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Ah thank god Pete didn't live too far from the school. It didn't seem that cold out when I first started walking but after a few minutes I started to get chilly. I don't know if it was getting colder as it grew darker or if it was just cause I had no underwear on and the cold breeze was flying up my dress.

Fuck. I don't know how I keep losing my panties... I mean really. This is the second time today no less... I should really carry an extra pair in my purse...

It took me almost fifteen minutes to get to the school. Probably cause I was walking slow...but seriously heels are not meant to run in...so whatever... I told Gerard I'd meet him at 7 and it was closer to 7:30 now... Fuck I hope he's not pissed.

I made my way inside. I didn't see him anywhere... I saw my truck parked outside so I know he's here. I just couldn't find him. I did find Mikey and Marie. They looked so cute together. They were dancing in the middle of the floor. I saw Bob too. He was leaning against the wall talking to some chick. I suppose it was Julia. I don't know.

I couldn't see her face. But I could see Bob and he definitely saw me. I smiled at him and kinda waved and he smiled back. I was gonna go over to 'meet' her, but as I got closer Bob leant over and whispered something in her ear without taking his eyes from mine. She kinda giggled and then he reached over kissed her, deep in her mouth. Pretty hard too...all without taking his eyes from mine. I mean he was kissing her, but looking right at me. It was weird.

I froze. When his lips touched hers I just froze... I don't know why. It was like I suddenly got this horrible feeling in my stomach. It felt like maybe I would be intruding...Like I didn't belong...What the hell am I thinking? Of course I don't belong... I mean can't just march over there and start harassing his date with all sorts of questions... I mean I can. And I fucking should you know... I am his wife damn it! Fuck... Did he even tell her we were married?

Oh fuck. My head was spinning... I quickly ducked into the bathroom across the hall. I just needed to splash some water on my face or something. The bathroom by the gym was kinda L shaped since it was attached to the locker rooms. I went all the way into the back corner and ran the water a little splashing some up onto my face. Trying to clear my head.

That's when I heard the door open. Someone was coming in. I couldn't see who cause I was kinda behind the wall. But I didn't have to see them to know... The shrill high-pitched voice was unmistakable... It was Jessica.

"Oh my god did you see how cute he looks!" I hear Jessica squeal. I roll my eyes a little remembering... Paul... Fuck...she was here with Paul. I forgot he said he asked her...

"Oh I know, he's so fucking hot." Some other voice replied. Had to be one of Jessica's skanky friends...

"And did you see the way he was looking at you when you were dancing with Paul." A third voice said. Wait what?

"Oh my God Jess he was totally jealous you could tell." The second voice added. Oh fuck... they better not be talking about-

"Oh Gerard." Jessica sighs. "He's so cute when he's jealous don't you think?" She says and the other girls kinda yes her a little. I roll my eyes. I always suspected that's why she was with Paul, to piss Gerard off... And now she's admitting it...

Too bad Gerard wasn't here to hear this... Not like he would believe it anyway...

"So any sign of her yet?" One of the girls says sarcastically. Oh she must mean me...

"No! I can't believe they didn't come together" Jessica cries out.

"But he said she's coming?" the second girl asks.

"I don't know." I hear Jessica say. "It doesn't matter anyway. If things go according to plan Gerard will be back in my arms tonight." She tells them.

Aw fuck. I've had enough. I shut my purse up and step around the corner and Jessica sees me in the mirror. She kinda froze. I don't know if she thought maybe I didn't hear them or what cause she turns and smiles fakely at me. Like she wasn't just talking shit.

"Oh hi Elle...um nice dress." She says and I laugh a little.

"Oh thank you Gerard got it for me." I say spinning a little and she pretends to smile again. The other girls kinda frown.

"Its nice." She says grinding her teeth a little.

"Well I like it... it goes real well with the ring he gave me." I say holding my hand up wiggling my fingers a little. Jessica's jaw dropped a little and she didn't say anything, she just stared at me as I walked past her. When I got to the door she snickered a little.

"Mmm have a good night Jess." I say stepping halfway through it and pausing. I turn back around slightly just in time to see the nasty look she was giving me too..."Oh and um good luck with your plan." I call out smiling widely at her before turning back around.

I swear I heard her call me a bitch as the door swung shut. Ah whatever. I just want to find Gerard and get the fuck out of here... I mean I figured Pete would've just dropped me off at the dance and Gerard would've brought Mikey and Marie and then we'd leave. You know come back and pick them up later... I had no intentions of staying.

This was so not turning out to be the night I thought. I mean my supposedly gay date tries to seduce me, my fucking husband is still in the corner making out with some slut, my boyfriend is missing and there's some psycho chick in the bathroom scheming against me...

And all I wanna do is go home and climb into bed and sleep...

Oh Gerard! Where are you? Fuck... Maybe I'll make my way back outside... He's probably smoking outside... yeah that's it. I bet he's around back. I mean something was off... I said Id meet him at 7. Its now almost 8... Shouldn't he be worried? Fuck... Usually I complain that he worries too much... Now I'm complaining he's not worrying enough...
I start making my way across the floor again and that's when I see him...Standing with his friends talking...laughing... Just the sight of him and I could feel my blood boiling...

I march over and pull the crumbled blue notecard from my purse and hold it up in his face. He smiles... Fucking asshole smiles at it.

"What the fuck is this Paul, huh?" I say harshly poking him in the chest. I was so furious with him. Suddenly all his 'friends' were gone and it was just me and him. "Well." I demand. He laughs a little.

"I don't know." He shrugs a little.

"You fucking threw my name in?" I say trying to hold back my anger and he grins a little. Which pissed me off even more.

"Aw come on now Elle, why would you think that." He says apologetically taking the card from me. He opened it and saw my name on it and smirked. "Fucking Pete." He mumbles. "He showed this to you?" He says raising his voice slightly...now he was getting pissed thinking Pete showed me the card, cause that was definitely against the 'rules'.

"No I found it in his room." I say plainly and Paul raises his eyebrows slightly.

"Wait he got you up in his room?" He says sounding slightly impressed.

"Uh yeah I was in his room." I say rolling my eyes a little.

"Well what the fuck happened Elle." He says getting a little angry. I knew why too... If nothing happens you gotta throw the card back in...Pete didn't have the card anymore... He assumed something happened and what- Pete gave me the card? as a souvenir maybe? Fucking dumbass...

I smiled a little. "Nothing." I say and Paul looks at me skeptically.

"What'd ya do to him?" He asks. I shrug. "Aw come on Elle I know you, there's no way you just took the card back and walked out." He says and I can't help but smile remembering. He smirked a little and I watched him fold the card up and slip it in his pocket.

"What you gonna toss my name in again?" I ask him and he just looked at me. "Go head I dare ya." I tell him and he sighed a little. "I kinda like fucking your friends." I add and he frowns.

"You didn't fuck him." He says and I smile. He scrunched his face a little trying to read my expression. "Did you?" He says precariously.

"Mmm, not in a way he's gonna wanna talk about." I say and Paul smiles.

"Aw Elle baby." He says reaching over and touching my hair. I step back. "Come on Elle don't be pissed. I'm sorry all right." He says and I frown. "I shouldn't have put your name in okay." He says softly and I just look at him. "Especially not for today." He says and I can feel my eyes tearing up.

"Paul don't." I say softly. Why does he have to bring up my mom?

"Mmm, I know today is hard for you my love." He says and he reaches up to touch my face and I flinch a little. He sighs.

"Please Paul I don't want to talk about it." I say wiping my eyes a little.

"Elle you know I'll always be here for you right?" He says and he sounded sincere...I looked up into his eyes and he smiled..."You know we belong together... we're the same." He says stepping towards me again. I shake my head no. "No we are." He says and I sigh a little as I lean back against the wall.

"I am nothing like you." I say shaking my head at him.

"Elle since you left me I've changed." He says and I laugh a little sarcastically.

"Uh yeah I can tell." I say as he steps towards me. I was against the wall. He leant over and put his arm up to the left of me. He kinda had me pinned.

"No its true. I've done a lot of growing since you've been gone." He says softly. Pressing himself towards me more.

"Mmm I'm sorry Paul but a hard on doesn't count as personal growth." I tell him and he smirks.

"See we are the same." He says and I shake my head no. "Yeah we are." He says and I look away. He reaches over and grabs my chin and pulls my face back up to his. "When are you gonna realize that you're just as cruel and fucked up as I am huh?" He says and I grab his hand and pull it off me. He looks down at the ring on my finger and smirks. He grabs my hand in his and holds it up. "You know one day your precious Gerard's gonna realize that too and then he's gonna leave you." He says and I pull my hand from his.

"Don't fucking touch me Paul." I spat at him.

"Why you gotta be like that huh?" He says lowering his voice down a little.

"Are you kidding me?!" I say tossing my hands up in the air.

"Elle!" He says a little exasperated.

"You know what fuck off Paul." I say stepping back from him a little. "Just stay the fuck away from me. I'm not in the mood for your shit today." I yell at him. "And tell your date to stay away from me too, cause I swear- I" I say and he gives me a look like he doesn't know what I'm talking about. "Jessica? She is your date isn't she?" I ask him and he just looked at me. "Or is she just a notecard too?" I say and he laughs.

"Naw she's my date." He says grinning a little.

"You know she's just fucking with you." I tell him and he shrugs. "She not really gonna put out Paul!" I say and he frowns. "She's just doing it to piss Gerard off." I tell him laughing a little. "And as much as I hate her, I gotta say I'm loving her right now, fucking around with you like that!" I say and he raises his eyebrows a little. "I would love to see the look on your face, when she shoots you down" I say and he smirks at me. "Oh and when your jacking off alone later tonight, I hope you're thinking of me!" I laugh as I go to walk away.

"Oh that bitch better put out or she's gonna be sorry." He mumbles. I frown a little.

"What the fuck does that mean?" I say and he doesn't answer me, I step back towards him. "Paul you're not gonna hurt her are you?" I say and he just looks at me. "Paul!" I yell and I pound on his chest a little.

"Now that's nothing you need to worry about my love all right?." He says as he grabs my hand off him and kinda twists it a little. I winced trying to pull it back.

"Hey!" I hear Bobs voice say and I look over my shoulder. Bob was standing there.... Alone. I wonder what happened to Julia? ... "You okay?" He says to me but he was kinda glaring at Paul. Paul dropped my hand as Bob stepped
forward.

"Yeah I'm fine, come on." I say grabbing Bobs arm in mine.

"There some kinda problem here?" Bob says roughly looking Paul over.

"NO!" I say giving Paul a nasty look.

"Naw, no problem here." Paul says stepping back a little. "But I'll uh save you a dance later Elle." Paul calls out laughing a little as Bob and I turned to walk away and it took all my strength to hold on to Bobs arm to stop him from turning back.

"What the fuck?" Bob grumbles.

"Just come on." I say tugging him.

"Did he hurt you?" Bob says holding my hand up and examining my wrist.

"No!" I laugh a little nervously. "We were just talking." I say and Bob frowns.

"Didn't Gerard tell you to stay away from him?" He says and I shrug. "Why were you even talking to him Elle?" Bob asks and I look over at him closely.

"Mmm that's a lovely shade of lipstick you have on there Bob." I tease him touching his lips with my finger. He kinda blushed and wiped his mouth. "So where's Julia?" I ask trying to change the subject. I certainly wasn't gonna tell Bob the only reason I was talking to Paul was cause he threw my name in to his sick game...

"She went to the bathroom." He sighs.

"Aw probably to put on more lipstick." I tease him. He smiles. "So where's Gerard?" I ask and he looks around.

"Uhhh." He says scanning the room a little. His eyes kinda stop over my shoulder a little. "I don't know." He says clearly lying... I go to turn and look. "Elle!" He cries out trying to stop me. It was too late. I saw him. He was standing with Jessica. Kinda in the corner. He was leaning over saying something in her ear. She was twirling her hair a little as he spoke...

"Aw you know what... I'm not in the mood for this shit." I say and Bob frowns. "Come on let's go outside I wanna have a cigarette." I tell him and he just looked at me.

"Don't get all stressed...they're just talking Elle." He says and I run my hand through my hair a little.

"Yeah whatever I don't care." I grumble. I was just so fed up already..."If you don't want to come its okay." I say and he makes a face. "I mean I understand if Julia's waiting" I tell him and he shakes his head no.

"No I'll come." He says.

I look over at Gerard and Jessica again. He was totally focused on her. Totally oblivious to me and Bob even though we were now only like 20 feet away....She saw me looking... I know she did cause she reaches up and touched Gerard's arm little as they spoke. He didn't pull away....

"Elle." Bob says nudging me a little. I guess he thought my imagination was getting the best of me...He didn't know I was just so frustrated I didn't even care...Jessica wants to play her games let her... Its not like he's gonna fall for them... or is he?... fuck...

"Hey why'd you come over and get me?" I say and he just looked at me like he didn't know what I was talking about.

"Just now, Julia went to the bathroom and you crossed over the entire floor to get me." I say and he nods. I was kinda hoping he'd say cause Gerard asked him to... But that wouldn't make any sense... Gerard would've just came and got me himself if he saw me with Paul...

"Looked like you were arguing with Paul." Bob says and I nod.

"Cause you saw me right?" I say and he just looked at me. "You were watching me?" I say and he shrugs. "Bob!" I insist.

"Okay yeah I was watching you. I've been watching you ever since you walked in." He says and I look back over at Gerard. He wasn't watching me... he was still focused on Jessica. He probably didn't even know I was here yet...But was he worried? Didn't look like it... the only thing he looked like he was worried about was Jessica... I could feel my
heart tightening up a little... "And do you know why?' Bob says lowering his voice down snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Hmm?" I say.

"Do you know why I've been watching you, why I haven't taken my eyes off you since the second you walked in?" he says lowering his voice down a bit more...

"Of course I know why." I say and he just looked at me. "Cause you're my husband." I say and he smiles. "That's one of your 'duties' right?" I tease him and he laughs.

"Elle I'm trying to tell you that even if I wasn't your husband I'd still look out for you." He says and I nod. "Do you get what I'm trying to say Elle?" He asks me. His tone totally changed it was softer. He reached up and stroked my hair a little and I turned my head up and looked into his eyes. He had a strange look to them.

"Yeah I get it." I tell him nodding a little. "You're a great friend Bob, you always have been." I say and he chuckles as I take his hand in mine but I'm not quite sure why. "And I hope you always will be." I tell him.

"Be your friend?" He sighs a little. I look at him a little disappointedly as I open the door up...

"You don't want to be my friend any more?" I say pouting my lip a little. He chuckles and wraps his arm around me as we walk outside... I was glad. It was kinda cold out and he was so warm...

"Aw Elle honey, don't you know?" He says squeezing me tightly to him "I'll be anything you want me to be..."