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“Look at me” He whispered.
“No, I can’t. I don’t believe what we just done.”
“Sar, please don’t regret it. I thought you wanted it.”
“I did, but I’m not a free agent. It shouldn’t have happened.”
“But it did Sarah. Tell me you didn’t enjoy it” He grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. The intensity of his eyes terrified me.
“It was like nothing I have ever had in my life. It was amazing.” I whispered.
“You know I have loved you for as long as I have known you. This isn’t the first time this has happened and it won’t be the last time. I can’t let it be the last time. Mikey is just an obstacle”
“An obstacle? He’s your best friend” Tears began to fall again as I twisted my face from his grip. “I just cheated on him for fucks sake and the worst part is that he is in the other room asleep right now oblivious to what is going on right in front of him”
“Its not just your fault. Its both of ours we couldn’t help ourselves. We need each other”
I stared at the wall barely breathing.
“I think you should go” I whispered still looking at the wall.
I felt like I was dying inside. It hit me like a brick wall. I loved Frank. But I didn’t want to hurt Mikey. Something clicked in my head and everything shifted sideways. I didn’t want to hurt anyone anymore. I knew what I had to do. It was terribly fucked up but my mind wasn’t functioning right. It seemed like the best option to me.
Frank got up silently and made his way to the door. He stopped and turned to me.
“Do you remember Ray’s party?”
I nodded. At Ray’s party we had gotten really drunk and ended up sleeping together. I chose to forget about it after and put it down to the alcohol. I knew it was more than the alcohol.
This time things were different. There was no alcohol involved no excuse for what we had done.
“What has that got to do with this? We were drunk then and we’re not now”
“It means that obviously there is something between us. If you want to pretend it never happened then we can do it again like we did after Ray’s party. I just really wish we didn’t have to” he said mournfully.
“But it did happen and we cant pretend it didn’t anymore” I snapped “Mikey nearly found out the last time too. Do you remember the weeks after the party we couldn’t even talk to each other let alone be in the same room alone? Mikey asked me over and over again why I wouldn’t talk to you anymore. I almost told him then but I stopped myself because I didn’t want to hurt him.” I said dryly. I needed Frank to leave. Mikey would be up soon and I had to do what I had to do before anyone realized my mind had truly snapped this time.
“Please promise me you wont do anything stupid”
I didn’t say anything
“Promise Me” he urged with a squeeze of my hand

I nodded, not to promise him but just to make him leave faster
He kissed me on the head and left. I heard the front door close with a click.