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I woke up again breathing heavily, I don't even know what set me off that time but I know I

can't keep doing this. Gerard was still sleeping soundly so I decided not to disturb him, I

got up and with quite a bit of difficulty found the kitchen and then the coffee machine, I

poured myself a big cup with lots of sugar; if sleeping was going to upset me and everybody

else then I would do what I can to stop it. I drank lots of the nice hot liquid and let

myself drift slightly into a daydream. trying to remember what I had been dreaming about but

it didn't work. I must live here or at least I did at one point so is it really that wrong to

have a snoop about, I came to the conclusion it can't be wrong if it’s my things and I just

don't remember. the big book shelf in my room was the first thing I noticed when I went up

there, it had a couple of books but mostly photo albums, I picked up the first one with old

warn out pages, the spine read "Lucy and Gerard - tour 07." the first picture I saw was a huge

field full of people, there were tents and cars and people running and jumping and being

carried and it was really sunny. There were some of us on a bus, big enough for everybody to

be on. the next was one of me, I was sat by a table with Mikey and frank on either side of me

and we had our arms round each other, we were smiling and I don't think I have ever been as

happy as I looked on this picture, it made me smile just imagining how good it would be to

feel like that. There were pictures of crowds of teenage girls surrounding Gerard. He was

grinning and signing autographs, these guys must be a really good band with all the fans they have!



There were so many pictures of me and Gerard together, us hugging kissing or holding hands, it

hurt to see him so happy and then to compare it to him now; the broken man sleeping on the

couch. I wish I knew what had happened; maybe I could make it right. I thought back to what

frank said when I woke up, we had a fight. I ran away and fell. What would make me run away

from him, he seemed so nice! Nothing seemed like it should be, I may not remember much but I

wouldn’t run away without a good reason, should I ask them or would it matter, it’s not like

I could tell if they were lying or not. Are these people I even trust? I must do, I was so

happy in those pictures. But my memory totally betrayed the happiness I have been told was there.



The lights dimmed and the music played softly, the crowd was quiet in anticipation. I can see

myself waiting at the side wondering just what they were doing, Gerard looked to me and my

heart fluttered, he winked and pulled the microphone from its stand “new jersey!” the crowd

screamed “I want you all to put your motherfucking hands together for my amazing girlfriend …

LUCY” the crowd went insane. I was pushed on by a man who I presumed was the tech. Gerard

hugged me and gave m a kiss on the lips. He looked me straight in the eyes but talked into the

mic, “Lucy, I love you more than anything in the whole world” he paused and got on one knee

“would you make me the happiest that I’ve ever been and agree to be my wife?” tears flooded

down my cheeks and I grinned from ear to ear. I nodded madly and he scooped me up into his

arms, the guitars behind us started playing the wedding march and he carried me off stage.




Damnit! I fell asleep again, although this was definitely my favourite memory of them all so

far, my mind has saved it like a video clip and it’s stored in my head, some things you can’t

forget I suppose. I looked at the clock and it was now 10 o’clock I guess I had slept a long

time, I stretched and yawned and got up, I turned the TV on to see the news, I guess this

could help. I looked at the date …

“What the FUCK!” I screamed.

The door burst open; ray had a baseball bat frank was searching the room looking concerned

“What? What happened? What’s wrong?” he shouted confused

“What date is it?” I gasped

“Umm April 8th” said ray extremely confused

“Year?” I asked

“Oh yeah … didn’t think this one through. I’m really sorry. You were in that coma for a year”

said frank giving me a hug.

“When I saw April I thought it had been a month, the doctor said I went into a coma at the

start of March” I sobbed.

“I’m so sorry baby” whispered ray joining the hug. I pulled away and took a deep breath “so …

a year. What happened?” they looked puzzled for a little bit.

“Well …erm Gerard got clean and sober. We completed the album we were working on and then we

went on break”

“Can I listen to the album?” I asked suddenly excited.

“Sure. Later though because Gerard and bob are still in bed” said ray. I nodded and went for a

snoop. I looked at all the pretty boring rooms but there was one room that was just opposite

mine that was locked. It didn’t sound like anybody was in there and I so wanted to know, the

only person I had seen go in there was Gerard and he had put the key back in his pocket. I ran

down the stairs and into the living room where he was fast asleep looking around for his jeans

I soon realised he was still wearing them. I pulled the covers back and stifled a laugh when

I saw he was quite cough enjoying his dream. I took a deep breath and held it as I put my

hand into his pocket, damn these skinnies. My hand brushed him and he let out a little moan,

I gasped terrified he would wake up. I almost had the key and he pushed up into my hand with a

grin on his face. I snatched the key and he grabbed my wrist … oh my god he’d been awake the

whole time !





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