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19.

To say I was upset when he answered no would be the understatement of the year. I pushed myself away from him and began to pace back and forth. A million thoughts were running through my mind. I just didn't understand, why wouldn't he just fuck me? Am I too inexperienced for him? Am I too young? What the hell was it? "From the moment we met, all you've ever done is tried to get me into bed with you, and now that I agree, you're refusing." I said glaring at him. "What the fuck was the point of your little games then? Do you have fun fucking with my head Gerard? Is that it? Did you just want to see how far you could make the little catholic boy go?" I couldn't stop myself from speaking, anger from my father, anger from being refused, anger from all my sins. It was all just too much. "Well I hope you're happy Gerard? Because I was willing to go all the way and for what? A little bit of fun. I'm just something for you to play with aren't I? And now that you've gotten bored I'm just not good enough. What the fuck kind of person does that Gerard? Do you care about anybody at all?" I asked him. He glared straight back at me, not liking the words that were pouring out of my mouth. "You think I don't care about you Frank? Huh? You think I don't want to fuck you? I have fucked so many guys that I've lost count, and the fact that I do care about you makes me not want to add you to the list. I don't want you to be just another fuck. I want you to be the fuck. I want you to mine and all mine all the fucking time. Because I did the stupidest thing and fell in love with the one boy I'm not suppose to have. You were perfect from the moment we met. I should have just left you alone but I was too fucking selfish and now look what I've done to you. Your innocence is all you have left Frankie, I don't want to take that too." He yelled at me. I just shook my head at him in disbelief. "Gerard, don't you dare give me that shit now. You could have left me alone after our first fucking kiss. You could have left me alone on the bus, not followed me up to my room to give me a hand job. Don't do this to me now Gerard. Please." I was beyond desperate, the way Gerard was talking was as if we were breaking whatever we had. "Please don't leave me." I was no longer angry, I was scared. "Despite what everyone thinks I am capable of making my own decisions. I know you think that you're messing me up, but the truth is I was already messed up. Okay? I am fully aware of what I'm doing." I said walking slowly towards him. "And I'm fully aware of what I want." I grabbed his cheeks and pulled his face close to mine. "I want you Gerard." I whispered staring at him. A strained expression crossed his face as he stared at me. "I know you want me, it's just, you shouldn't." He whispered before closing the gap between us.

I twisted my fingers in his hair and he held my face as we kissed. I started to slowly and clumsily walk us backwards towards the bed by keeping my fingers in his hair. He was going to give in, but I still wasn't chancing letting go of him. When I felt the back of my knees hit the bed I fell back pulling Gerard with me. Our tongues twisted and fought together in a never ending war that no one was trying to win, as our hands found each others and I became pinned to the bed. Gerard moved to my neck, sucking and licking while I moaned into his ear. When he let go of my hands the first thing I did was remove his shirt. His chest was soft but muscular, perfect to touch, perfect to taste. I flipped us over and began leaving wet trails down his chest from my open mouth kisses, making sure to pay extra attention to swirling my tongue around his hard nipples. Gerard pushed me away from his body and started to take my top off, I lifted my arms quickly letting him pull it over my head. He traced my tattoos with his long artist's fingers as I sat on him motionlessly watching his face. I could feel his member pressed against my ass and I ground against it, enjoying the way his eyes snapped shut and his moving fingers stilled. I bent over him and captured his mouth in another kiss, his lips were so soft as they moved against mine. I broke the kiss to suck on his ear lobe. "Fuck me?" I whispered hotly into his ear. He grabbed my face and pushed our mouths together, forcing his tongue into my mouth. He quickly flipped us over without breaking the kiss and began to unbutton my jeans. I moved my hands to the front of his jeans to do the same, feeling slightly nervous now that I knew he definitely wasn't going to resist. Now clad only in our boxers we kissed and let our hips grind together in a painfully slow motion. I broke the kiss to get some air and stared up at Gerard who was panting over me. I moved my hands to his sides and slowly trailed them down to his hips. I grabbed the band of his boxers and watching his face intently, I slipped them down his legs until I couldn't reach any further, leaving him to do the rest. He smiled gently at me and lightly kissed my lips before letting his hands slip to my boxers.

As he began to take my them off, I lifted my hips up to make it easier. He kept his eyes on my face, but I knew more than ever he really wanted to look down, he hadn't seem me completely naked before. I nodded slowly letting him know it was okay and he sat back so he could see the whole of my body as I lay panting on the bed. I should have felt uncomfortable, but Gerard's gentle stare made me feel completely relaxed. He wasn't looking at me as if I were something to be judged, it was more as if he was just letting his eyes adore the scene he was presented with. He put his hands on the outside of my legs and traced the outline of my body, all the way to my face. I moved my hands to his hips and pushed them down until I felt our members touch. The feeling was indescribable, knowing there was nothing keeping us apart. He started sucking on my bottom lip and slowly and very softly, I rubbed our dicks together, the sensation making my stomach flip. When I wrapped my legs around Gerard's waist, he broke the kiss and sat slightly up, watching my face. "Frankie.." He began but I cut him off. "Please Gerard." I begged, reaching out to caress his face. "But it's going to hurt and I don't have any lube." He said looking troubled. I grabbed his hand and brought it up to my mouth and slowly began to suck his fingers, coating them with as much spit as possible. When I released his fingers he brought them to my entrance, staring at me with a sorrow filled expression. "I'm sorry baby." He whispered before pushing a finger into me. I felt a dull burning sensation in result, but when Gerard began thrusting his finger in out it was easy to ignore. When he added a second finger though, the pain became a little more intense and again even more when he added a third. I was mentally preparing myself for the pain that I knew would be worse when he pushed his member in. He removed his fingers from inside me and pushed his open palm out towards me. "Spit baby." He whispered and I did as I was told. I watched impatiently as he began to coat himself in my spit, making me even harder at his quiet moans. When he was done he grabbed my hips firmly and lined himself up. "Relax angel." He cooed and began to push in. I did my best to relax, feeling the once dull burning sensation become more intense and impossible to ignore. He pushed himself all the way in and I wrapped my legs around his waist tightly, trying not to whimper in pain.

He began slow, moving only a little bit out before thrusting back in. I bit my lip and held onto his waist, letting the burning turn into a dull ache. "Faster." I whispered when I finally did feel comfortable enough and Gerard obeyed silently, thrusting at a quicker pace. I started to moan as he thrust, feeling him move in and out of me and just simply knowing he was inside me gave me an extraordinary pleasurable feeling all of sudden. Gerard took this as encouragement and began positioning his hips at a different angle. I knew about that certain spot in the male body, and I knew what it was suppose to feel like when it was brushed against. But when he did, it send a shocking wave of pleasure so hard throughout my entire body, that I actually couldn't refrain from screaming out. "God Gerard, fucking do that again." I panted. Gerard didn't need to be told twice, he began to hit me in that spot over and over, harder and harder. I was moaning his name and screaming curses so loudly that I'm sure the whole neighborhood would have heard. I didn't stop though and Gerard was moaning just as loud above me. I began meeting Gerard's thrusts with my hips, the only thought running through my mind was Gerard. He let one of his hands drift from my hip to grab my neglected and painfully hard member. I felt like I was going to explode when he did, pumping my cock in time with his thrusts. The feeling was so overwhelming. I felt the familiar sensation start to build up in my stomach soon after and I wrapped my legs tighter around Gerard's waist. I curled my toes and my body when stiff as I felt myself climax. The tightening of my muscles sent Gerard over the edge and I soon felt him release inside of me. I came all over his hand and my stomach, but Gerard didn't care as he collapsed on top of me.

I got up from my bed and locked my bedroom door before climbing back into it next to Gerard. We hadn't spoken a word to each other yet, just simply holding on to each other kissing and caressing was enough. I stayed on my side and faced him, feeling completely exhausted but wanting to stay awake for him. He smiled and kissed my nose. "Go to sleep baby." He whispered, looking tired himself. "Stay here?" I questioned softly. He nodded in response and we fell back into a peaceful silence. I felt for the first time in a long time really happy. I think it was the feeling of being loved. "Gerard?" I whispered incase he was asleep already. "Mhmm." He mumbled with his eyes closed. "Just so you know, I did a stupid thing too, I fell in love with the one person I wasn't suppose to have." I whispered to his sleepy face. "I know." He whispered softly, opening his eyes and gently placing a kiss on my lips. I sighed in content and fell asleep to the soft sound of humming coming from the boy I was in love with.

Okay I was a bit nervous about writing this, because I don't how I am at writing sex scenes so let me know if you liked it. Thank you all. Xoxoxo.

Raese.