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"Sit down" he said pointing towards the couch. I just looked at him. I was really nervous all of a sudden. I looked over at the doorway.
"Uh no I'm okay." I said without moving. I suddenly felt the urge to just bolt out there. But he was blocking the doorway. I never realized how big of a man he was... And he was in fact a man...I watched Brutus take off his coat. He had a lot of tattoos on his forearms. I never really looked at them before...They were interesting. All different types and colors blended together. He was maybe 35 or 40 years old I figured. Not an old old man but much older then me. I was only 18. He just looked so much like Brutus from Popeye-it was crazy... I never really noticed how large of a man he actually was until now. Over 6 feet tall. Broad shoulders, big arms. He seemed very intimidating all of a sudden... I don't know why I never saw him like this before...
"I'm not gonna bite darling." He laughed moving towards me. I forced a smile back.
"No its just." I shrugged and looked around. It was a small apartment. From what I could see of it anyway. It was dark and kind of I don't know if I'd call it trashy. But it was obvious he lived here alone.
"Sit down." He repeated a little rougher.
"Okay." I said weakly. Honestly I was kind of scared now... I just wanted to leave...
"Let me get you something.." He said as I sat... Something?? is that what he said? What is he getting??? Oh fuck... he means a coat or something... yeah.. hurry up man.. just get me a sweatshirt or something so I can get out of here, I thought as he turned around.
I put Lia's bag down on the table. It fell over and a bag of coke slid out and landed on the floor by Brutus's feet. I looked up at Brutus nervously. He picked up the baggie and looked at it closely. Oh fuck! I thought he was gonna freak out... you never know... some people are like that...He didn't though... He just kinda smiled and tossed it to me. As I caught it he smirked.
" So you gonna cut that up?" He said nodding at me. My jaw dropped.
"You wouldn't mind?" I asked. He shrugged.
"Go head sweety." He smiled and then disappeared into another room. I don't know where he went really cause as soon as he shrugged I brushed off his table and dumped the coke on it. I had never felt so desperate for it before... I didn't like that feeling at all... but it faded quick enough. As soon as the powder hit my nose the feeling was gone... Each line I inhaled brought me higher and higher. I don't know how long I was hunched over Brutus' table for... Or how many lines I did...
The next thing I know Brutus has his hand on my back. "Hey that's enough" he says as he pulled me onto the couch next to him. I look over at him and he handed me a beer. I took a long sip of it and then blurted out.
"Uh you know I'm not really 21 right?" and he just smiled at me. "I mean I don't want to get you in any kind of trouble now." I said and I sniffled a little. Maybe he'll ask me to leave, I hoped.
"No its no trouble." he said picking up the razor blade from the table. He held it up and looked at it for a moment. I started to freak out a little... The way he was holding it and looking at me...Then he turned his eyes back to me. "You are at least 18 though right?" He said. I nodded quickly... He shrugged and tossed the blade back down. Fuck.. you need to relax Elle, He's not gonna hurt you... I thought to myself and downed the rest of the beer. He got up and brought me another one....
Time ticked by quickly...
"Those are really cool tattoos man." I say running my hand along his arm. " I really like the scorpion...I'm a scorpion too.. " I giggled. "No wait I mean I'm a uh Scorpio!" I tell him slurring over my words...After a half a dozen more beers, well on top of all that coke I snorted....lets just say that I was so fucked up it wasn't even funny.
"You like em?" He said holding his arms out for me to see. He started talking about where he got them done and all this shit... He said he even did some of them himself...
"Aw I wish I had one." I told him sighing.
"I can give you one darling." He said and smiled.
"Really?" I asked sitting up tall." Like the scorpion?" I ask him as he got up. He nodded and came back with a needle, thread and a bottle of ink.
"Sure where do you want it?" He said moving closer to me. He reached his arm out and ran his hand along down my back slowly. I suddenly had a flash of when Gerard did that. Oh god! Gerard!! What the fuck am I doing here! I totally lost track of the time.... I mean I just... Argh !!! I just wanted to get away from Lia and then just go and do a few lines to relax before I met up with Gerard... Fuck the last thing I intended to do was get high with the pervy old guy from the liquor store.....I went to get up and Brutus pulled me back down on to the couch. “Hey where you going baby? --we're just getting started" He smiled and pulled me onto his lap. I could smell the alcohol on his breath.
Fuck... What was I even doing here? How long have I been sitting here drinking with him for??? It was making me sick being so close to him. I pulled back a little. This was just too much...
"Look I don't what you had in mind man... but I gotta go." I said getting up again. Brutus reached out and grabbed my arm roughly as I stood up in front of him. I winced a little in pain. “Get the fuck off me!" I yelled trying to pull away. But he was too strong...
"So youre a little fucking tease or what?!" he growled at me as he stood up too, towering over me now. He was still holding my arm tightly, and pulled me even closer to him. I tried to pull away but he was too strong...
“Stop. Let me go!” I screamed out louder then I meant to and he dropped my arm suddenly... For a split second I thought I won. That it was over. And all of a sudden he hit me.
I didnt even see it coming either. He just swung and the back of his hand collided against my cheek so hard I went flying back across the room. My mouth was bleeding... or maybe it was my nose... I couldn't tell... All I could taste was the blood was running down my throat...choking me. He picked me up off the floor and shook me roughly. I was coughing on the blood now but he didn’t stop... He was dragging me back across the room and onto the couch....
I was so disoriented. My head was throbbing... the pain was unbearable... I tried to get up but he was on top of me... He was too heavy... He reached up and pressed his forearm against my throat and I couldn't breathe...I could feel his breath on my neck... I clawed at his arm desperate for air. I heard a crash as he had reached over and knocked his pathetic Christmas tree over with his other arm.. Ripping the cord of lights from it. He twisted them around my arms stretching them above my head so tightly some of the bulbs had broken and were cutting into my skin. I wanted to scream out in pain but could barely breathe…the last thing I heard before I blacked out was his voice...his words echoed in my head as everything went dark....
"I'm gonna teach you a lesson you're never gonna forget darling...."
"Uh no I'm okay." I said without moving. I suddenly felt the urge to just bolt out there. But he was blocking the doorway. I never realized how big of a man he was... And he was in fact a man...I watched Brutus take off his coat. He had a lot of tattoos on his forearms. I never really looked at them before...They were interesting. All different types and colors blended together. He was maybe 35 or 40 years old I figured. Not an old old man but much older then me. I was only 18. He just looked so much like Brutus from Popeye-it was crazy... I never really noticed how large of a man he actually was until now. Over 6 feet tall. Broad shoulders, big arms. He seemed very intimidating all of a sudden... I don't know why I never saw him like this before...
"I'm not gonna bite darling." He laughed moving towards me. I forced a smile back.
"No its just." I shrugged and looked around. It was a small apartment. From what I could see of it anyway. It was dark and kind of I don't know if I'd call it trashy. But it was obvious he lived here alone.
"Sit down." He repeated a little rougher.
"Okay." I said weakly. Honestly I was kind of scared now... I just wanted to leave...
"Let me get you something.." He said as I sat... Something?? is that what he said? What is he getting??? Oh fuck... he means a coat or something... yeah.. hurry up man.. just get me a sweatshirt or something so I can get out of here, I thought as he turned around.
I put Lia's bag down on the table. It fell over and a bag of coke slid out and landed on the floor by Brutus's feet. I looked up at Brutus nervously. He picked up the baggie and looked at it closely. Oh fuck! I thought he was gonna freak out... you never know... some people are like that...He didn't though... He just kinda smiled and tossed it to me. As I caught it he smirked.
" So you gonna cut that up?" He said nodding at me. My jaw dropped.
"You wouldn't mind?" I asked. He shrugged.
"Go head sweety." He smiled and then disappeared into another room. I don't know where he went really cause as soon as he shrugged I brushed off his table and dumped the coke on it. I had never felt so desperate for it before... I didn't like that feeling at all... but it faded quick enough. As soon as the powder hit my nose the feeling was gone... Each line I inhaled brought me higher and higher. I don't know how long I was hunched over Brutus' table for... Or how many lines I did...
The next thing I know Brutus has his hand on my back. "Hey that's enough" he says as he pulled me onto the couch next to him. I look over at him and he handed me a beer. I took a long sip of it and then blurted out.
"Uh you know I'm not really 21 right?" and he just smiled at me. "I mean I don't want to get you in any kind of trouble now." I said and I sniffled a little. Maybe he'll ask me to leave, I hoped.
"No its no trouble." he said picking up the razor blade from the table. He held it up and looked at it for a moment. I started to freak out a little... The way he was holding it and looking at me...Then he turned his eyes back to me. "You are at least 18 though right?" He said. I nodded quickly... He shrugged and tossed the blade back down. Fuck.. you need to relax Elle, He's not gonna hurt you... I thought to myself and downed the rest of the beer. He got up and brought me another one....
Time ticked by quickly...
"Those are really cool tattoos man." I say running my hand along his arm. " I really like the scorpion...I'm a scorpion too.. " I giggled. "No wait I mean I'm a uh Scorpio!" I tell him slurring over my words...After a half a dozen more beers, well on top of all that coke I snorted....lets just say that I was so fucked up it wasn't even funny.
"You like em?" He said holding his arms out for me to see. He started talking about where he got them done and all this shit... He said he even did some of them himself...
"Aw I wish I had one." I told him sighing.
"I can give you one darling." He said and smiled.
"Really?" I asked sitting up tall." Like the scorpion?" I ask him as he got up. He nodded and came back with a needle, thread and a bottle of ink.
"Sure where do you want it?" He said moving closer to me. He reached his arm out and ran his hand along down my back slowly. I suddenly had a flash of when Gerard did that. Oh god! Gerard!! What the fuck am I doing here! I totally lost track of the time.... I mean I just... Argh !!! I just wanted to get away from Lia and then just go and do a few lines to relax before I met up with Gerard... Fuck the last thing I intended to do was get high with the pervy old guy from the liquor store.....I went to get up and Brutus pulled me back down on to the couch. “Hey where you going baby? --we're just getting started" He smiled and pulled me onto his lap. I could smell the alcohol on his breath.
Fuck... What was I even doing here? How long have I been sitting here drinking with him for??? It was making me sick being so close to him. I pulled back a little. This was just too much...
"Look I don't what you had in mind man... but I gotta go." I said getting up again. Brutus reached out and grabbed my arm roughly as I stood up in front of him. I winced a little in pain. “Get the fuck off me!" I yelled trying to pull away. But he was too strong...
"So youre a little fucking tease or what?!" he growled at me as he stood up too, towering over me now. He was still holding my arm tightly, and pulled me even closer to him. I tried to pull away but he was too strong...
“Stop. Let me go!” I screamed out louder then I meant to and he dropped my arm suddenly... For a split second I thought I won. That it was over. And all of a sudden he hit me.
I didnt even see it coming either. He just swung and the back of his hand collided against my cheek so hard I went flying back across the room. My mouth was bleeding... or maybe it was my nose... I couldn't tell... All I could taste was the blood was running down my throat...choking me. He picked me up off the floor and shook me roughly. I was coughing on the blood now but he didn’t stop... He was dragging me back across the room and onto the couch....
I was so disoriented. My head was throbbing... the pain was unbearable... I tried to get up but he was on top of me... He was too heavy... He reached up and pressed his forearm against my throat and I couldn't breathe...I could feel his breath on my neck... I clawed at his arm desperate for air. I heard a crash as he had reached over and knocked his pathetic Christmas tree over with his other arm.. Ripping the cord of lights from it. He twisted them around my arms stretching them above my head so tightly some of the bulbs had broken and were cutting into my skin. I wanted to scream out in pain but could barely breathe…the last thing I heard before I blacked out was his voice...his words echoed in my head as everything went dark....
"I'm gonna teach you a lesson you're never gonna forget darling...."
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