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I told Gerard that I wanted to leave before his mom came home. He didn't argue. It was just better that way. I let him drive my car back to my house. I stared out the window the whole way home. He had the radio on pretty loud so we hardly spoke. As we walked into my room the phone was ringing. I wasn't gonna answer it but Gerard kept looking at me.

"Do you want me to answer it?" He offered. I looked at him and smiled remembering how Paul acted last night when the phone rang. God I was so lucky to have him. He looked back at me a little confused.

"You know I love you." I said sweetly.

He smiled. "So that's a yes? Answer it?" He asks. I smile and shake my head no and pick it up.

"Hello?" I say watching Gerard lay down on my bed. He picked up the Cosmo magazine Lia left on my nightstand the other day and started flipping through it smirking a little.

"Uh hi Elle." A girls voice says.

"Who is this?" I ask and Gerard looks up a little concerned.

"Oh I'm sorry Elle... it's me Chrissy from school." She says cheerfully.

"Oh Chrissy!" I say and Gerard looks back down at the magazine. "I didn't recognize your voice!" I tell her rolling my eyes...Like I'm suppose to recognize here voice! I hardly speak to her...What the fuck does she want?... "Uh if this is about those pictures for class Chrissy I really cant..." I say shaking my head even though she can't see me.

"No silly goose!" She cries out and laughs a little sharply. I cringe a little. I'm remembering why I don't like her...She's always so fucking perky.

"Oh."I say and there was silence. Then what the fuck could she want from me... "well uh- what's up Chrissy?" I say unsteadily.

"I was wondering... I mean...you're friends with Frankie Iero right?" She says softly.

"Frankie Iero?" I say and Gerard looks up again. I sit on the bed and he leans over. I hold the receiver a little from my ear so he can hear her too. "uhh I guess were friends." I reply not liking where this is going...

"I don't know if you know this but ummm I kinda like him." She giggles. Gerard's smiling. . I roll my eyes. Damn this cordless phone! I could really use a cord to strangle myself right about now!

"I kinda noticed." I said sharply.

"Oh my god! You could tell? I'm so embarrassed!" She said. I sighed. I am so not in the mood for this. "Frankie doesn't know though does he? I mean has he said something about me?" She asked sounding like she was gonna cry. I look at Gerard. He shakes his head no.

"Uh no." I say and she sighed a little. "I don't think he knows you like him Chrissy... I mean he can be real dense sometimes." I laugh fakely.

"Do you think that... oh god Elle... I was wondering if like maybe we could all hang out or go to a movie or something?" She babbled on. She wanted me to set her up with Frankie...I pulled the phone from my ear and frowned at Gerard. He was nodding. I shook my head no. I mean this is Chrissy! Little miss sunshine! If Frankie wants to get with her I don't care but I don't want to watch! Gerard mouthed 'say yes' to me.

"Yes?" I questioned Gerard. He shook his head harder. I sighed and pulled the phone back to my ear.

"Did you say yes? I couldn't hear you." Chrissy said.

"Uh yeah I guess I did." I hesitantly said.

"Oh my god that's so awesome!" Chrissy squealed and I cringed some more. "So um what time do you want to meet?" She asks me.

"I don't fucking know!" I snap at her. Gerard frowns. 'be nice' he mouths to me. "I mean.. uh I'll call Frankie and have him call you okay Chrissy?" I say as nicely as I can. "I guess we can go to a movie or something you guys can make the plans okay?" I sigh. Gerard is smiling.

"Okay!" She says excitedly. "Thanks Elle!" She says as I go to hang up." Were gonna have such a great time!" She squeals. I hang up and look at Gerard.

"WHY?!" I ask him hanging my head down.

"Why not?" He says kissing the top of my head.

"Cause its Chrissy!" I cry out looking up at him.

"She's cute!" he says smiling.

"You got a thing for Chrissy I don't know about!" I tease.

"No but Frankie does!" he laughs.

"Then why didn't he partner up with her?" I ask.

Gerard shrugs. "I don't know." He says picking back up the magazine. "You read this shit?" He laughs flipping through it.

"Lia left it here." I sighed taking it from him. "Hey..uh can you call Frankie and ask him if he wants to go and give him Chrissy number too ... please?" I ask Gerard batting my eyes at him. He laughed a little and shook his head no. "Aw come on." I whine. "I can't believe you made me tell her yes! I can't stand her!" I pout. "Just forget it then." I sigh. "Ill call her back and tell her he said no." I add.

"You cant do that!" He exclaims

"Watch me." I said picking up the phone. He grabbed it from me.

"Fine Ill call him Jesus Christ Elle!" he laughs "Do you have a problem with Chrissy?" He adds smiling a little.

"Uh yeah!" I say taking my boots off. Gerard's looking at me waiting for me to go on. "Its just she so... so..." I shrug and stop talking mid sentence as I put my boots away in their box... I probably wont wear them again until next month...if even then. I smile as I stack the boxes back up. Ahh... my shoes...how I love them...

"She's so what?"Gerards asks turning on the phone to call Frankie. I look over at him and frown. "Well?" He says as he starts to dial.

"She's just to god damn happy." I finally say frowning.

He stopped dialing and looked at me. I shrugged. Then he put the phone down on his lap. "You don't like her cause she's happy?" he laughs.

"No cause she's obscenely happy!" I proclaim. Gerard's smiling at me." Come on you don't think she's just a little too happy... like all the fucking time!" I say getting upset just thinking about it. He shakes his head no. "Gerard!" I insist.

"I never really noticed" He said shrugging as he got up off the bed and came towards me.

"How could you not notice!" I laugh. "She sits like 5 feet away from you in fucking class!"

"Elle the only girl I ever look at in class is you." He says reaching over and pushing the hair from my face. I smiled at him as my heart melted. I leant forward and kissed him softly.

"So you'll come?" he said softly after our lips parted. I nodded. He kissed me again quickly. "And uh you'll be nice?" he whispered.

I rolled my eyes. "to Chrissy?" I ask biting my lip a little.

"Yes Elle... to Chrissy!" he laughs a little.

"You know she's a sophomore!" I say to him.

"So's Frankie!" he replies.

"She's blonde!" I say louder.

"So's Bob!" Gerard laughs.

"She never fucking curses!" I tell him.

"You curse enough for everyone!" Gerard laughs again.

"You know she's gonna wanna drag me with her to the bathroom!" I exclaim.

"For what?" he says.

"I don't know... trade lip gloss or some shit Gerard!" I whine.

He laughs. "So then trade with her Elle... please just try baby." He says kissing my cheek.

"Fine..just call him." I sigh opening my closet doors. If I have to go then I've gotta change...and shower... hmm maybe I'll take a bath instead...

I leave Gerard in my room to call Frankie and go into the bathroom. I start running the hot water in the tub. When it was halfway full I dumped the bubble bath in and left the water running. I went back to my room just as Gerard was hanging up. He was smiling at me.

"Please tell me Frankie said no!" I laugh. He shakes his head no.

"We're going Elle!" He says loudly waving his finger at me. "And you're gonna behave- you promised!"

"I said I would try!" I laugh "But I didn't promise!" I say waving my finger back at him. Gerard grabbed me and squeezed me a little. "Okay okay I promise!" I laughed and took a step back from him.

"Where you going?" He asks me still holding onto my waist.

"I was gonna go take a bath." I tell him plainly.

"Can I watch?" He laughs a little. I froze. I mean ordinarily I would've said yeah... but now... now... Instead I just looked at him in horror.

He looked down at his feet and didn't say anything. I hurt him again... I could just tell...

"I don't know if I want to show anyone." I said softly.

"Anyone?" He repeats back softer. "I didn't know I was just anyone." He mumbled so low I could barely hear him.

"That's not fair." I said loudly.

He looks up at me for a moment and then turns away quickly. "You showed Paul." He said roughly. "You know what that's like to know you shared something with him... him of all people Elle." He said looking down again.

"Whoa!" I yell a little. "First of all I did not show Paul anything!" I say starting to cry. "I passed out on his bed and he changed my clothes...I didn't even know..." I sobbed.

I could see Gerard tensing up. "He what?" He said looking back up at me. Oh fuck... I guess Paul left that detail out... I wonder what else he left out... what else he let Gerard think happened... no... I can't do this... not now... My mind was spinning. I shut my eyes and felt Gerard's hands on my back as he pulled me towards him.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that Elle" He said squeezing me close.

"No you're right." I said taking a deep breath. I pulled back and looked into his eyes... He just smiled softly at me. I looked at his smile...at his eyes... and I just knew... I was sure... It was him... "I don't want there to be anything between us...come on" I said taking his hand and pulling him towards the bathroom.

I opened the door and the bathroom floor was flooded. I had left the tub running and it overflowed. Water was pouring out over the sides onto the floor. Bubbles were everywhere.

"Oh fuck!" I yell running to the tub and shutting the water. I look at Gerard who's just looking around the flooded bathroom and not saying anything. "I uh.. left the water on." I say to him.

He nods. "Yeah I see that." He says as I throw some towels on the floor to try to soak up some of the flood I caused. "And somehow... I'm not surprised!" He laughs. I frown and poke him in the stomach. "Sorry babe." He says kissing my nose.

I reached over and grabbed the bottom of his shirt. "Elle?" He said a little confused.

"I'm sure." I said as I lifted it up over his head. He looked at me still a little confused. I reached over and started unbuckling his belt.

"What are you doing?" He said putting his hand out to stop me.

I laughed. "Gerard I love you but honestly if you're gonna make us go out tonight then you need to wash up." I say tugging on his jeans.

"You want me to take a bath!" He smirks. I nod. "I haven't taken a bath since I was 5 years old!" He laughs.

"So." I say plainly.

"And its wasn't filled with bubbles!" He laughs again.

"You have a problem with bubbles?" I say folding my arms.

"They smell like peach!" He says shaking his head at me.

"Its nectarine actually." I tell him handing him the bottle.

"And you think that's any better?" He smiles at me and puts the bottle down on the edge of the tub.

"Well If your not gonna get in with me then you have to get out." I say holding the bathroom door open.

"With you?" He said softly. I nodded and held my arms up so he could take my shirt off. "You sure?" he said softly and I nodded. I was sure... I was never so sure of anything in my life... It was Gerard... he was the one for me... I needed him.

"Yes." I said softly nodding again. He reached one hand out and shut the bathroom door. As he slid my shirt over my head I shut my eyes...I didn't want to see him looking at me... I could feel his hand running along the edge of my bra. I felt him unhook it and slide it off me slowly. I knew he was looking at the tattoo but he didn't say anything...

I felt my skin press against his for a moment and then he started unzipping my jeans. I took a deep breath as he slid them down. I could feel him staring at the marks on me...my eyes started to fill with tears.. When I felt my jeans hit the floor I opened my eyes and looked down and stepped out of them and got into the tub quickly.

I dunked my head underwater. The water was so hot it burned my face a little washing away all the tears. Gerard leant against the tub wall and I leant against him. He kissed my neck slightly and wrapped his arms around me. I shut my eyes as he ran the soap along washing every inch of my body.

I slid down into the water some more. I could feel Gerard was turned on although he didn't say anything. As I slid down my back rubbed against him and he groaned a little. I sat up and turned around and straddled him. I leant forward and kissed him...hard... after a few seconds of moaning he pulled away.

"Elle." he said shutting his eyes and sighing.

"You don't want me?" I said teasing him a little. I pressed my body to his and started kissing his neck as I reached my hand down into the water to stroke him. He grabbed my hand and stopped me.

"This isn't right." He said. I stopped kissing him and pulled away slightly. I just looked at him. "I can't ask you to...I don't know Elle" he said and took a deep breath and kissed my forehead. I stared at him blankly as he ran his hand through my wet hair. He looked at me like he was unsure. I pressed my self closer to him and kissed his neck again.

"You didn't ask me to do anything." I told him as I started kissing him again..."I'm asking you to give me this." I said and as he wrapped his hands around my waist.

"What?" He whispered and moaned a little as I kissed his neck harder.

"Give me this memory Gerard." I said pulling back and looking into his eyes. "I need something to hold onto when I close my eyes." I said biting my lip a little.

He grabbed me tightly and squeezed me close to him and kissed me as I pressed myself down onto him. He let out a soft groan as I rocked back and forth slightly. He ran his hands up along my breasts running his finger over my tattoo but I didn't care... All I cared about was him...I wanted to remember this... how he skin felt touching mine... how his breath felt on my neck... how good it felt to have him inside me...

Then I heard a noise. It sounded like the front door opening. I lifted myself off of him.

"Elle.." He groaned and tried to pull me back onto him.

"Did you hear that?" I whispered. He shook his head no and tried to kiss me. "Gerard stop." I say trying to listen. I didn't hear anything else.

"It was nothing Elle" he says pulling me back towards him. I resist a little. I know I heard something... "Didn't you lock the front door?" He sighs. I nodded.

"You bet I locked the front door." I told him... I double locked it actually... "And the only spare key I have Lia fished out of the tree and is on the kitchen counter." I tell him panicking a little.

"So then were good." He says running his hands down my back and pulling me on to him again. I hear what sounded like the door opening again.

"Did you just hear that?" I whisper grabbing his arm.

"What?" He groaned pushing himself deeper into me.

"Stop!" I hiss." just listen." I say softer. He just smiled at me and turned his head to the side and tried to listen. His expression changed as you could hear distinctly that there were footsteps coming down the hall now...

"Gerard!" I cried out grabbing his arm harder as the bathroom door started to open...