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I look over at Gerard. He had kinda turned his back to me. “Naw we weren’t sleeping.” He says into the phone. And then they must’ve said something cause he laughed sharply. “Yeah something like that.” He says glancing over at me and smiling. Who the fuck was he talking to? Certainly not any of Paul’s friends, that’s for sure. The only person I know that knows both Paul and Gerard is… fuck. Jessica! “How’d you get this number anyway?” He laughs again into the phone as he turned the light on and I frown sitting up in bed. If its fucking Jessica I swear I'm gonna kill her…

“Who is it?” I mouth to him.

“Its Ray.” He says and I sigh in relief and toss myself back on to the bed. Fucking Ray! What the hell does he want anyway. Doesn’t he know what time it is? I shut my eyes and pulled the blankets over my head and tried to tune Gerard's voice out. I must’ve started to drift off to sleep cause I suddenly felt his hand on my back and it startled me. He started tucking the blanket around me. I looked up at him a little confused. Why was he tucking me in? Why isn’t he getting back in bed?

“No its cool, I’ll be right there.” He says into the phone and I frown sitting up again.

“Right where?” I ask as he hung up the phone and reached for his pants.

“Aw Rays car broke down on the way back from the movies.” He says and I just looked at him blankly. I mean that sucks for Ray and all, but why is Gerard getting dressed? “I have to go pick him and Laura up.” He tells me as he finished dressing quickly.

“Do you have to?” I whine.

“Well someone does Elle.” He chuckles. “and if not me then-“

“…then who.” I say finishing his sentence rolling my eyes at him. “Yeah yeah I know Gerard.” I mumble. Fuck is he a pain in the ass sometimes. “Just get the fuck out and shut the damn light all ready, I'm trying to sleep.” I say tossing a pillow over at him. He catches it mid-air and brings it back over to the bed.

“Now, now Elle.” He says placing the pillow down on to the bed next to me. “I thought you were gonna behave.” He says kneeling down next to the bed and I smiled.

“I am.” I say and he laughed. “It’s just the fucking light is blinding the shit out of me Gerard!” I say squinting a little trying to block the light with the blanket. He pulled the blanket back down from my face.
“Aww fuck off already.” I tell him and I hear him laugh.

“Ah what a mouth on you!” He laughs and I smile shutting my eyes a little. “Mmm, lets see if we could put it to good use when I get back huh?” He says running his thumb along my bottom lip. I kissed his thumb and he pressed it into my mouth slightly. “Aw fuck baby.” He sighs as I sucked on it.

“Stay.” I tell him knowing that he can’t…

“I can’t.” He replies and I nod. “Mmm but I’ll be right back baby.” He says leaning over and kissing my lips lightly.

“All right.” I sigh as I sit up in the bed. I was looking around for my clothes…Fuck they were kinda scattered around the room… I was just about to get up when Gerard pushed me back down into the bed.

“You stay right there Elle.” He says and I laugh.

“What?” I chuckle.

“No I mean it.” He says firmly. “When I get back I want to find you right there…just like that.” He says and I smile...
“Gerard.” I laugh.

“Mmm I wont be long baby.” He says and I just looked him. “I'm serious Elle.” He tells me. “Id fucking tie you down again except I can’t leave you alone tied like that.” He laughs.

“Damn right.” I say and he smiles. “You’d fucking traumatize Bobby, he comes in and finds me like that.” I say and he laughs.

“Well, he already doesn’t like me… so maybe-” Gerard laughs.

“Oh stop it.” I say rolling my eyes at him. “Get out of here huh.” I say and he nods and kisses me again.

“I’ll be right back.” He says kissing me yet again before he left shutting the lights… I shut my eyes for a second and tried to get comfortable but it was hard… I hadn’t slept in Pauls bed since… Fuck. Since Christmas. Since he found me at the library and brought me home with him. Suddenly all these memories came flooding back at me… My fears and paranoia were taking over my mind…

Fuck. I should’ve asked Gerard to leave the hall light on… It was so fucking dark in here. And I hate the dark… Shit what kinda babysitter am I? Afraid of the dark!

I tossed and turned a few times unable to fall back asleep. I just couldn’t sleep with out Gerard… Fuck. He should be back soon… He just had to be…or maybe not… I don’t even know what time he left, I didn’t check. And I didn’t know what movie theater Ray and Laura went to.

I was considering getting up, getting dressed and waiting for him downstairs… I mean yeah, he did say wait here, but what's he gonna do punish me again?… fuck, that might not be so bad… I felt myself starting to drift off to sleep again…I was still afraid but I was just too tired to stay awake anymore...

And then I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Heavy footsteps… Gerard was back! Thank God! The bedroom door started opening slowly…

“I've been waiting for you.” I said as the bedroom door opened slowly…

“Have you now?” A voice replied… It wasn’t Gerard… and it wasn’t Paul…

It was…

I don’t know who the fuck he was. I had never seen him before in my life. I could feel the blood drain from my face as my eyes locked on his. He was maybe 5’10. Looked to be in his late 30’s. I don’t know. I'm not a good judge of age… He was pretty well built. Dressed in all black. He had a shaved head and some tattoos going up his arms. He was holding something in his hand too. I couldn’t make out what it was in the dark but it was definitely metal… and sharp looking…

I instantly sat up in Paul’s bed upon hearing his voice, forgetting for a second that I was completely naked. I grabbed the blankets on the bed and frantically tried to cover myself with them as he stepped into the room. So many thoughts were racing through my head. Mostly that this just could not be happening. I mean could I just be dreaming? The terror I felt as he stepped towards me was so real that I knew I wasn’t dreaming… And then I lost it…I mean I completely lost it. My heart was pounding so loud and so hard I was shaking. Literally shaking. It was my worst fear come true… It was why I was afraid of the dark... Thinking that some man was gonna break in at night to rob the house and kill me and here it was happening right before my eyes…

“Just take what ever you want-please don’t hurt me.” I started to cry. “Oh God!” I cried out. “The kids!” Where were the kids? Oh my god Bobby! What if he hurts Bobby?

“Easy I'm not gonna hurt you Michelle.” He says reaching his arm out towards me and I panicked jumping back on the bed a little.

I just sat there frozen for a moment staring back into his eyes. They were blue. Bluest eyes I’d ever seen… Kinda familiar in a way, but I couldn’t place them. His voice was sincere. For some reason I believed him…His words echoed in my head… He's not gonna hurt me? I mean he broke in here for what then? And then it hits me. He called me Michelle…

“Michelle?” I repeat my name back to him. He didn’t acknowledge it. “How the fuck do you know my name?” I blurt out demandingly and he just looked at me hard and I looked away apologetically…Good move Elle! Telling off the crazy man… Shit Gerard was right… I do have a big mouth…what was he saying to me before about thinking before I act or some crap? Maybe that was Mr. Samuel who said that…I don’t know. Doesn’t matter now… I looked back up into the strangers blue eyes. They were suddenly cold.

“Here.” The guy says tossing this odd shaped piece of metal onto the bed. “Your friend’s gonna need this.” He says smiling a little. But it was a creepy smile. It sent shivers up my spine. I didn’t move. He nodded towards it and I cautiously leant over and looked at it.

“What is it?” I say warily picking it up. It was dirty and it was greasy.

“It’s the reason his car wont start.” The guy kinda smirks and I feel my heart sink. He meant Ray… Oh God… I could feel my heart tightening up in my chest. All of a sudden I couldn’t breathe… I could feel my heart beating irregularly. I was trying so hard to control my breathing so I wouldn’t pass out…

“You…” Is all I managed to say.

“I needed to talk to you… Alone.” He says and I unintentionally drop the metal thingy on the floor. I didn’t mean to drop it, I was gonna put it back on the bed, but my eyes had welled up with tears and I couldn’t see clearly anymore. His words shocked me. “You didn’t give the box to Chris did you?” He says and I blinked at him like he was speaking a language I didn’t understand. “Look, whatever Chris is telling you is a lie.” He starts to get loud and I find myself making starting to cry..

“Chris?” I repeat back and he frowns. “I don’t know any Chris’s.” I try to tell him but I don’t think he understood me through my hysterical sobs. “I think you have the wrong Michelle.” I sob uncontrollably.

“Just calm down.” He says reaching for me again, which only made me more hysterical. “Fuck.fuck.fuck.” He mutters to himself… He had a heavy accent, a New York accent…

“Are you Christopher?” I ask my voice shaking and he laughed sharply.

“You think I'm Chris?” He laughs and I kinda nodded.

“Arent you?” I ask and he didn’t answer me.

“You don’t know who I am?” he asked me looking at me like I should know. I shook my head no.

“My father?” I ask and he laughs again.

“Didn’t you get the box Sammy sent you? The instructions?” He says and I just looked at him blankly I had no clue what he was talking about.

“Box?” I repeat back and he frowns.

“Your boyfriend didn’t give it to you? He fucking signed for it.” He says venomously. Fuck… I suddenly knew what he was talking about… That box Will signed for…signed for as Gerard… Oh God Gerard!

“No he didn’t… it was…fuck.” I stammer.

“Motherfucker.” The guy grumbles.

“Where’s Gerard?” I ask panic stricken and the guy is looking at me like I'm the one who’s nuts.

“I think you should come with me.” He says reaching for my arm and I freak out.

“No!” I scream and I mean scream so loud I swear the neighbors had to hear me. As he went to grab my arm I tugged back and got tangled in the blankets. He was cursing at me to shut up or something, I don’t know it all happened so fast.

All I know is I spun and tripped and the next thing I know I was falling forward towards Paul’s nightstand… Into Paul’s nightstand more specifically and then there was a crash and an intense pain on the side of my head and everything went dark…