the list he only found a few he recognized including Microsoft, Apple, and IBM. He assumed those had been his mother's idea.

He had at least five homes, though one of them was Godric's Hollow, which was now apparently held in trust as a memorial to his parents. He really didn't mind because he didn't think he could stand to live where his parent's had died. But he did make a note to visit some time soon.

Suddenly he felt the tears flowing down his face and did not understand where they were coming from. Before he could sink into his center and examine he emotions Gabrielle was sitting in his lap cooing at him and kissing his tears.

Susan hurried over from the bed and hugged him from behind. "Harry? What happened? Was there something in the letter from Gringotts?" She asked in a very concerned tone. As far as Susan knew the only time Harry had ever cried in public was after he brought Cedric Diggory back in fourth year.

"I don't know!" Harry said before he started giggling even as the tears were renewed.

"Harry you're scaring us, what do you mean you don't know? Why don't you explain what you were reading?"

Still laughing through his tears but unable to stop crying for some reason he handed her the letter. "I just finished reading about Godric's Hollow and decided I couldn't live where my parent's died." He said but the tears didn't abate.

Gabrielle was at a loss until Harry began shivering, "Master, please try to take a deep breath, you look like you can't breath!" She motioned for Susan to help her pull him to the bed. Once there Gabrielle pulled his shirt over his head quickly and did the same with hers. Susan was stunned for a moment and looked strangely at the girl.

"He looks like he eez in shock, I do not know ze reason but we must keep him warm before his system begins to shut down!" The girl nearly shouted as she dropped her skirt and knickers to the floor and unsnapped her bra quickly. She then finished stripping a now shaking Harry and lay him on the bed after pulling the covers.

Gabrielle cradled Harry to her chest wrapping her legs around him tightly and looked at Susan with worry all over her face. Deciding this was not some ploy to get her naked in Harry's bed once more. Susan quickly divested herself of her clothing and climbed in the bed with them, pulling the covers up to their necks.

"Harry please settle down and talk to us?" Susan whispered in his ear and kissed his cheek. "You said something about your parent's house. Have you ever seen it?"

He shook his head but was his lips were blue and his jaw was clenched too hard to answer properly. Gabrielle was rubbing his chest and arm trying to keep the circulation flowing, so Susan began doing the same. Completely lost as to what she was doing but trying to follow the other girl's example. She at least seemed to have an idea what was going on.

His breathing evened out a bit but he was still cold to the touch, which scared Susan even more than the shivering or the tears. "You haven't seen your parent's house? Nobody ever even offered to take you?" She tried asking again.

"NnnnNo." Harry said as fresh tears fell. "Why wouldn't someone think of that?" He asked sounding better but still looking like hell. Susan pulled herself against him tightly, willing heat into his body as she felt herself begin to sweat in the summer heat. Gabrielle noticed and pulled the blanket off leaving them only under the sheet but much more comfortable.

"So does that mean you have never seen where your parent's were buried?" Susan asked again. Suddenly he burst out sobbing again. He turned away from Gabrielle and buried his face in Susan's chest as he pulled her close like a teddy bear. In any other situation being held by Harry like this would have made her swoon, now she was gripped by fear.

He wailed in between sobs. "The only memory I have of them is the night they died. The only memory I have of my mum's voice is of her asking him not to kill her and screaming." He sobbed out. Her hair was now wet with his tears but she did not try to force him away. Gabrielle had spooned against his back and was kissing his shoulders as she whispered sweet nothings trying to soothe him.

"Zey loved you Harry, Your Maman died to save your life. Zat is ze ultimate love." She heard Gabrielle tell him and felt him nod his head shortly.

"I can't believe I never even asked to see their graves." He whispered and he shivered again, but this time she hoped it was because of a sob and not because he was in shock. "I spent my whole life wondering about them, never believing the Dursley's when they told me my father was a drunk who killed them both in a car crash. And the minute I find out I'm magical I forgot all about them." He cried.

"Harry its okay, please don't beat yourself up. Maybe you just weren't ready to face it before now..." She trailed off not even believing her own words.

"Why didn't anyone ask me? Sirius was not at the funeral because he was in Azkaban, but what about Moony? What about Dumbledore?" Harry's eyes narrowed to slits and he hissed the name a second time, quite literally, in Parseltongue, causing Susan to shiver feeling and hearing what she could only describe as a snake curse against her skin. "Dumbledore knew and never thought to ask me. He took me to help him hire some stupid Potions Professor instead of taking me to see my parent's final resting place. I am sick and tired of that man!" He growled out and Susan had to let go of him as she felt a static shock in the air. Gabrielle had noticed as well and backed off to a comfortable distance with fear and awe in her eyes.

"Master? Can you please calm down?" She asked him quietly.

He rolled onto his back and stared up at the ceiling barely registering the Veela's words. "That man has made my life hell, he has manipulated me for the last time. It is possible that I just happen to stumble into situations every year and I can never prove it, but I feel like he has been leading me into danger as some sort of demented training program." He hissed out, though in English this time.

"What do you mean Harry?" Susan asked, at least while he was pissed off he didn't appear to be in any danger of going into shock again.

"All the clues, all the puzzles so easy an eleven year old can figure it out, things have been different since I rescued Sirius my third year, I bet I threw a wrench into his master plan to train the weapon!" Suddenly he deflated and looked at both girls like a scared little boy.

"A weapon?" Susan asked, and he nodded with fear in his eyes.

"I can't say anymore until you can protect the secret, I'm sorry Susie...I'm so sorry." He began crying again and wrapped his arm around her again to cry into her hair.

"Shhhh Harry, don't be sorry. Everyone needs a little cry, have you ever cried for the loss of your parents?" She asked him, he shook his head. "Did you cry for the loss of your Godfather?" She asked him and to her relief she got a small nod.

"I think that is why you were suddenly crying. You have sixteen years of repressed sorrow flowing through your system right now. And that was before you learned Occlumency. Harry its okay, were here for you...I'm here for you. Do you want to make a trip to Godric's Hollow some time? I'm sure if you asked Professor Lupin he would take you." But Harry shook his head.

"Why didn't he offer before now?" Harry asked her.

"Maybe it's hard for him too, he lost all of his best friends that night." She said quietly and his crying suddenly went quiet.

"Oh my gods, poor Moony!" Suddenly he was crying for someone other than himself, which she thought might be a small improvement. "That thing will die." Harry said quietly but Susan felt the crackle in the air again, it felt a lot like the tingle of magic when someone offered you a Wizards Oath but this one was not given to anyone specific. She felt an answering connection from somewhere; possibly even from Harry himself and the magic seemed to explode outward. She was sure if Molly were home she would be running up here soon to see what was the matter.

"Gabby, can you please go head off anyone who wants to know what just happened? See if you can convince Molly that Harry just realized he had never grieved for his parents, and then see if she can get ahold of Remus Lupin?" Gabrielle nodded and getting dressed quickly she left the room.

"What can I do Harry? We are going to try to get Professor Lupin here soon, hopefully he can help you find them." Harry nodded into her shoulder.

"Stay here with me?" Was all he asked and she nodded in response before placing a kiss on his lips.

He hungrily kissed her back and she felt his hands roaming across her chest and down her thigh, his fingertips ran through her pubic hair on the way back up to play with her breast and then into her hair, he pulled back and looked into her eyes with fear. "I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to, I guess I am too used to Gabrielle, Susan please I..." He trailed off but before he could begin sobbing again she grabbed his hand and placed it between her legs before closing them and trapping it there.

"Harry, I have wanted you all day, I don't mind a little playful exploration alright? As long as we don't do any penetration I want to have fun with you. Do not feel guilty for making me feel sexy do you understand?" He nodded dumbly before she kissed him again. She deepened the kiss and released his hand by spreading her legs. He tentatively began exploring her body once more, this time though it was more in awe as opposed to the greedy need she had felt from him before.

The kisses got softer and the touches got lighter and suddenly he was asleep in her arms with a smile on his face. She did not know what to do about all the feelings and emotions running through her body at the moment. She had gone from scared to death for a friend, to scared a bit for her own safety, to sympathy, to sensual, to horny and now she lay in his arms feeling everything at once. Above all she knew she was in trouble. The man in her arms damn near owned her heart and they had been dating for only a day.

"I love you Harry Potter, it is bloody crazy, but I do." She whispered and enjoyed the suddenly peaceful look on his face. "Even if I can't have you, I will always love you, I just hope one day you can tell me you love me too." She whispered. She got no response except for a sense of peace and resignation that fell over her. Whatever it takes she thought.

"In for a penny, in for a pound."
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Molly had just stepped through the Fireplace with Luna in tow when she felt the magical outburst. Thinking it could only have come from one place she left Luna in the kitchen and ran up the stairs to find Gabrielle standing guard outside Harry's door.

"Stop zere Mrs. Weasley!" The girl said with a surprising amount of force.

"What was that?" Molly demanded.

"Harry just had a small break down, or perhaps ze breakthrough? It eez no matter. Susan is looking after him now. He requested you contact Remus as soon as possible zo." She said still with an aura of command.

"But why? What has happened, Why cant I see him?" The older woman nearly screamed.

"Molly." The girl said switching her tone to one of understanding. "Harry just realized he 'as never grieved for his parents. He has never been to see where zey are buried. Many years of built up sorrow are upon him at zis moment and ze last thing he needs is his Muzzer Figure, he needs his girlfriend." Gabrielle told the woman.

"But Ginny is all the way across the country and the Grangers are not on the Floo!" Molly exclaimed. Gabrielle just looked at the woman, deciding whether it was her place to tell the distraught woman the truth.

"Before your Ginevra left, she tells 'Arry that she will no date him at ze school zis year. She is in love with him, but does not wish him to be lonely during her OWL year." Gabrielle wagered it would be enough to calm the woman.

"But they seemed so happy, so perfect together." Molly said forgetting the poor boy in the bedroom and wondering how her little girl was doing after losing her first serious boyfriend.

"You misunderstand, zey are still togezer in a sense. After ze testing zey will be togezer, but until zen she wants him to learn how to love."

"What do you mean, I could tell he loved her!" The poor redhead was beyond confused.

"Molly you must trust her in zis. I agree with her zat it eez in Harry's best interest. Zat is true love Non? She sets the butterfly free and if he comes back to 'er zen it is meant?"

The Weasley matriarch wondered where this little girl had become so wise in the ways of love, but remembered that she was at least part Veela, sudden realization dawned on her. "You too? And Susan? What about Hermione?" She asked in rapid sucession before her face grew dark. "What is that boy doing leading all of you on, and how could he do this to my baby?"

Gabrielle sighed. "If it were up to Harry he would be alone. He accepted Ginevra into his heart but he has never known how to love. Zese Dursley's are caretakers zey were never his family. We are teaching him how to love and in ze end he will choose one or more of us."

"That is immoral!" She cried.

"Non Molly, love is not finite. I do not know eef I love Harry but I will die for him. I do know your Ginevra is very much in love with Hermione, and zey both are in love with him. Do you wish your leetle girl to be happy? Or do you wish your leetle girl to be unhappy but considered normal?"

That brought Molly up short, of course she wanted her baby to be happy. She just couldn't wrap her head around sharing her husband with any other woman, if they tried she would kill them where they stood after removing the offending appendage they used to touch him. "I just don't understand but I want her to be happy. How is that possible if she has to share him?"

The Veela pulled the woman to a couch and sat them both down. "Love should never be jealous. Do you trust your Arthur to be true to you?" Molly nodded. "Zen you have no need to worry. Any woman zat tried would be told off by him. But it eez different with us. We all want Harry, and we all will share. It is up to him zo, and I think he will choose only Mine and Ginny in the end, I only hope they will allow me to stay." She trailed off.

"So Susan is?" Molly tried to ask but couldn't form the words.

"She is comforting him, zey are not 'aving sex but Harry went into shock and we had to warm him back up."

Molly had read up on Muggle first aid after Harry rescued Ron. So she knew what the girl was saying, body heat was best transferred through skin to skin contact. "I just, you are all so young, how can any of you know what love is?" She asked, ignoring her hypocrisy where Ginny was concerned.

"I am Veela, Hermione as loved him for many years, as has Ginevra. But Harry does not know how to love. I believe he loves us all in some way, but he is afraid to say as much for fear he is wrong and will hurt us. Molly none of zis concerns you, if you must please speak to Ginevra but do not speak of zis ever to Harry. What he needs now is for you to bring him Remus."

Molly got up and walked down the stairs without answering. Her head was spinning and her heart was aching for the poor boy. She decided the only thing she could do was what Gabrielle had suggested, she needed to have a heart-to-heart, woman-to-woman conversation with Ginny and or Hermione. Not until after she contacted Remus.

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Remus arrived after a frantic Floo call from Molly concerning Harry. He still looked a bit haggard from the full moon only three days ago, but he would do anything for his Cub. Molly informed him that there was a Veela standing guard as his doorway and it would be in his own best interest if he announced himself to her and waited for Harry. She did not explain anything else that was going on but he had his suspicions after the incident with Ginny and Hermione.

Reaching the top of the stairs he locked eyes with the Veela, noticing immediately that she reeked of Harry as though she had been in close personal contact for at least a few days time. He said nothing and sat on the couch across the room. Gabrielle seeing how far away he had to sit called out. "Dobby?"

The elf popped in and without being told he clapped his hands. Remus watched in awe as the room reformed itself and his seat was the only area that had not moved. There was now a seating area just outside of the Master Suite so he got up and moved closer, all the while keeping an eye on the Veela. His werewolf senses were screaming danger at him and he sensed something from her that only said one word to him. "Alpha."

So whatever was going on, this was Harry's Alpha Female. He didn't know enough about Veela to be certain but if she were a Werewolf then she would be in charge of the pack, or of all the other females if there were a Male Alpha. Finally he spoke up.

"So, you are bonded to Harry then?"

She looked startled for an instant. "How did you know?"

"Your scent is practically screaming Alpha at me, and mixed in with Harry's scent as well it lead me to that conclusion."

She eyed him before understanding dawned on her face. "L'animale? You are ze werewolf? Moony is fitting name zen Non?" She asked with a small smile. "As to zis Alpha, I am whatever Master needs me to be, at zis moment I am in charge of his safety."

Remus nodded though he only understood a little. "My friends all had nicknames that related to their Animagus forms. I don't have a form but as I am a wolf...well you get the connection. But when did you bond to him? I thought he was dating Ginny and Hermione?"

Once again he saw the confusion on her face as she tried to figure out how he knew. "Ah, much ze same way, you uh, smell zem on him?"

"And he on them, even while Hermione was supposedly dating Ron." Gabrielle nodded.

"I am bound to him when he pulls me from ze lake two years ago. He is saving my life, and so he is my master." She shrugged.

"And Hermione and Ginny?"

"Zey all four had ze strange relationship, even I would not have approved. Ronald is lazy and jealous and Mine has enough and quits him." She said with a sniff.

"I will not ask any further questions about your relations, Harry is old enough to take care of his own issues, and I know for a fact that he is being safe. So what is going on in there?"

She quickly related much of what she told Molly, and much she had not due to time constraints. At the end the werewolf looked older as he sagged into his chair. "It was so hard..." He trailed off.

"Moony, I do no have any problem with your actions. You lost your best friends it eez understandable. But Harry will need you now, be prepared for him to be angry, but do not be afraid to defend yourself. He will understand eventually. He needs you." Remus just nodded and the girl disappeared into the room.

Fifteen minutes later Harry emerged looking much worse for the ware, but much better than he had an hour ago. The pheromones hit Remus and he was almost physically ill. No way would he try to keep him from Gabrielle. Once that realization was made the smell stopped bothering him.

"Hey Moony..." Harry said trailing off.

"Harry I'm so sorry, I avoided that place like the plague because I still feel guilty. Guilty that they didn't trust me with the secret, guilty that I turned on Sirius, guilty that I couldn't raise you properly like they would have wanted..."

"Moony wait okay? I know you couldn't take me because of anti-werewolf laws, and even if you could Dumbledore would have forced you to leave me with the Dursley's in any case. I guess I just don't know why nobody ever thought I might like to visit my parents." He said as fresh tears rolled down his face. Remus quickly closed the distance between them and pulled him into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Cub, I should have thought of this before, especially after..." He couldn't complete the sentence.

"After Sirius?" Harry asked and got only a nod in response.

"Will you take me? Today preferably?" Remus nodded again with his own tears joining Harry's.

"As long as we are ripping off scabs why don't we take care of Sirius's room in the meantime?" The older man stiffened, but nodded eventually. Harry left the room heading down the stairs one level and stopped outside of the door that had been off limits. "Dobby?" He called as his voice cracked.

The elf popped in and looked around. "You is ready for Dobby to open the door sir?" Harry nodded, the elf did so and popped away again.

As the door slid open with a creak Harry whispered an incantation and the gaslights in the room lit.

"Uh, bad timing and all, but the gaslamps reminded me, do you know anything about electrical wiring?" Harry asked. Remus nodded but said nothing as he looked around the room.

There were pictures and posters all around, one in particular of the Marauders smiling and waving in their Hogwarts years, Wormtail was cowering in the corner though the others seemed to have learned to ignore him a long time ago.

The most predominate feature of the room though, was the Prophet pictures of Harry, which were tacked up on nearly every wall. Overall the room made them feel overwhelmingly sad. "Do you really think there is anything in here we would want?" Harry asked.

"He may have spent the last few months of his life in here, but he ran away from here at fifteen and lived with James and your grandparents. It looks like you were the only thing that mattered to him in here." Remus said quietly.

Harry grabbed the photo of the Marauders and quickly tore the corner containing the cringing Pettigrew off before handing the photo to Remus "Not the only thing."

Remus sat down on the bed and cried unabashedly. Harry just sat beside him and wrapped an arm around the mans shoulders, he immediately turned and cried into Harry's shoulder for about fifteen minutes before he looked up embarrassed and the tears stopped. "Guess I needed this more than I thought." He choked out. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be Moony, you should have seen me upstairs just now, and that is just the tip of the iceberg. I will need you to repeat the favor before long." Harry said with a sad smile.

Remus just nodded and stood, he looked around one last time and asked Harry. "I'm ready when you are, shall we go from here?"

Harry nodded and Remus held out his arm. Grabbing on they both disappeared with a crack!

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Luna knocked before quickly entering Ron's room startling him as he held his erection in hand. He looked at her with scared eyes before he quickly grabbed a pillow and threw it over his lap.

"Loony! What the hell didn't anyone ever tell you to knock!"

She eyed the pillow for a moment with a small smile before looking up into his eyes. "Did no one ever tell you that you should lock the door before masturbating?" Ron's angry face suddenly turned maroon.

"That's not the point!"

"What is the point Ronald? Are you trying to rid yourself of Gimlets?" She asked him, her face still not showing any sign of awkwardness.

He spluttered for a minute before giving up. "What are Gamlitts?" He asked trying to shove his erection back into his shorts and failing miserably.

"Gimlets, they feed off of emotions, in your case they seem to be eating up all your common sense." She said still staring at the pillow.

"Uh, okay, how was I getting rid of them?" He asked not able to connect pleasuring himself with her imaginary creatures.

"Ejaculation of course. Would you like some help?" She asked him.

His eyes went huge but he saw the opportunity. "Um, if you don't mind?"

She nodded and pulled the pillow from his lap. He couldn't look her in the eye so he threw his head back on the pillow and waited. Glancing at her he saw that she was looking at him with detached clinical interest.

She wrapped both hands around him, and then apparently deciding that was too much, she wrapped one hand around him and began to pump. "I have not actually performed the extraction myself before, but I think I understand the mechanics." She continued on and he simply nodded and closed his eyes.

Before long he felt his orgasm approaching and opened his eyes to watch her hand on his cock. But her eyes still held a clinical look, as if she were performing surgery. He came with a grunt splashing her hand with his cum as he relaxed back into the mattress.

"Hmm, no gimlets in this batch. I suppose we will just have to keep trying." She remarked absentmindedly, this sounded wonderful to Ron.

"Yeah okay, what are you doing here?"

"Oh, your mother asked me to stay over for a few days or a week. I don't think she actually has anything for me to do, I think she expects me to date you." She looked into his eyes and he caught his breath.

"Um, and would you uh, like to date me?"

She looked away and got up walking toward the bathroom where she continued the conversation while washing her hands. "I don't believe so, I liked you for a very long time but you did not treat me very nice. Harry is much nicer."

"Bloody Harry Potter." He growled and lay down again, tucking his suddenly smaller penis back into his boxer shorts.

"Yes it really is no wonder Harry has at least five girlfriends, he is very nice, and much more mature than you are. Hermione is much better off with him." She called out dreamily.

"Get out, I don't need to hear a damn thing about him and Mione!"

"Alright Ronald, so same time tomorrow?" She asked as she walked back into the room.

"What?"

"The Gimlets, Daddy asked me to try and capture one." She said unblinkingly.

"Oh...your not gonna talk about Harry anymore are you?"

"The subject might come up, but I don't understand why that would stop us from performing the procedure?" She said with a confused look on her face.

Ron gave up, if she wanted to give him a hand job every day he supposed he could listen to her prattle on about the Prat-Who-Lived. "Yeah, fine. Maybe later tonight too?" He asked.

"If you say so, practice makes perfect and all that." She turned and left the room and a thoroughly confused Ron.

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Susan still lay in Harry's bed after he had been gone quite awhile. Gabrielle came back in and after stripping down, lay on the bed with her and pulled her into a hug.

"You deed very well Suzy, ze only thing I could think to do was to shag some sense into him. I am glad you are here." Gabrielle said quietly.

"He looked so lost..." Susan trailed off, still not believing she told him she loved him.

"And you helped him find his way." She hugged her closer.

"I told him I love him." She whispered and Gabrielle smile grew wider.

"What did he has to say?" She asked.

Susan shook her head, "It was after he fell asleep, I realized that after a single day dating him he is in my heart. I feel like an idiot fan girl." She said with a tear trailing down her face.

Gabrielle kissed her cheek and wiped the tear away. "Non, Harry is easy to love, zis does not mean you belong to him. You still have choice even if you always love him."

"I know that, but it just feels so strange to put words to a feeling. The only other person I ever said that to is Hannah." For some reason Susan felt comfortable with this girl to reveal her darkest secret.

"Ah, so you and Hannah are ze lovers? She is very nice girl, Non?"

"Hannah is the best, she didn't seem to happy with me for playing that game though."

"Perhaps she is jealous? Or maybe she is just embarrassed, to love anozer woman is looked down on in Britain Non?"

"Yeah, we didn't mean for it to happen, we've been best friends for ages and last summer we played truth or dare, just the two of us...we ended up kissing that night and it sort of went from there."

"Are you ashamed of Hannah?" Gabrielle asked quietly.

"What? No! Why would you think that?" Susan asked incredulously.

"You did not advertise zat you are together."

"Oh, well we just didn't think it was anyone's business." She answered.

"Does Hannah like Master? Or did she come to zis party to be with you?"

That brought Susan short, "I think Hannah likes girls more than boys, but she seemed interested in Neville."

"Ah, yes Neville is not typical man zo is he? Zere is nothing wrong with being effeminate but he was not attractive to me. Would you be sad if you have to give her up?" Gabrielle asked just making idle conversation.

Susan thought about it. "As long as we remain friends, I just want her to be happy."

"And she feels the same way?"

"I don't know. I really need to talk to her. You think Harry would mind if I gave her a call?"

"Non Suzy, I think he would want you to be happy."

Susan nodded and got out of bed, she found the letter to her aunt on the table top along with the list of persons he recommended. She glanced over it and nodded before folding it, as she turned Hedwig flew over from her perch.

"Oh, Hello girl. Have you just been waiting for this?" She asked holding up the letter and got a happy screech in reply as well as a quick flap of her wings as if showing she was ready to go. "Alright, here you go, this is for Amelia Bones at the ministry, you shouldn't have any trouble. Hedwig looked at her indignantly before flying out the single windowpane that was designed just for owls.

She got dressed as she watched Gabrielle lightly playing with herself on the bed. "Are you trying to get me to come back to bed or something?" She asked playfully and Gabrielle opened her eyes and smiled.

"Maybe, or maybe I just feel like cumming. Zere is nothing wrong with that." She closed her eyes and continued her task making Susan smile even as she felt an urge to do the same thing.

Sighing she walked out the door and quickly down to the kitchen where Molly sat with a cup of tea lost in thought. "Oh, Mrs. Weasley! Um, is everything okay?" Susan asked feeling extrememly uncomfortable.

"Fine dear." She answered noncommittally before suddenly looking up. "Oh, Susan...so Harry is alright now then?"

"Harry is not fine, but he is doing better. Remus and he disappeared about an hour ago now, are you okay?" She really didn't want to have this conversation, but knew if she were staying in the house this summer she was going to be forced to eventually.

"I'm just worried about my children. Ron wont come out of his room, and poor Ginny has already lost her first love. No offense dear."

"I really think you need to talk to her Mrs. Weasley."

"Molly please, everyone else is calling me Molly or Mum now."

"Uh, okay Molly, Ginny made it very clear that she wants Harry to date until she is ready to devote her time to him. And she gave me her blessing before she left." Susan said trying to keep the conversation light.

"And what about Hermione?" The older woman asked surprising Susan with her knowledge.

"Um...yes, Hermione also, though her intentions once we are back at school are less clear. Both of them would rather Harry find true love with someone else, than stay with them out of obligation."

Molly nodded and said nothing for a minute. "Was there something you needed dear?"

"I actually had a private Floo call to make, if you don't mind?"

The Weasley Matriarch got up with a tight smile and made her way out of the room without another word. Susan breathed a sigh of relief and kneeled down on the floor after taking a pinch of Floo powder.

"Abbot Acres!" she called out the Floo address and her head began spinning dizzily until she was looking into a familiar sitting room. "Hannah? Mr. or Mrs. Abbot?" She called out.

Soon Hannah came running and slid to a stop on her knees in front of Susan's face. "Susan! Is anything wrong?"

"No Hannah I just really miss you, and needed to talk to you about things." Susan said quietly.

The other girl nodded and looked around quickly, Susan did the same making sure Molly wasn't listening in. "I'm clear on this end." The other girl said and Susan nodded.

"Did you come to the party for me or for Harry?" She decided to ask point blank.

Hannah's eyes went wide as she thought of an appropriate answer. "I think Harry is nice, and definitely sexy, but I don't know if I like the possibility of sharing him with a bunch of other girls." She said.

"What if it was just me and one other girl?" Susan asked and Hannah paused.

"I don't know. I saw a side of Neville the other night that I like, but he said I couldn't come over to see him until just before school starts." She said quietly.

"Hannah, if I fall for Harry will you hate me?"

That brought the girl to tears, "Of course not! How could you think that?"

Susan sighed in relief. "Because I did, and last time I saw you was after the party and you didn't look happy on your way out."

"Wait, you fell in love with him after only one day?" Hannah asked in a disbelieving tone. Susan nodded her head.

"I don't know how it happened either, we had a very emotional moment earlier and it sortof crystallized everything. I'm not in love with him but I definitely love him enough he makes me want to shag him senseless." Susan said, some of her feelings suddenly coming clearer just by talking to her best friend.

Hannah nodded, "What are you really asking me?"

Susan screwed up her courage. "I really like Gabrielle too, some things happened at the end of that game, oh god you should have stayed..." She took a breath. "Anyway, if you came over for a few days, or came to visit every day. You and I could still be together, and if things happen with Harry it will be fun. You don't have to love him to have fun with him you know?"

Hannah nodded with a blush, "Yeah I know, but if I want to have fun with Neville this year too doesn't that make me cheating on him or something?"

"No, you have no idea what will happen with either of them, and if Harry would rather you dated someone instead of waiting your turn with him anyway. I have been put at the top of the list and I am inviting you to skip ahead as well. Besides, he is making me do everything!" She growled.

Hannah looked at her strangely. "You mean you do all the work when you...um?" She trailed off.

Susan laughed lightly. "Oh god its good to talk to you Hannah, no we have barely done anything like that. He wont even initiate a kiss with me, he is making me make all the moves so that he knows it's my decision how far we move. The problem is I want to do all sorts of fun things with him I am just a scaredy cat without you here." She blushed but Hannah couldn't see it through the flames.

"So you want me to come over there, and help my girlfriend possibly shag her boyfriend, and maybe get shagged myself?" Hannah asked carefully.

"There will probably not be any proper shagging, but I wouldn't be against pushing the boundries..um if you know what I mean?"

Hannah giggled a bit, which then turned into a full laugh. "You mean that dare when we both decided to?"

Susan nodded silently, "I want to stay a virgin, until he says he loves me just in case this is all some crazy hormone driven accident. But I want him inside me so bad it hurts, as long as he does a proper lubrication charm it might not be so bad..." She choked on the last word not really believing that his monstrous cock would be 'not so bad' but not revealing that to Hannah. Really she just needed moral support while she explored the relationship.

"Besides, if nothing happens between us and him, I still miss being with you... If your going to possibly date Neville this year we might not ever get the chance..." Susan whispered.

"You don't like Neville?" Hannah asked in surprise.

"It's nothing personal he's nice enough, he just isn't my type...whereas I know you have fantasized about Harry." Hannah nodded in agreement.

"Fine, I will see about coming to stay for a while, but I can't guarantee anything, call me back in an hour or so?" Susan nodded, smiling as Hannah closed the connection.

Susan felt much better now with at least the beginnings of a plan.

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When Harry and Remus arrived back from Godric's Hollow and the cemetery, Harry was an emotional wreck. He didn't have a breakdown like he did that afternoon, but he felt like every emotional wound he had ever received had just reopened. In addition to visiting his parents graves, where he had broken down on the older mans' shoulder and cried for nearly an hour, as he told his parents about his life. He told them everything about his life with the Dursley's, and about the things he had faced every year since finding out he was a Wizard. He told them that Sirius had finally found him and that he hoped they were all happy together once again. At this he once again swore he could feel Sirius standing behind him. After the longest hour of his life, Harry and Remus had taken a long walk through the graveyard collecting their thoughts and making small talk, with the older man telling stories about Lily and the Marauders.

He had seen the family name Peverell and Remus mentioned they were distantly related; Harry had filed it away for research at a later date. As well as an interesting symbol on one of the gravestones he thought looked out of place. At the house Moony had been especially upset at the graffiti all over the plaque out front but Harry said he actually thought it was nice, that people had felt enough for his parents that they needed to leave personal messages.

When they reached the statue in the town square Harry had another long cry. Seeing his mother and his father holding what could only be himself as a baby made him long to be held by them once more. He wished he had one clear memory of hugging his mum. Or of his dad teaching him about Quidditch. All the things a normal boy might remember, instead of blowing out imaginary candles on an imaginary birthday cake in a cupboard under the stairs.

By the time they arrived back at Grimmauld Place Harry was too emotionally drained to do much else. He only had two thoughts in his head. Dumbledore must pay, and Voldemort must die. Until he found out the extent of the Headmasters manipulation of his life, he would only play large pranks on the old man. But if he ever discovered that the old man had intentionally ruined his life there would be hell to pay. Harry honestly still wanted the man to be a barmy grandfather who had made mistakes. He did not want to think of that man as an enemy. But he decided that his enemies would never again receive mercy from him. If Draco decided to open his mouth and say anything about Hermione or Ginny this year he was going to find himself naked and impaled on a gargoyle with a passworded sticking charm in place. Or stuck by his feet to a beam in the great hall ceiling hanging like bat.

Speaking of bats Harry had more than a few plans for his favorite professor. If the man so much as probed his mind without permission Harry planned to throw his conciousness in jail and throw away the key. Let St. Mungo's figure out what had happened to him, it would be interesting to see them blame it on him. Even if they could figure it out the law was clear that Legilimency was not to be used without consent of the DMLE and especially not on children. He would be well within his rights to torture the man mentally.

Gabrielle and Susan were sitting in the training room talking to Luna who had apparently shown up out of nowhere. They were chatting idly when Harry walked in looking like a Zombie. Luna sat on the couch and observed as the girls tried to hug him but he held out his hands to keep them at bay. He thanked them for their help earlier, kissed them both on the cheek, and promptly disappeared into his room here he threw up locking charms on both doors without trying to reign in his power.

Susan and Gabrielle knocked on his door a few times and Susan even tried the secret passageway but found it blocked as well. Gabrielle broke down and Susan had to hold her as she cried for an hour, for not being able to help her Master in his time of need.

Finally the door unlocked and Harry walked in showered and looking better, but in general still not entirely there. He sat down on the couch and seeing Gabrielle's current state opened his arms to her so she could crawl into his lap and cry once more into his shoulder. He whispered nothings to her and rubbed circles on her back, finally exhausted she lay down on the couch with her head on his lap and fell asleep like a puppy who had finally found its lost owner.

"Harry, what happened?" Susan asked quietly, Luna still sat silently and Harry had not seemed to notice her presence.

He went through the whole story, ignoring the tears flowing down Susan and Luna's faces. Gabrielle was still curled up happily asleep, all was right in her world as long as she was allowed to be with him. At the end Luna got up off the couch and leaned down kissing him softly. She pulled back and smiled at him. "I don't think anyone feels the way you do Harry, the power of your love is a weapon that turned upon its owner. We are here to help you put it back to its proper purpose."

Harry stared at Luna who, to his eyes, had simply appeared out of nowhere when she kissed him. Her words rang true and he wondered how much of the prophecy she already knew to use that exact wording. "What did you mean by my love being a weapon?" he asked quietly, not looking away form her eyes.

She shrugged, "I don't know, but it was the right thing to say wasn't it?"

He nodded in complete confusion, she had told him exactly what he needed to hear, but somehow she had no clue what she was talking about. Luna sat back down on the couch and Susan replaced her on Harry's lips. However Susan sat down beside him opposite Gabrielle and deepened the kiss while running her fingers down his chest and back up into his hair. "I want to help you learn to love Harry." Her eyes kept bouncing between his lips and his eyes. "We all want to help you, you just have to let us."

He kissed her chastely, much to her annoyance, and pulled back. "That means a lot to me Susan, but I think I need to stop completely with sex for awhile." Gabrielle looked up at him with hurt eyes and he returned the look with just as much hurt causing her to tear up.

"Master?" He shook his head. "Harry? Why?"

"Because I have become distracted way to easily. I really need to work on a few things on my own and I can't focus surrounded by naked sexy witches." Gabrielle's tears fell perfectly down her perfect cheeks and he leaned down and kissed her softly, causing her to moan as he pulled away once again.

"I am not saying we cannot kiss or cuddle, I am not saying there will not be any exploration." He said with a look at Susan who blushed prettily causing him to smile. "What I am saying is I will help you learn Occlumency, if you must be unclothed I will help you center yourself and then leave the room. We will both work better this way at least for now. And I think you can take turns sleeping with me at night but I will never be able to stand up to you both at the same time so I am requesting we keep it simple." He said looking back and forth between their eyes.

"I am staying for a while Harry, may I share your bed?" Luna asked in her normal dreamy tone which was completely out of place in the current conversation.

Harry looked up as he was jolted from his musing aloud. "Um, I guess if these two don't mind..." He trailed off. Susan and Gabrielle both shook there heads.

"Master? I understand zat during ze days we must work, but why do you deny yourself pleasure at night?"

That gave him pause, why was he pushing them away. It sounded like they would agree to keep things professional during the day so he could train and plan. And Ginny or Hermione might kill him if he didn't let things develop normally with Susan or he supposed now Luna.

"Because I was being a moody git like normal and pushing everyone away?" Harry asked and Gabrielle smiled up at him. "Your right pet, if things happen at night then I will not complain, but during the day we have better things to do. Besides," He said looking at Susan. "I find I rather like the feeling of moving slower in a relationship. One of these days I might even get a normal relationship."

Susan smiled and shook her head as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Gabrielle sat up and Susan straddled his lap. "Why would you want a normal relationship, its over rated." She said before kissing him soundly. He returned the kiss but pulled away before Susan was ready eliciting a growl from her.

"It's daytime, and I like moving slower with you, it makes it all that much better when we take the next step." He whispered and she blushed.

"Um Harry, I might have invited Hannah to stay a few days, and may have indicated that she could share your bed with me. Not that anything would happen, but that it might..." She said getting extremely nervous.

Harry smiled at her, "If Hannah wants to come over and keep you company that's fine," He paused and waited until her face fell thinking that was the end of the statement. "And if you want her to share your nights with me, I won't complain." She smiled up at him and kissed him again quickly before scurrying off his lap.

"Actually I think its been an hour, I need to go call and see if she is coming tonight..." She hurried out of the room and down the stairs.

Harry looked over to Luna. "So what brings you here anyway?"

"Mrs. Weasley thought Ronald was lonely and I could cheer him up. And my father thought it would be a great chance to capture the Gimlets I told him were all over this place."

Harry blinked, he blinked again. "Um, your father wants you to catch Gimlets?" She nodded.

"Or photograph them, I tried to capture one from Ron earlier but the procedure was unsuccessful. Would you mind terribly if we tried on my night in your bed?" She asked him with a straight face.

Harry didn't know what to think now, apparently she had her fathers permission to help them ejaculate. That must mean she had helped Ron along somehow.... "Luna Ron doesn't have Gimlets, he is just a daft git. And I don't think I have Gimlets either." He said carefully.

"Oh, I suppose I will have to cancel my afternoon and evening sessions with him then. I wondered why none showed up in semen when he was so obviously infected with the ones that feast on common sense." She said staring off at some memory or imaginary creature, Harry couldn't be sure.

"I told Ronald I was not interested in dating him, however if you would like to help me practice the different procedures for extracting Gimlets I would still appreciate your help. I can always tell my father that even though there was no capture, I did get plenty of training."

Harry just stared at her for a while, he quickly noted the information he had on Gimlets and placed the memory aside to sort into the Luna section of his Library at a later time. "Uh, if that happens to occur, I would be happy to, um, help you with your research...I suppose." Harry finished even more confused than when he had begun.

Luna nodded and sat back on her own couch once more, leaving room for Gabrielle to stretch out and lay in his lap again. She rubbed her nose into his crotch quickly getting a response, "Down Girl!" Harry chastised her and she looked at him with innocent eyes but a devil's smile.

"I 'ave no idea what you mean Master."

"Remember, be a good girl and you will get treats okay?" She nodded excitedly and settled down properly onto his thigh where she seemed to pur in contentment.

Susan came back into the room with Hannah in tow and a huge smile on her face. "She will be staying tonight, but only one night a week." Harry and Hannah both blushed and Susan grinned.

A/N:

So a poster left me a disturbing review"

But massive grammer and spelling mistakes aside, this is a most enojoyable read.

Yes I copied that straight from the review, but no comment on his own spelling and grammAr.

It seems to have fallen under Muphrey's Law: a) if you write anything criticizing editing or proofreading, there will be a fault of some kind in what you have written


Please someone, tell me what massive spelling mistakes I have made besides Fleur and Gabrielle's French accents or Dobby and Winkys elfspeak? I go over each chapter again before posting correcting as I go, and this is after I spell check using a Harry Potter dictionary and UK English. I am an American so if its Americanisms then I apologize. But everyone seemed so happy with my self Beta Style. Any grammer mistakes are most like intentional because I couldn't think of any other way to say what I wanted. I pretty much ignore 'Fragments' because so many of them are in the dialogue.

Sometimes if you catch the chapter right away, i am still going over it again to be sure. But by the next day I should have caught it all.

Thank you for all the amazing reviews you leave. I am chalking this one up to a learning experience but if anyone notices 'Massive Spelling and Grammatical errors' Please point them out individually in a review or send me an e-mail. My profile should allow passthrough if you want to PM me.

I am going to keep going the way I have been. I will not let 1 review slow me down and I still don't feel I need a beta. But if you want to correct me I will listen.

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