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What if he found out where I lived?

What if he was the one who... Oh god. I jumped up out of my seat panicking a little.

"Elle what the hell are you doing?" Jeff said laughing a little looking up at me. I was the only one standing up, everyone else was busy working in pairs still. The sub lady looked over at me.

"I uh...  I don't know." I say sitting back down again.

"Have you've been uh..." Jeff motions like he's drinking.

"No!" I laugh a little and Jeff shrugs. "Well, do I look like I'm drunk?" I say and Dave laughs a little too now.

"I don't know." Jeff says leaning back in his chair. I look over at Dave.

"Hell, I can't tell." Dave says.

"Sure you can, you can tell cause I still have my shirt on." I tease him. Dave grinned widely at me. Jeff snickered a little and took the paper from Dave and added his name to the top. He passed it to me and I did the same. "Are you sure these are all correct?" I say and Dave nods a little. "I mean I'm trusting you here." I say sweetly to him.

"Don't worry Elle. I'll never let you down." He says and then he smiled at me and took the paper and brought it up to the sub to turn it in.

"Why the fuck you gotta be like that for Elle?" Jeff leans over and whispers to me.

"Like what Jeff?" I say leaning back from him a little. He was getting a little too close for my liking.

"You fucking tease him like that and then when he says crap back to you, you complain to Paul and then what?" He says softly looking over at Dave who's now across the room.

"I do not." I say instinctively.

"Whatever." Jeff says grabbing his bag as the bell rings. I just sat in my chair. Thinking about what he said. Fuck. I think he was right... But I was just trying to be nice to Dave. I wasn't like flirting with him... Was I? I mean he knows something... I'm sure of it... I figure if I'm nice maybe he'll tell me. I mean Jeff was giving him a pretty hard stare.

There was definitely something he didn't want him to say to me. And what was that comment about me drinking milk? Fuck that was weird...  Maybe Dave's the one fucking with me...now I really want to tell Paul...

No Elle.  Pull it together. Paul is... He's...Fuck... He knows how easily I scare... What if he's doing this to fuck with me? So I go crying to him. Oh he'd fucking like that wouldn't he... He's always saying how much I need him. How Gerard cant protect me like he does... Protect me from what? From this? Oh that's just too convenient...  And he's never liked Lia. I mean what if he put the glass in her milk hoping that she'd see it before she drank it. But figured if she didn't see it oh well. It's just Lia? No... He wouldn't... would he? Fuck...

I grabbed my bag and started to walk out. Totally forgetting about what Gerard said about waiting. Luckily he happened to be walking in at the same time. He had a bottle of Snapple in one hand and a muffin in the other. I smiled and took the muffin from him.

"Did you talk to Lia?" I asked him before shoving the muffin into my mouth. I was so fucking hungry I thought I was gonna die. He shook his head no and I started choking a little. "No?" I say coughing on the muffin. Oh god something's happened to her... It was about her and now we're too late!

"She was in the shower Elle." Gerard says patting my back a little. "I talked to Crystal." He says reassuringly. "They're both fine." He says and I sigh a little as we start walking towards the art room.

"Oh thank god." I say taking the Snapple from him too.

"Elle I know you want to believe that it wasn't directed at you but..." He grabbed my arm as we walked together.

"But it wasn't.." I interrupt still clinging to my delusion.

"Fuck you can be stubborn sometimes..." He sighs.

"Well you can be too." I laugh

"What?" He laughs softly as I take another bite of my muffin. It was chocolate chip...And holy crap was it good!

"You're intent on believing it was about me." I say with my mouth full. "You think that I'm just so desirable that is gotta be about me." I say. "I'm not as attractive as you may think Gerard." I tell him and a little bit of muffin comes flying out of my mouth at him and he smiles. "See!" I laugh covering my mouth and trying to swallow what was left in my mouth.

It was hard cause he was laughing and it made me laugh. I started to choke again. He patted my back a little. "Aw take it easy Elle." He says taking the Snapple from me and opening it up. "here take a drink." ..." He sighed a little...

I finished off the muffin and tossed the wrapper into the trash as we went into the art room. "So what do you think we're making today?" I say trying to steer the conversation away.

He shrugged a little and then looked at me and smiled. "You've got chocolate all over your face." He laughs a little looking at me.
 
"What?" I say wiping my mouth with my napkin. He shook his head no like it was still there. "No?" I say wiping my cheek a little higher up. He chuckled a little.

"I'll get it." He says taking the napkin and wiping my chin a little. The he wipes the tip of my nose.

"Oh come on!" I laugh. "There's no way I got chocolate on my nose!" I go to push his hand away.

"Wait." He says rubbing my cheek again.

"Gerard you're just fucking with me." I laugh. "I couldn't have made that big of a mess!" I tell him grabbing the napkin from him as he smiles at me.

"Wait there's a little more." He says rubbing his thumb along my bottom lip. I hold the napkin up for him. "No I got it." He says and he leans forward and kisses my lip lightly, licking it a little. He pulled away and was gonna say something but Miss Lee started yelling at us to sit down.

Once class had started and everyone had their projects going Gerard brought up the flowers again. I so did not want to talk about this. I don't know why he doesn't understand this!

"Lia was not at your house last night Elle." He tells me, keeping his voice low so no one could hear.

"And?" I sigh a little.

"So he knew you threw out the flowers and he put them back. They were for you- not her." He says nodding a little.

"You think he was watching me?" I say and Gerard looks like he's getting frustrated again.

"Yes Elle I think so." He says a little harshly.

"Why?" I ask and he sighs again.

"I don't know." He tells me frowning a little. "Did you hear anything last night?" He asks me and I start to freak out a little.

"What do you mean?" I say biting my lip.

"When I left Elle. The flowers were in the trash so was the glass." He says looking down at the picture he was absentmindedly sketching. "And then in the morning the flowers were on the porch. That means some one was there...at night " He explains to me.
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"Some one was there?" I repeat back

"Yes Elle." He says getting frustrated again.

"You think someone came in my house last night when I was sleeping?" I say a little loud panicking a little. Miss Lee glanced over.

"Elle. Shhh." He says tossing his pencil down and reaching over and putting his hand on my thigh. "I just don't know." He says softly and I shake my head a little and look away. "That's why I'm asking you if you heard anything." He says pulling my face back towards him.

"No Gerard." I say holding back my tears. "I didn't hear anything okay." I say and his face softens.

"Baby I don't want you to get upset." He tells me.

"Well then stop fucking freaking me out telling me someone was in my house!" I yell a little getting up.

"Where are you going?" He asks me widening his eyes a little.

"I'm gonna ask if I can go to the bathroom. Is that okay with you?" I say and he presses his lips together. "You wanna watch me walk across the hall Gerard." I say and he looks back down at his paper and doesn't answer.

I grab the hall pass from Miss Lee and head down the hall stomping my feet a little. Don't freak out he tells me. He's the one freaking me out... Could some one have been in my house last night and I didn't know? Fuck... I ran into the bathroom and threw up the muffin I just ate... Damn it...I came out of the stall and ran the water and just stood there watching it fall down the drain. Why the fuck is this happening? And to me? Have I not suffered enough in my life?

I knew Gerard was right. The flowers couldn't have been for Lia. No matter how hard I wished they were. Damn what kind of a person am I. Wishing this on someone else. And my friend no less.  Fuck... I became absorbed in my thoughts. The next thing I know the bell is ringing. Fuck how long was I in here... Ohhh Gerards gonna kill me!!

I come out and he's kinda standing by the door. I thought he was gonna be mad but he looked relieved. He grabbed me and pulled me close and wrapped his arm around my shoulder and didn't say anything as we walked towards the gym. As we approached the corner I saw Bob waiting by the doors out of the corner of my eye.

"Oh I guess its that time." I say and Gerard looks at me funny. "You know the changing of the guards." I say nodding towards Bob.

"Elle that's not funny." He says smiling a little at me.

"Yes it is." I smile back and he kisses my lips quickly.

"I'm just worried about you okay." He says and I nod a little.

"I know." I sigh.

"Just humor me okay." He says as Bob comes walking over.

"Come on Elle." Bob says nodding at Gerard a little.

"Yeah yeah." I saw kissing Gerard again before he left. Bob took me by the arm and was walking me towards the girls locker room.

Jessica was standing outside. She saw Bob with his arm laced in mine and kinda smirked a little. Then she looked back at.... Fuck.. she was talking to Dave. He looked over at me and Bob and gave a half smile and then whispered something to her...She laughed.

Bob didn't seem to notice any of this. "Go head Elle..." Bob nudges me a little towards the door. "Don't think you're gonna sit out of  gym class now." Bob laughs a little.

"Uhh no, I'll go change." I say waving bye to him as I went in.

Why is Jessica talking to Dave? I suddenly remembered her sitting on his lap in study hall... But she's suppose to be going to the dance with Paul so why is she flirting with Dave outside of the gym... Why were they both looking at me like that too? Paul's certainly not friends with Dave. I mean I don't think he is... But Dave seemed to know a lot about what happened between me and Paul and Jeff. Fuck... Jeff did seem a little too friendly with Dave in class too...

Could they all be in on it together? I mean Jessica wants Gerard. Paul wants me. Jeff would fucking do what ever Paul tells him... But where does Dave fit in? Fuck...what the hell is going on here? ...