FicWad

I feel someone watching
watching as I sleep
messing with the heart that broke inside of me
You follow me around
it's like you don't mind
that I know your secret and I see past your disguise
Suicidal thoughts
every waking night
soon I'll give into you, lose my clearity of sight

Red drips from your palms
as they strangle around my neck
giving me a high, it's better than sex
Moments like these
I wish I'd just die
I know I say it often, but it's no longer a far-fetched lie
Can you feel my pain
every blood-filled cut
I'm dirty I tell you, dirty as a mutt

I'm out of my mind
I'm out of my head
won't someone save me before I end up dead
I don't feel right
it's like I can't see
it's probably because you're so damn controlling over me
I pop another pill
try to calm myself down
and go back to living as if you weren't around