FicWad

hey ^_^! just a whole bunch of poems i wrote a while ago...if you like them let me know because if no one likes them I'll just delete them and get rid of them...you know it is with old stuff... while here they are...

I know I'm not gifted,
with talent or wit.
Known as an out cast,
trying to fit in.

If only I could draw,
or play really well.
Sing a good song,
and write as well.

I know I'm ugly,
I see every day.
A mirror is an a diction,
I just can't turn away.

Look in my eyes and see my true face...

*

The sun will set for us,
And we'll meet the end of day.
Our hopes will be taken from us,
But our dreams will always stay.

In our broken lives,
We'll cling to what we have.
I'll hold you in my arms,
And smother you in love.

The sun will set for us,
And we'll meet the end of day.
All that's left inside,
Is all we have to save.

In these hours we have left,
We'll kiss each others lips,
Share each others warmth and care,
In this moment of bliss.

The sun will set for us,
And we'll greet the end of day.
Night will heal our wounds,
And take our pain away.


**


Soundlessly I

Breathing tears, how it hurts,
Love is blind, I have learned.
Falling down, who'll catch me?
Hit the ground soundlessly.

Bleeding pain, what is worse?
Feeling shame, is this a curse?
Darkness surrounds me, I can't see,
Screaming words soundlessly.

Truth in lies, now I know,
No feelings left, none to show.
My heart is dead and my soul full,
No one knows me at all.

Breathing tears, bleeding pain,
Falling down, feeling shame.
Screaming words, who'll catch me?
Screaming words soundlessly.

*

Soundlessly II

Feeling tears as they burn,
Keeping fears and concerns.
There are things I try to be,
But all I am comes soundlessly.

Cold and numb in this darkness,
Alone with no one in this vastness.
Crying out in a heart broken scream,
But all I am comes soundlessly.

Shivers come violent and depressing,
From all the emotions I'm surpressing.
I kick the dirt and let go of me,
But all I am comes soundlessly.

Broken hearted, smothered in pain,
Chocked by plastic, it's all the same.
I open my eyes and finally see,
All I am and will ever be,
Will always come soundlessly.

*

Soundlessly III

I feel lost and hurt,
With all these feelings that burn,
How did I end up like this?
I try to cry and scream,
All I am soundlessly.

I try to smile and bare it,
But it's better if I don't share it.
So many things trigger me,
All I am soundlessly.

I want to love and feel,
In a fantasy world that's real.
Keep it all inside of me,
All I am soundlessly.

I have a gaping hole,
were my heart used to be,
I'm in so much pain,
All I am is soundlessly.

I seem to be so lonely,
Like I'm missing something.
What did I lose so dear to me?
All I am is soundlessly.

I am depressed and lost,
No one helps me now.
I don't want to live in this world,
I want to get out some how.
I want to run away where I can be,
I want to run away and not be soundlessly.


*


Fear

Press a finger to my lips,
I have a secret to tell,
No one must know,
How I really feel.

Cover your eyes,
I don't want you to see,
All the emotions mixing,
Emotions you see in me.

Block your ears,
I don't want you to hear,
The anger and pain,
building over years.

Take your finger from my lips,
That single moment has now passed,
I have nothing to say,
No matter how you ask.

Uncover yous eyes,
Theres nothing to see,
Everything is hidden,
Deep inside of me.

Unblock your ears,
There is nothing you can't hear,
I have stored it inside me,
Hidden all my fears.

*

Inside,

I feel it deep inside,
How could it be like this?
I want to run and hide,
Get away from all this mess.

I feel as if I'm lost,
She's taken all of me.
All I am is gone,
She's faking being me.

I used to be the only one,
that was who I was.
I used to be the only one,
That is now all lost.

I see it in her eyes,
A glint of what she wants.
I see it in her smile,
She's taken all I Got.

I want to be me,
The only one there is.
Why can't they see,
she's only coping me?

I'm feeling so cold and tired,
I don't really understand.
How could someone else,
Get away with being who I am?


*

Deep,

I feel cold and tired,
You said you'd always understand.
But when I was lost,
I found you were never really there.

In the night, while I'm alone,
Surrounded by darkness, like it's my thrown,
I close my eyes and let the pain seep in,
Because what they say is true...

Blood runs deep

I looked up to you,
You frowned down at me,
I faked smiles for you,
Even though you said you hated me,
It's true what they say...

Blood runs deep,
Really deep...

Deeper then the scratches you left on me while you were hitting me,
Deeper then the bitter words you said to me that frayed away my sanity.

Deeper then the shit you put me through,
Deeper then I'd like it to...

Blood runs deep...

*


Dearest Love,

Forgive me for I have sinned,
Held to a human emotion that meant nothing.

Crushing my heart with hate and pain,
I cried tears casting blame.

A smile and laugh to cover my tears,
Living a painful lie for years.

I start to shake and feel the pain,
I shut off completely and walk in shame.

Feeling this hurts me more,
And I let it swell inside me till I can't take anymore.

I couldn't give it up or let it go,
Never asked for help, stupid I know.

Trying to make it on my own,
Killing my hopes and life with the little I truly know.

Forgive me for I have sinned against my self,
Held onto something long past gone that destroyed my soul and health.

Forgive me for I have sinned,
I just didn't come to you for anything.

*

END,

Maybe sometime this will all go away,
Maybe sometime I'll have more to my life.
Maybe sometime there will be more to say,
Maybe sometime I'll be free of these lies.

Maybe, just maybe my life will end,
with pen and paper still clutched in my hand.

Maybe tonight I will say my good byes,
Maybe tonight there might be more to say,
Maybe tonight I'll be free and fly,
Maybe tonight I will leave and go away.

Maybe tonight, tomorrow or soon,
Maybe right now in this very room,
Maybe, just maybe my life will end,
With pen and paper still clutched in my hand...