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“What the fuck do you want Paul?” I say stepping out in the cold pulling the door shut a little behind me. I can’t believe he had the nerve to show up here…He looked down at my outfit and grinned a little. I was still wearing those fucking terrycloth shorts and the tank top and it was just as cold as last night… If not colder. I crossed my arms on my chest and gave him a nasty look.

“What the hell is this Elle!” He yells at me waving what looked like a newspaper around.

“Mmm looks like a newspaper.” I tell him coolly, which seemed to piss him off even more so then he was.

“This Elle!” He fucking waves it in my face. I sigh a little and take it from him and glance down at the heading. Attempted Robbery at 7-11 I read to myself and shrug and go to hand it back to him but he wont take it from me. “Why didn’t you tell me!” He says and I just looked at him. “I'm gonna kill that fucker.” Paul starts carrying on and I sigh again.

“Paul please.” I say holding my hand up trying to calm him but it was no use. He was too wound up… There's no calming him when he gets like this… The only thing you can do is just let him rant…which I did. From what I could gather he had talked to Pete’s dad who told him everything. I mean the kinda things that weren’t in the paper. Like the fact that I was there

And he just went on and on and on. I started shivering from the cold he was carrying on so long. He was pissed… not with me. With Will, with everything I guess…Then he just kinda stopped carrying on and looked down at me and sighed. “Elle, lets go in huh, you're starting to shiver there.” He tells me lowering his voice down into a normal range…

He reaches around me to open my front door and I stop him.

“Uh no you're not coming in.” I say with certainty in my voice. He smirked a little like yeah right and I shook my head insistently. “YOU are NOT coming in.” I repeated and he frowned.

“We need to talk.” He says and I shake my head no. He just looked at me disbelievingly. “We are going to talk.” He repeats and I snicker.

“What the fuck do you want from me Paul?” I tell him harshly.

“I wanna know what's going on.” He says and I shrug. “You fucking gave Pete some names and I want them.” He says and my jaw drops a little.

“What?” I gasp. I had totally forgotten about that.

“The names Elle.” He repeats and I just stared at him not saying anything. “Give them to me now.” He demands. I could feel myself getting faint. I hesitated, where as normally I would’ve caved. Whenever he talked to me like that, with that kinda tone I would cave. But now… fuck.. we’re not together anymore… I don’t have to fucking listen to him.

“Why don’t you ask Pete for them?” I say snidely. “I mean he seems to know an awful lot about my business.” I say and I could see Paul tensing up again.

“He fucking lost them.” He tells me and I cant help but smile.

“Well then you’ll never know.” I snicker.

“Elle I'm fucking serious.” Paul growls at me. “I wanna know what's going on… now.” He says and I rub my temples a little frustradely…

“Paul please. I don’t need…” I start to say and he cuts me off.

“You don’t need?” He scoffs. “You don’t know what you fucking need! I’ll tell you that!” He starts to yell at me again.

“Go to hell Paul.” I snap back at him and turn to go back inside.

“Get your shit Elle, we’re leaving.” He tells me and I spin back around totally stunned.

“What?” I choke a little.

“You know what today is right?” he says and I just looked at him expressionlessly. “It’s the fucking 16th Elle. “ He says like it means something.

“And that means what to me?” I say a little annoyed.

“You told my mom you’d watch the boys this weekend.” He says and I suddenly remember what he's talking about… His parents were going away this weekend… Some kinda military reunion thing his step dad was going to… But I fucking agreed to this like months ago… Before we broke up.. there's no way that…

“Paul…” I stammered.

”Elle please.” He says a little desperately.

“There's no way that Jen thinks-“ I start to say. I mean I told his mom and David that we broke up at Christmas time. I made sure of that.. There's no way she’d think I’d still go over there is there?

“She fucking asked me to check with you last week.” Paul says sighing a little.

“And?!” I kinda yell.

“And I fucking forgot okay?” Paul snaps back a little and I frown. He looks at me apologetically. “Come on Elle, David’s gonna kill me if you don’t show.” He says looking down at his feet. I sighed a little… Fuck… Pauls step dad, David, was a real hard ass… He didn’t like Paul. Only tolerated him for his mothers sake… But I guess that’s what happens when you blend families together…

Fuck.. How could Paul put me in this position? …

“I wont even be home Elle.” Paul tells me and he could see I'm considering it… “I got a wresting meet tomorrow, its all fucking day.” He tells me. “And tonight’s practice.” He adds and I nod a little.

“I'm not coming alone.” I say and he smirks.

“You wanna bring Marie?” He grins and I smack his arm… Fuck. He's got a real hard-on for Marie. Mikey better be careful… I mean really the only reason he didn’t hook up with her on Halloween was cause she was way too wasted. Paul likes his girls out of it, but not totally wasted like to the point of unconsciousness… He likes them to remember him, as sick as that sounds…

“Fuck you Paul.” I say and he smiles. I roll my eyes a little. “I’ll call your mom all right?” I say and he nods appreciatively.

It was silent for a moment.

“Hey what the fuck happened last night?” I say and Paul smirks and cracks his knuckles a little.

“Why don’t you ask him?” He says nodding a little and I glance over my shoulder and Gerard's standing in the doorway.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” Gerard practically growls at him as he starts to step outside.

“Stop!” I tell him pressing my hand up on his chest to stop him from moving forward. Paul kinda snickered a little.

“I’ll see you later Elle.” Paul tells me grinning widely. “They're leaving in two hours baby, so hurry up huh?.” He tells me tapping on his wristwatch a little.

“What the fuck?” Gerard mumbles as I try to push him back inside.

“Oh and you don’t have to pack your toothbrush love, I still have it in my drawer!” He chuckles a little and I flip him off as I shut the door.

“What the hell was that about?” Gerard starts to yell at me.

“Oh umm, his parents are going away this weekend.” I say and Gerard just looked at me.

“And?” He says and I shrug looking down at the crumbled up newspaper in my hand.

“And a long, long time ago I had told his mom I’d stay the weekend to watch his little brothers.” I say plainly.

“Yeah?” He says waiting for me to go on…

“So I was gonna spend the weekend at Pauls house.” I say shrugging a little.

“What do you mean ‘gonna’?” Gerard snaps at me.

“Gonna?” I say a little confused…”It means ‘going to.” I tell him and I guess that’s not the answer he was looking for cause he became totally enraged all of a sudden and starts screaming at me.

“Going to, but not anymore.” He yells and I wrinkle my eyebrows.

“Why are you yelling at me?” I say choking back on my tears as Bob appears in the hallway. Bob frowned a little as he looked over at us arguing… Well we weren’t really arguing…I was just standing there and Gerard was hollering at me.

“Cause you're fucking telling me you're gonna go spend the night with him!” Gerard shouts at me and I cant hold back my tears anymore.

“Whoa, take it easy huh.” Bob says shaking his head at Gerard a little. “What the fuck is going on man?” He says sounding a little upset. I guess cause Gerard was making me cry.

“Elle you are not going to go spend the weekend with him!’ Gerard yells at me, ignoring Bob totally.

“With who?” Bob asks.

“Paul!” Gerard cries out and now Bob turns and is giving me the same outraged look Gerard is…

“Are you fucking crazy!” Bob yells at me. Great. Now they're both upset and I'm not even sure why…

“Well, what the fuck would you guys like me to do all right?” I say a little flustered. “I fucking promised his mom that I’d watch the kids a long time ago, okay.” I try to explain but neither one of them seems to care. “And its not like I'm gonna be with Paul either okay. He's not gonna be there and I just told him that if I go- I'm not gonna go alone.” I add and Gerard shakes his head a little reluctantly.

“Well, who are you gonna go with then Elle?” Gerard scoffs a little.

“Well I was hoping you.” I say softly.

“You're fucking kidding me right?” Gerard laughs. I just looked at him seriously… I wasn’t kidding… “You're not kidding?” He says and I shake my head no. Bob laughed a little.

“What's so funny?” I ask them.

“Elle, you want ME to go with YOU to spend the weekend at Pauls!” Gerard says and I nod… I mean I didn’t see the big deal.

“Well yeah.” I say softly and Gerard smiles at me as he rubs the back of his neck. “You don’t want to come?” I say nervously.

“Aww, baby you're just so…” He sighs a little looking down at me.

“I'm so what?” I ask.

“Naw…its just you’re so…” Gerard smiled at me as he brushed the hair from my face and then he lifted my chin up so I was looking right into his eyes. “Fuck. I wish I could see things like you do baby.” He says and I pout a little and he smiles and runs his finger along my lip.

“I don’t get it.” I say and he smiles wider.

“I know, that’s what I mean.” He says leaning forward and kissing me passionately… I still didn’t get it, but I didn’t care… All I cared about was his lips against mine. “I love you Elle.” He says as he pulls back from me.

“I love you too.” I say smiling back at him. I look around and Bob is gone… He always seems to disappear when Gerard and I kiss… “Mmm so I should go call Jen and ask if it’s all right for you to come with me?” I say and Gerard just looked at me.

“I guess if his mom doesn’t mind...” He says reluctantly.

“Oh goody.” I say jumping up and kissing his cheek lightly.

“Goody?” He teases me and I smile. “Fuck I think you’ve been hanging out with Chrissy too long!” He laughs and I swat his arm with the newspaper I was still holding. “What's this?” he laughs as he takes it from me.

“Mmm Paul brought that over.” I say sighing a little as I went towards the kitchen to call Jen… I glanced over my shoulder and could Gerard frowning as he read it over…

Bob was sitting at the table and as I dialed Pauls house I could see Gerard handing the paper off to Bob. Bob kinda frowned too as he read it over.

I kinda turned my back to them as I spoke to Jen… She was pretty cool. Was real appreciative that I was still coming over to watch the boys… said I could bring whoever I wanted and that she’d make sure Paul didn’t cause any trouble for me… I told her I’d be there in like a hour or so.

I smiled as I hung up and spun back around to face Gerard who was sitting at the table smoking now.

“Sooooo.” I say and he shakes his head a little.

“She said yes?” He scoffs a little. I think he was hoping she’d say no… but she didn’t.

“And she promised that Paul will be on his best behavior.” I say and Gerard laughs. “If you don’t want to go Gee, I'm sure Bob will.” I say and Bob makes a face. “Aw come on Bob. I know you’d never let me go over there alone.” I tease him as I walk up behind where he was sitting and run my hands through his hair.

“You got that right.” He chuckles as he and reaches up and grabs my hands down and wraps them around his neck a little. I leant forward against him hugging him from behind as he sat and Gerard snickered a little.

“Elle I'm not gonna let you go alone either.” Gerard tells me and he gets up to pour himself yet another cup of coffee. “You want some more?” He asks me and I shake my head no.

“You want some my Bobby.” I ask pressing my face into his neck as I hugged him and he laughed.

“Naw I'm all right honey.” He says and I smile as Mikey walks in.

‘What the hell are you doing Elle?” Mikey kinda snaps at me, giving me kinda a dirty look too…

“I'm hugging my husband.” I say plainly, pressing myself against Bobs back a little harder..

“You know you and Bob are not really married.” Mikey says harshly.

“What?” I laugh.

“Why the fuck are you always hanging on him for?” Mikey tells me meanly and I frown as I step back from Bob.

“Dude what's your problem!” Gerard yells over at him.

“Ah leave him alone Gerard.” I say and Mikey shakes his head in frustration. “I think Mikey didn’t sleep so well last night and he's kinda grumpy.” I tease him reaching up and ruffling Mikey's hair a little.

“Fuck off.” He mumbles and I smile…

“Aw don’t be so grumpy, grumpy.” I tease him. Gerard laughs.

“You wake up on the wrong side of the bed bro?” Gerard snickers holding out a coffee cup towards Mikey.

“Ha more like taped to the wrong side of the garage motherfucker!” I hear Frankies voice call out from the living room.

“Bitch.” Mikey cries out as he bolts out of the kitchen into the living room. There was a loud crash and I could hear Chrissy yelling for to them to stop.

“Gerard you need to do something about that.” I tell him and he shrugs.

“What the fuck you want me to do Elle?” Gerard chuckles.

“I don’t know something!” I say and he smiles at me. “I mean they can’t just keep fighting like this Gerard.” I whine a little.

“Why not?” Gerard says grinning and I frown.

“Gerard!” I yell a little outraged.

“What?” He laughs.

“I’ll take care of it Elle.” Bob sighs as he stands up.

“Thank you Bob.” I call out after him as he heads into the living room. Gerard shrugs as I stare at him.

“What?” He tells me.

“You should be handling this.” I say to him and he laughs.

“Why?” Gerard tells me.

“Cause its your job.” I say and he smiles.

“I'm not your husband.” He teases me and I get up and come up behind him like I did to Bob. Except I press myself harder against him and run my fingers down his neck lightly…

“mmm not yet.” I whisper in his ear and I can feel him shiver a little under my breath…

“Yeah well, until I am you cant be ordering me around baby.” He says his voice trailing off a little as I bite down on his neck. “Aw fuck.” He moans a little putting his cup down and reaching his hand up pressing my face down harder into his neck.

“You sure about that?” I say sliding his chair back from the table a little. He smiled at me as I climbed up and straddled his lap.

“hmm?” He says wrapping his arms around my waist as I leant my body towards his.

“I bet I could get you to do whatever I want.” I say rubbing myself against him. He doesn’t answer so I lift myself up slighty off him and he moans in protest.

“All right, you're right. I’d do anything you want.” He exhales as I lean forward on him and kiss his neck lightly.

“Mmm you think things will be different when we’re married?” I ask pulling back from him… I don’t know why I just said that… I mean it was a perfect moment and I just had to ruin it…

“Yeah.” He says and I frown. He smiles. “Its gonna be better Elle.” He says running his finger slowly along my lip. He pauses for a second and I kiss his finger, He smiles as I run my tongue along his finger tip before pulling it into my mouth and sucking on it. “aw fuck baby.” He moans again. I was winding him up… I don’t know why… we had to leave soon…

“Really you think better?” I say pulling his finger from my mouth as Mikey walked back in. Gerard looked at me a little confused. I think he forgot what we were just talking about.

“Oh uh yeah of course its gonna be better.” He says as I climb down off of him. He looked a little disappointed but we had to go… “I mean you fucking listen more to Bob now then to me.” He says and I frown. Mikey does too but I'm not sure why…

“I do not listen to Bob more.” I argue.

“Ha!” Mikey laughs.

“Well, maybe when I'm your husband you’ll listen to me.” Gerard says and I roll my eyes. “I mean maybe I’ll start getting the respect I deserve around here.” He declares and I laugh cause it was obvious he was kidding around.

“I don’t listen to Bob cause he's my ‘husband’!” I laugh.

“Then why?” He asks me.

“I don’t know.” I shrug and he just looked at me. “I guess its cause uh…” I stammer a little and Gerard nods for me to go on. “I don’t know Gerard.” I sigh. “I guess its like when one person tells you its one thing but when two people say it then I start thinking that maybe-“ I shrug lowering my voice a little.

“Two ‘people’?” He says a little hurt. “What the fuck does that mean?” he says and Mikey picks up the paper and pretends like he's reading it and not listening to our conversation…” Fuck Elle I said it, Ray said it- we don’t count!“ Gerard starts carrying on.

“Of course you count, more than anyone Gerard.” I say and he just looked at me cautiously. ”But now that Bobs saying it too, I don’t know I'm starting to think that maybe you all can’t be imagining this.” I say and Gerard smiles.

“We’re just worried about you.” He says and I nod.

“Yeah I know that’s why after Monday-“ I start to say and he shakes his head no.

“You said you weren’t going Monday.” He tells me and I pout.

“Yeah but-“ I try to say and he shakes his head no.

“No Elle.” He says firmly.

“Yeah but Gerard I just have to ask him about this Chris Hunter dude, I mean that why I went to Pete’s house in the first place you know?” I say and he sighs a little frustraded with me.

“Chris Hunter?” Mikey’s voice cries out cracking a little.

“What?” I say looking over at him across the table. He looked a little pale.

“Christopher Hunter?” Mikey repeats.

“You know him?” I say loudly and Mikey holds the paper up.

“Naw Elle, I don’t know him, but he’s in the fucking paper…”