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Joe's POV

It's 1984 and Elyssa was finally out of my life.

I divorced her.

I was tired of her and her complaining.

I remember the day I asked for divorce, she looked at me and made up some lame excuse that I

knocked her up and that she didn't want a deadbeat as a father.

I made her take a pregnancy test and it came out negative.

Last time I saw her, She was in tears.

She got on her knees and begged me not to divorce her.

She's tried that before, I was so stupid to fall for it.

That happened a year before a left Aerosmith.

My bandmates, My brothers.

If I didn't fall for it and divorced her, none of this would be happening.

I would still be with my brothers and not be in depression.

Oh and did I mention sucidal?

Drugs and Alcohol had taken over my life.

They decide what I should and should not do.

My band, The Joe Perry Project is going down the tubes.

I have not heard one good thing about the band.

I've been hearing "Joe Perry is a no good, son of a bitch. He should go back to where he belongs, Aerosmith." and other negative reviews.

I've also heard the negative reviews about Aerosmith.

One of them was "Aerosmith is nothing with Joe Perry. They should either get Joe Perry back or stop making music. They suck now that Joe left!"

Maybe I should get back together with the band.

I miss them but I really miss Steven.

He was like a brother to me.

He was my mentor, best friend but most of all, he was my lover.

I remembered the nights we spent together.

We'd get together after an argument between Elyssa and I.

He hated her, and she hated him.

I remember at one point, She had actually slapped him!

He was mad at me for weeks.

I don't remember what I did to get him to talk to me but I had to go through hell to get him to.

What hurt was the last night we saw each other.

It was the same day I left Aerosmith.

After our arguement, I looked into Steven's eyes and saw it water up with tears.

Then he yelled and told me to leave.

I stepped out of the trailer and heard him sob.

I felt like rushing back into the trailer and apologize and let him know everything would be

fine but I knew he'd probably shove me back out.

I miss Steven.

I miss him so much, I'd cry myself to sleep.

I'll cut myself every once in a while.

I need Steven, He's my everything.

I love him so much.

I'm so lonely.

I want him here with me.

Then I felt tears fall down my face.

Things just aren't the same without him...

I ran out of ideas. I deleted the other chapters. I'm sorry but I will come up with a story that will involve Steven and Joe