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Jessica?

Fuck. It is. It was Jessica. Its always Jessica… I grabbed Gerard's arm and pulled him back before they noticed us…

“What the hell is he doing here with her?” I kinda gasped and Gerard looked over and smiled.

“Looks like they're on a date.” He says and I instantly frowned.

“Aw fuck no, he better not be.” I mumbled and Gerard frowned a little now.

“You have a problem with Bob dating Jessica?” He asked me and I widened my eyes at him a little.

“You don’t?” I ask totally dumbfounded. Gerard just kinda shrugged a little.

“He's a good guy.” He tells me and I make a face. “It’d be good for him to have a girlfriend, in fact didn’t you say you wanted him to get a girlfriend?” Gerard tells me and I try not to roll my eyes.

“Yeah I said ‘girlfriend’ not bride of Chucky.” I tell him and he laughed but I wasn’t joking. I don’t think he really knew how much I despised little Miss Jessica…

“You’ve been watching too many horror movies.” He laughs and I rubbed my eyes a little. This just could not be happening. I mean Bob and Jessica? But he told me he didn’t like her! Unless he was lying to me! I mean maybe cause of how I freaked out and all… Fuck…

“Lets just get out of here before they see us.” I tell Gerard suddenly feeling nauseous. I mean the thought that Bob lied… especially to me! I mean I'm his fucking wife! What kinda guy lies to his wife?!

“Aw too late.” Gerard says nodding over towards them. Fuck Bob was looking right at us. He kinda waved us over and I just stood there frozen. “Come on Elle be nice.” Gerard says tugging me a little and I sorta resisted. “Oh so you didn’t mean what you said before?” He kinda turned back, looking at me over his shoulder. Taunting me slightly and I pouted.

“That’s not fair Gerard.” I whined and he smiled.

“Sue me.” He replied and I rolled my eyes a little as we stepped closer to Bob and Jessica’s table…I kinda didn’t catch what Gerard said to him. I was watching Jessica stare intently up at Gerard… I mean what the fuck?! She’s supposed to be here with Bob right? And she's fucking gawking at Gerard…

“You wanna sit Elle?” I hear Bob say and I just looked over at him and then at Gerard… I mean Bob was sitting on one side and Jessica was across from him. Gerard and I were still standing.

“Yeah we’re gonna sit.” Gerard says and I tried not to wince. I cant believe we’re gonna be eating with them. This is just horrible. “Gimme your coat baby.” Gerard says as he started tugging it off me.

“Oh.” I said as I kinda spun around a little and took a step back towards Gerard so Bob couldn’t hear. “He called me Elle.” I whispered to Gerard and Gerard kinda smiled.

“Isn’t that your name?” He whispered back and I frowned. “Now sit down and behave honey. “ He tells me. Now either he didn’t get that I was upset that Bob had called me by my name instead of honey, like he usually does or he was just fucking with me. I wasn’t sure which one it was…

“Did you tell him not to?” I ask Gerard and he kinda looked at me like he was a little lost in the conversation. “To call me honey?” I whisper at him.

“Did you want me to?” Gerard replies a little loudly.

“Is everything okay?” Bob interrupts before I could answer so I just shrugged.

“Yeah you know Elle.” Gerard sighs a little as he forced me to sit down next to Bob. I kinda made a face as he sat next to Jessica. But I don’t know. It wasn’t like he was gonna sit next to Bob and let me sit next to Jessica… I mean I might accidentally stab her with my knife or something…. And its always kinda awkward like when people go out in groups, it’s usually like a guy and a girl on each side of the table and not like the guys on one side and the girls on the other… But still… I would’ve preferred to sit next to Gerard and Bob could’ve sit next to ugh… Jessica… But it was too late. No one was gonna get up and I really had no reason to suggest we switch seats anyway…

Well as soon as Gerard sat down Jessica immediately slid over a little closer to him. It was so fucking obvious, but Gerard of course, pretends like he doesn’t notice. Bob too… But I noticed and I know she knows I noticed cause she kinda gave me that fake smile of hers that makes me wanna just strangle her… Gerard reached over grabbed the menu at the end of the table and started thumbing through it.

“What do want you Elle?” Gerard asks me and I shrugged. I mean I know I told him I was gonna eat but that was before I realized who we were gonna be eating with… There was no way I was gonna be able to stomach eating anything now…

“I don’t know I'm not really that hungry. “ I tell him and he didn’t say anything back. “Mm, maybe I’ll just grab something from the salad bar?” I say softly and he nodded like that was okay.

“Don’t get up, I’ll get it love.” He tells me as he stood up. I mean the salad bar was clear across the room. There was no way I was gonna be able to carry my dish that far and back with out dropping it.

“You sure?” I asked and he smiled.

“Yeah I know what you like.” He kinda winked at me and I giggled. As soon she realized I wasn’t going with him, Jessica jumps up out of the booth too.

“I'm gonna get salad too actually.” She tells Gerard and he shrugged like he didn’t really care. “Come on then, we’ll go together.” She tells him as she kinda latched on to his arm. I just bit my lip and didn’t say anything as she tugged him away. I waited until they were a few feet away before turning to my darling husband…

“You on a fucking date with her?” I scoff at him and he choked a little on his drink.

“Uh no.” He replies dryly.

“Well what the fuck you call this Bobby?” I started to get loud and he kinda shushed me.

“We’re just getting something to eat.” He tells me and I make a face.

“That’s called a date Bob!” I exclaim suddenly remembering Frankie’s words that day in the cafeteria... “When two people go out to eat together its called a date! -Frankie told me so.” I tell him and he scoffed.

“I don’t care what the fuck Frankie told you, I'm not dating Jessica.” He tells me and I looked at him a little skeptically.

“You sure?” I ask and he laughed a little.

“Uh yeah I'm sure.” He replies.

“Then what the fuck are you doing here with her?” I ask him and he shrugged. “I mean I asked you to come to the funeral with me and you said you had something to do- this is what you had to do?” I demand.

“I went to school.” He laughed once more. “And Jessica’s my partner for that Social Studies project.” He tells me and I frown. “We were working on it at the library and then it got late and she said she wanted to get something to eat so here we are.” He tells me and I'm still a little lost.

“Wait what project?” I asked and he chuckled.

“The one you would know about if you ever came to school.” He tells me and I shake my head a little.

“Yeah but Jessica’s not even in our grade Bobby how could you and her-?.” I tell him and he nodded.

“Yeah but I need more credits, from when I transferred, I'm taking an extra math too.” He tried to explain to me and I just kinda looked at him. I mean I didn’t know that. Fuck. I've gotta be like the most self centered person in the world! I mean Lia's right… I want everything to revolve around me and when it doesn’t…

“I'm sorry Bobby I didn’t know.” I start to say and he shrugged like he didn’t care. “So you guys aren’t dating?” I ask once more.

“I already told you no honey.” He tells me and I smiled as I reached over and put my hand on top of his on the table. He called me honey again…

“Now you wouldn’t be lying to me would you Bob?” I ask him stroking the top of his hand and he tensed up a little, which made me nervous that maybe he was lying…

“Naw Elle, you know I’ll always tell you the truth when you ask.” He tells me and he tried to pull his hand away but I gripped him tighter.

“You okay?” I ask him and he nodded…weakly, but he nodded. “You talked to Gerard right?” I asked and he once more tried to pull his hand back.

“Yeah we talked.” He tells me and I just waited for him to go on but he didn’t…

“Well?” I asked and he shrugged.

“So how was the funeral?” He asked obviously trying to change the subject and I just let it slide… I mean I was so excited to tell him about my dad… He sorta had the same reaction Gerard did, but I don’t know… I only really briefly explained it to him, before Jessica and Gerard came back. I mean I did not want to discuss any of this in front of her that was for damn sure… And from what I could gather this social studies project was like a big deal or some shit… She was gonna be spending a lot of time with Bobby the next week or so… And I know that there was no way that she and Bob just ended up being ‘partners’. I mean it wasn’t a coincidence… She set it up. She had to; cause she knows Bobs my husband… And I don’t know what the fuck she's up to -but I don’t like it… not one bit…

The rest of our ‘dinner’ went pretty smoothly except for the fact that Jessica was practically throwing herself at Gerard. I swear that girls got no sense of shame at all… At one point I almost ‘accidentally’ spilled my drink on her, but luckily Bob caught it in time… I'm gonna have to remember to thank him for that one later…

I ended up eating my salad so fast that it was fucking unbelievable… And I ate every last thing Gerard put on my dish too. Even the orange carrots… And he knows I don’t eat them. I mean normally I’d just poke it around and pout and whine and stall but I just wanted to get out of there so fucking badly… It must've been some kinda a test too. Cause he sorta smiled as he watched me force them down. Well, if only one good thing comes out of this dinner its that Gerard knows I'm serious about listening to him more…

After we left Ruby Tuesdays Gerard said he’d bring me by Lia's to drop off my presents for her but she wasn’t home… I figured she was at the club and I was hesitant in asking Gerard if he would take me there, but he offered. Honestly I think he was just kinda curious to see what the place looked like, but whatever.

I was hoping Lia wouldn’t be there, but once we pulled up I saw Brians car outside so I knew she was… I wished she wasn’t though. I mean we’re a lot alike in that way… When some ones tells you not to do something you gotta do the opposite… Hmmm. I wonder if I pretend to be supportive if she’d drop this whole stripper thing?

I asked Gerard as we went in… He said it was worth a shot. Like it couldn’t hurt, so that’s what I decided to do…

Right away I saw Brian at the front of the bar. Lia told me he always sits in the same spot… I grabbed Gerard's hand and kinda pulled him through the crowd and tapped Brian on the shoulder. He was surprised to see me that was for sure.

“Elle what the hell are you doing here?” He gasped a little.

“I came to talk to Lia is she here?” I ask and he nodded. I had to figure she was in the back… I mean she wasn’t on stage or nothing… “And Crystal?” I asked. I mean I wanted to talk to her, but only if she was alone… I wasn’t sure how much of my personal life Lia told Crystal…

“Uh…” Brian stammered a little and I frowned.

“What?” I asked him yelling a little to be heard over the music, which seemed to be getting louder by the second…

“You know her and Crys are kinda having problems right?” Brian tells me and I just looked blankly at him.

“Uh yeah Bob kinda mentioned that.” Gerard says and I spun around and just looked up at him totally crushed.

“He did?” I ask and Gerard sighed a little. I mean I couldn’t really hear him sigh over the music but I saw him…

“Yeah Lia told him about it the other day.” He tells me and I just looked at him.

“And?” I say harshly.

“And we decided it was better not to tell you.” Gerard says and I can feel my blood starting to boil.

“What the fuck Gerard!” I tell him smack his chest roughly. “Where the fuck do you and Bob get off deciding what I should know.” I demand and he grabbed my hand and stopped me from hitting him once more.

“I didn’t decide anything Elle.” He tells me and I shook my head a little confused.

“You just said!” I try to tell him and he leant over towards me a little.

“I figured if Lia wanted to talk to you about it she would. Its not my place to get in the middle.” He tells me and I frowned.

“Lia wont talk to me about anything anymore. “ I tell him sadly and he sighed once more, but this time it was more like a pity sigh which always pisses me off…

“Well maybe you should talk to her then.” He tells me.

“I will!” I declare and I stomp off to go find her before he could stop me…

I said a quick hi to Jimmy the bartender as I ducked behind the bar. He just nodded back. I don’t know if he remembered me or what… I mean maybe he doesn’t stop any girls that are heading to the changing rooms… I don’t know…I got to the back and Lia was sitting on a stool painting her nails…

“Elle! What are you doing here?” She kinda gasped. I think she was more surprised to see me then Brian was…

“I brought you your birthday presents.” I tell her and she just kinda looked at my empty hands. “Its in the car.” I add and she shrugs.

“You missed my birthday.” She tells me turning her back to me… Fuck. I knew she was gonna be pissed.

“Yeah but it wasn’t my fault.” I try to tell her and she spun back around.

“Yeah it’s never your fault Elle I know.” She says a bit sarcastically.

“Li-“ I whine a little.

“No, save it Elle, I knew as soon as Gerard called me and said you went ‘missing’ that...fuck.“ She smirked a little and I made a face. I mean she was sorta implying like that I did it on purpose to upstage her 'special' day or something...

“If you just let me tell you what happened-“ I try to say and she shook her head no.

“No I know what happened, I talked to Ray.” She tells me and I frowned.

“You did? When?” I ask and she smirked a little.

“He came over that night after you all left the police station. You know brought me my present, wished me a happy birthday, like a real friend would.” She says and I just stood there looking at her… “And he told me what happened and stupidly I thought you know, that maybe you’d show up too. –Or at least fucking call. I was worried about you Elle. All fucking day I worried about you.” She says and I looked down a little shamed.

“I'm sorry.” I say softly and either she didn’t hear me or she just ignored me...

“And where were you huh?” She carries on. “While I was waiting for your call that night? You were off somewhere fucking Gerard weren’t you?” She scoffs a little, like the thought of being with him disgusted her.

“I really wish you wouldn’t talk about him like that.” I tell her and she shrugged.

“Whatever Elle, you know I got a lot of shit on my mind and I don’t need anymore.” She sighs a little.

“You mean with Crystal?” I say and she looked up at me a little shocked.

“Who told you?” She says and I shrugged as I sat on the bench.

“No one, I just kinda heard.” I tell her and she smirked. “So what's going on?” I ask as she stood up and started fluffing her hair up…

“Crystal thinks I'm cheating on her.” She says plainly and I widen my eyes a little.

“Well where would she get an idea like that from?” I say and Lia smirks.

“I dunno maybe cause I am.” Lia tells me and I could tell by the way she said it so plainly that she was telling the truth.

“Lia.” I say a little disappointedly and she didn’t answer me… “So who is she?” I ask and Lia grinned a little.

“It’s a he… and his name is John…”