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I spent Saturday, Christmas day at Pauls house, playing with his little brothers and Mindy. We hardly spoke, which was kind of a good thing cause Paul can be an insensitive ass sometimes. Well, actually he is most of the time. But then there are other times that's he's... he's... he's like he was last night....

Now we're pulling up in front of my house. It was real late at night. I didn't want to go home either but I knew I couldn't just keep hiding out at Pauls house....I look over at Paul in the drivers seat and smile a little... I didn't have as horrible a time as I thought I would with him and his family... He really wasn't a bad guy... just a little misunderstood... I could feel my old feelings for him creeping back up on me as he smiled back at me...

"Goodnight babe." He said leaning over to kiss my cheek. Before I would've stopped him... but now... Oh fuck.. now I didn't... I just let him... Oh God Elle! Don't fucking do this! Just cause Paul was nice to you for one fucking night does not mean...that... argh.... He was just feeling sorry for you.... He's not 'misunderstood'... You understand him Elle... You KNOW what he's like...

My mind was reeling. I said good night back quickly and reached for the door handle. Paul reached his hand out and grabbed my arm and stopped me. "What?" I said hesitantly. He was looking over my shoulder at my house with a concerned look on his face...

"I didn't leave the light on." He said with an odd tone to his voice. I looked out the window. Sure enough you could see the kitchen light was on through the window.

"Are you sure?" I asked as he got out of the car. He nodded and was walking towards the front door. I got out of the car and was a few steps behind him.

"Wait by the car Elle." He whispered loudly. I shook my head no. "Elle." He insisted.

"Oh HELL no!" I exclaimed back. "I've seen this movie Paul." I said grabbing his arm.

"What?" He said trying to drag me back across the lawn to the car. I pull away from him.

"In the movie Paul..." I tell him. "The fucking guy tells the girl to stay here and some god damn giant monster and a zombie comes and kidnap her and then eat her..." I say I follow him back towards the living room window. He peeks in. I guess he didn't see anything inside cause he was frowning and walking back towards the front door. "I'm not waiting here alone!" I said following him back on to the porch.

"What fucking movie was that?" Paul said smirking a little at me. "With a giant monster AND a zombie?" He laughs a little now.

"I dunno what it was called." I said shrugging.

"Elle...please..." He said frustrated with me.

"No it really was a movie!" I cry out. He's shaking his head no at me." I saw it the other day!" I tell him.

"You don't even like horror movies Elle!" He laughs..."How were you watching one the other day!"

I frown at him. "I do to like them." I say He's still shaking his head no at me. He doesn't believe me... "Whatever Paul." I said throwing my hands in the air. "But that's what happened... you can even ask Gerard he saw it too." I say.

"Ohhhh... 'Gerard'." Paul smirks a little. I frown again. " I fucking get it now... 'Gerard' likes horror movies!" He said and laughed.

"So?" I say roughly to Paul. He was still smiling...

"So that's why you were watching it." He said laughing a little. I just stared at him..

"Yeah?" I said wrinkling my eyebrows at him. He smirked. "What?" I demanded.

"Nothing." He said taking the keys from my hand.

"What is it!" I said again louder.

"Naw, its nothing just that...your boyfriend's a freak." He said under his breath as he unlocked the door and opened it slightly.

"What the fuck is your problem." I say loudly.

"Shhhhh!" he hisses at me as he peeks inside.

"Oh god forbid we scare whoever's inside!" I yell. Paul shuts the door and turns back to me on the porch.

"Elle." He said firmly looking into my eyes. He had a real serious look on his face now. "I don't know who's inside, but I can tell you it's not a giant monster or a fucking zombie okay." He said grabbing my arm. "That's why I want you to go wait in the car." He says. I shake my head no. He frowns.

"No I won't." I say folding my arms. He sighs and opens the door again.

"I don't know why you're so fucking worried about being kidnapped" He snickers as we go inside. "The monster always kidnaps a virgin girl anyway and we both know that 'that' you're not!" He laughs...

What did I say... he's an insensitive ass... I can't believe what I was thinking in the car... Fuck...

"Stay by the door." He says as he goes down the hall. I can hear him opening the bedroom doors and closet doors... I just stood and waited... Honestly, I was a little scared. I was glad he was there... All though I'll probably never admit it to him... He came walking back down the hall and shrugged.

"You probably just left the light on." I said sighing.

He shook his head no as we walked into the living room. "Wait let me check the kitchen." He says and I sigh again and sit on the couch as he disappeared through the kitchen doorway.

"Lia!" I hear him say loudly.

"Lia's here?" I say jumping up off the couch and going into the kitchen. There was no one there but Paul. He was holding a piece of paper and frowning. Oh Fuck. I was glad she wasn't here.. I didn't want her to see my face... The swelling had gone down but you could still see the bruise...even under all the makeup I put on...

Paul was reading the paper over and frowning. "Lia was here!" He said scowling in disgust at her name.

"Lia was here? How?" I ask Paul. I left my purse at Lia's but luckily I had my keys hooked onto my jeans. How the hell did she get in? "Didn't you lock the door when you left?" I ask him. He shakes his head yes at me and starts reading from the paper.

"'Dear Elle- I'm sorry I called you a bitch'- uhhhhhhh, " Pauls says skimming over some parts. "Okay uh here we go... 'you took my purse, so I came to borrow some sugar?'" Paul reads and makes a face. "What the fuck does that mean?" He says looking up at me. I just shrug. He frowns and looks back down at the note and starts reading again. "You can put it back later. I fished your key out of the tree for you, I left it by the microwave. Oh and if your worried... I didn't get bit like Paul did. God he's such a - " Pauls voice cut off and he smiled evilly as he read the rest of what Lia wrote about him. I tried to grab the paper from him but he held it up high out of my reach.

"Paul." I protested.

"Aw Lia I feel the same about you!" He smirked and crumpled the note up tossing it into the trash can.

I just sighed and looked at Paul. He looked back at me. It was silent for a moment. I was about to tell him thanks for bringing me home, now get the fuck out... when the phone rang. I just froze. It was probably Gerard... I didn't want to talk to him... If he knew I was here he might come over... Paul looked at me. "The phones ringing Elle." He says to me.

"Yeah I can hear it!" I say getting a cup down from the cabinet. I really wanted some tea... like Bobbi-Jo use to make me... Oh God I miss Bobbi-Jo....I filled the cup with water and went to put in the microwave. The phone was still ringing.

"Do you want me to get it?" Paul asked reaching for it on the wall.

"NO!" I yell.

"It could be your precious Gerard." Paul teases.

"That's what I'm afraid of." I say softly. Pauls grinning at me and reaching for the phone.

"No!" I yell out as he picks it up.

"Its just too easy." He says softly to me as he pulls it to his ear. He would love it to be Gerard... Catching him here so late at night... God damn it Paul!! "Hello?" He says roughly into the phone. I rush over and try to take the receiver from him but he's too fucking tall. He's got a big grin on his face now as he's listening to whoever was on the other end of the line.

"Aw..I was hoping it was you calling-."







I tried to reach for the phone again, but I'm barely 5'1. It was no use- I couldn't reach it. I wanted to yell at him but I wasn't sure who it was on the phone yet. Paul was grinning now amused by whatever the person on the phone was saying." What the fuck do you want to talk to my girl for?" He says into the phone and laughs a little. Shit... It's got to be Gerard... I reached for it again. Paul took a step back.

"Paul." I whispered loudly and held my hand out. He just smiled at me, ignoring the fact that I wanted the phone and that's its my fucking house... Damn it Paul...I went towards him again and put my one hand on his waist and poked him a little. I thought maybe he'd lower his arm and I could grab the phone from him. It didn't work...

He just laughed a little and said "Elle get the fuck off me." As he stepped back again holding the phone even further out of my reach. The person on the other end must've asked what was going on cause he was grinning now and looking down at me. "Aw nothing..." He's smiling now..."Elle's just a little frisky... you know how she is!" He laughs. I frown at him. What the fuck is his problem?!

"Paul!" I yell and fold my arms.

"Just a second babe." He says holding his hand up in my face as he listened into the receiver. Oh hell no! Paul walked over to the counter and leant his arm on it. He turned his back a little to me. "That's none of your fucking business!" He says loudly into the phone...

"No if I wanna fucking stay over I will!" he kinda yells now. That's it... I don't believe him. I grab the kitchen chair and drag it over to him. I climb up on top of it and now I'm taller than him. And I've got him blocked between the counter and the chair so he can't walk away. "Elle spent last night in my bed so maybe we'll spend tonight in hers!" He laughs a little in to the phone. My face dropped. I didn't know what to say. I just looked at him. "Oh fuck you too Lia!" he yells into the phone.

Lia? Lia's on the phone?... not Gerard?.... Oh thank God! I grab the phone from him. "Lia I cant really talk now." I say climbing down off the chair and sitting in it. Paul slides the chair with me in it out of his way and opens the fridge.

"what the fuck is he doing there!" she yells into the phone. I look over at him.

"Uh... he's getting a drink from the fridge." I say plainly as he takes the juice out.

"God damn it Elle. That's not funny!" Lia yells again. "Are you fucking him again?!" she hisses into the phone.

"No!" I exclaim.

"I mean it Elle!" she says getting all worked up." Do not and I mean do not let him stay over... do you hear me?!" I take a slow deep breath and look over at Paul. If he doesn't stay that means Ill be alone... I look down at my feet. I didn’t want to be alone…"ELLE!" Lia's voice rings out from the phone.

"Yeah I heard you." I say softly. "look Lia I'm real tired can we talk later." I sigh.

"Whatever." She says and hangs up on me. I look up at Paul whose sipping on his juice like nothing.

"What the fuck is your problem." I say to him.

"She started it." He says like he's two years old. I roll my eyes at him. "Did you want me to stay?" He says weakly.

Holy shit! Is he fucking serious?! I look at him. He is!

"Paul?!" I say in total disbelief.

"Awww...I'm sorry babe..." He moans reaching for me... God how many times have I played this scene with him. First he's an inexcusable jerk, then I pout about his bad behavior so he apologizes... and I give in... I always give in... no... not this time... I shake my head no at him. He looks surprised. "aww baby..." he says reaching for me again. I take a step back and just look at him. "Your gonna be all alone tonight then." He says looking into my eyes. He knew all my weaknesses and wasn’t afraid to exploit them.

"I know." I say taking the glass from him and putting it into the dishwasher. I looked in the sink. My dishes from Thursday were still there...Fuck... I start to put them in too. "Goodnight Paul." I say with my back to him.

"I can't leave you alone." He said leaning against the doorway.

"What?!" I laugh as I turn around. He's got his arms folded and he's shaking his head at me. What the fuck? I wont ask him to stay so he's gonna what fucking pretend that he cares so we spend the night together again?? "Paul I-"I started to say and there was a knock on the door. I just froze.

"I'll get it." He said walking out of the kitchen.

"Don't." I called out. It was too late. I could hear Lia's voice arguing with him.

"What the fuck is he still doing here?" She says loudly as she came into the kitchen. I had my back to her and I was closing the dishwasher now.

"Lia please..he was just leaving." I said without turning around.

"No I'm not." Paul said defiantly. I forgot Lia was there for a second...I forgot about the bruise on my cheek too...I spun around.

"Paul...just go damn it!" I yell at him.

"What happened to your-" Lia cried out looking at me. I looked down. "YOU!" she screamed at Paul.

"Lia it's not like that!" I say as she glares at Paul.

"Don't fucking defend him!" She yells. "God you're a bastard!" She screams at him.

"That's not what happened." I said closing my eyes. I took a deep breath.

"Just get out of here Paul!" Lia yells. "Get the fuck out before... before...argh.." she says waving her hands at him.

"Before what Lia?" Paul smirks at her. I've got to give Lia credit...She stood her ground. I mean she's not that much taller than me and Paul can be pretty intimidating. They stared at each other for a moment and then Lia turned away smiling a little.

"I'm calling my dad." She declared and picked up the phone.

"Lia no!" I said, but she just shook her head and started dialing. I turned to Paul. "Just go please!" I begged him. He frowned. "Paul." I said softly and he sighed. "Lia's here now... I'm not alone...please." I said taking his hand. I could hear Lia talking to her dad.

"Fine." He said and kissed my cheek.

"Bastard!" Lia calls out as he walked out of the kitchen. When I heard him shut the front door I turned back to Lia. She was hanging up the phone.

"Lia tell you're dad not to come over." I said sighing.

"No it's too late." She laughed a little." I woke him up...and you know how he gets!" she smiled a little.

"Fuck."I said biting my lip. I did not want to have to deal with Lia's dad too... It was bad enough Lia was here and I was gonna have to explain... explain...oh god... I'm gonna be sick...

"Elle." Lia said softly and reached her hand to my face. She ran her hand along my cheek and was frowning.

"Paul didn't hit me." I said softly and looked down at my feet.

"Yeah I've heard that one before." She said mockingly.

"What?" I asked.

"Uh...remember last year at Dairy Queen?" She snapped.

"That was different." I said making a face.

"He slapped you!" she cried out.

"Yeah but that was cause-"

Lia interrupted me. "And uhhh what about after Tommy's party?" She said shaking her head at me.

"That was an accident!" I exclaimed. Lia frowned. " I told you...he was a little drunk and yeah he gets a little rough sometimes." I said biting my lip again.

"No Elle." Lia said shaking her head. "Let me tell you something... the first time a guy puts his hands on me like that.... Would be the last." She said roughly.

"That's just the way guys are Lia." I sigh and lean my hands on the glass table. I hung my head forward and looked at the floor through the table trying to compose myself.

"No there not all like that." Lia said softly.

"Yeah they are..."I laughed a little and sniffled trying not to cry. "I think it's the testosterone!" I tell her.

"Maybe." Lia says coming up behind me. She wrapped her arms around my waist and put her head on my shoulder. I leant back into her and took a deep breath. "Oh Ellie." She sighed hugging me.

"I hate men." I said wiping a tear from my eye. I pulled Lia closer to me. I was starting to shake a little remembering...

"Maybe you should give them up then." Lia said softly in my ear.

I chuckled. "Yeah right..." That was funny...

"It wouldn't be that bad." Lia said pressing her face into my neck." Would it?" she asks.
I
step forward a little and look over my shoulder at her. She had a strange look on her face. "you're kidding right?" I ask her wide-eyed. She didn't answer. "Lia?" I insist. She smiles a little. I smile back. She was about to say something when her dad started knocking on the door. More like pounding out it... God I've got to remember never to wake him in the middle of the night again....