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Speechless

What it is I think
I know you can't know
But the things I feel now
Are so hard to show

To tell you what I feel
I wish I had the heart
To think my thoughts alone
I need the time to start

I need the time to
Arrange my thoughts
To get it together
To smooth out these knots

My stomach twists
Me chest starts to tighten
I can't free the words
I feel my face whiten

I'm stuck here in silence
The anxiety won't go
I open my mouth to tell you
But the words just won't flow

I can't help but wonder
What would you think?
If I said what I thought
I'm right on the brink

I berate myself, silent
And force the words out
Wait for your response
And hope you don't shout

But I open my eyes
And I know nothing's happened
The words never came
And I'm still here, I'm trapped in

My own mind
My own nerves
So I sit in silence
As the road curves

We keep on driving
And I know I'll never spill
The moment has passed
The point is nill

I hope when I'm older
These feelings will sway
I'll say what I mean
And mean what I say

Until then
I'll go on pliant
Until then
I'll sit here, silent