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Midnight Illusions by Uriel Rebble (10/20/05)

Every night I lay, keeping pain at bay,
Dreaming dreams of far away, like some empty room,
Or crowded club -
Rhytmic surges of symphony, beating, pulsing envergy -
Still cannot make this go away.

For years and years I've shed these tears.
From some great change within my core, needing more
Of what cannot be named;
Burning skin steals the sound, as if I'd drowned
Under all that's queer.

An all-consuming need that I cannot feed,
The searing pain deep inside, I want to hide
This from the object of affection.
Molten lava in my veins, only she who holds the reigns
Can fulfill this creed.

Waiting for that perfection, fueled on by a connection
Of deep emotional affection, the only way
To soul and body unite.
Relief I seek from that embrace.
Peace I'll find in yet another's eyes.

Author's Notes: This poem began with one idea and ended with many rolled into one. But mostly it's about the need to be loved through and through and to preserve someone's feelings while still searching for something better.