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We were standing on my porch still. The keys hanging from the lock. I had my back pressed up against the door as he leant in kissing me. For a while the only thing I could feel was his lips on mine. I still had my hands on his collar and I pulled him even closer drawing him into my mouth. I shut my eyes and felt his hands on my waist, stroking it softly at first then he began gripping me tighter. I needed him so bad. But not here on the porch… I reached one hand behind me to try to fumble the door open behind my back so as not to pull away from him for even a second.

Just when I was about to give up trying the door opened behind me. I would’ve fallen to the floor inside if it wasn’t for how tightly he had his hands on me. I giggled as he kicked the front door shut behind us breaking our kiss. I shifted my eyes down the hallway, silently inviting him to my room and he reached over and lifted me slightly off the floor in response. I eagerly wrapped my legs around his waist, pressing my face in the crook of his neck as he made his way down the hall. I was taking in his scent and running my lips lightly along his skin as I did it... I knew that drove him crazy.

He sort of dumped me on my bed crookedly once were inside and I scrambled to lay straight on it as he came down on top of me kissing me fiercely. We were both still fully dressed. I wrapped my legs around him now and he began nipping at my neck and then grinding into my thigh. He had one hand starting to slide up my shirt and his other hand was - I don’t even know. It was so messy it was… awful.

“Wait wait.” I pushed him back off me a little. I arched my back up and pulled my sweater off, thinking maybe that would help, but it really didn’t. He came back down on me kissing the exposed part of my breasts urgently now and I had to stop him. It was like he didn’t know how to touch me. Like he never touched me before. And then I realized that’s cause he hadn’t…

This is why you don’t fuck teenage boys. No fuck that. This is why you don fuck anyone you don’t know. That’s what makes good sex. And Gerard and I use to have great sex. He knew exactly what I liked. And it wasn’t magical knowledge. It was because we were together for so long.

I found myself wondering if it was this bad the first time around. If I was so swept up in my own hormones that I didn’t notice it?

“Gerard wait…wait.” I pushed him completely off of me. He was breathing sorta heavy but I wasn’t. I climbed off the bed and I think for a split second he thought that was it, that we were done making out for the night, but we were just getting started. “Come over here.” I motioned him to the edge of the bed.

Once he was sitting on it I stepped a little closer to him pressing my chest dangerously close to his face. I ran my hands through his hair and he immediately put his hands back on my waist. He started to slide them down and around on to my ass and I slapped them down off of me.

“No you kiss me first.” I direct him and he faintly smiled at me. I was never really that controlling in the bedroom before, it was sort of a rush.

He tilted his head up and opened his mouth slightly as I pressed my mouth to his. He pressed his tongue into mine and I pulled back slightly. He didn’t stop me.

“Don’t pull back.” I tell him as I quickly pressed my lips back onto his. The kiss became just as intense and once more I pulled back from him. “Don’t pull back.” I repeat and he laughed.

“I didn’t- you did.” He tells me and I smiled.

“Well then don’t let me.” I smiled as he reached for me. Once more his lips were on mine. The intensity growing and I felt myself pulling back. He grabbed me tighter, and pressed harder and wouldn’t let me break away from him. I loved it… being able to surrender myself like that to him. Feeling him overwhelm me like that.

He pulled me so tightly towards him that I was straddling his lap when he finally broke the kiss. “Mmm better?” He breathed into my neck and I suppose I moaned in some sort of response. My whole body was aching for him now. He began to kiss my neck.

“Lower.” I instructed him and he moved his kiss down slightly, sucking and nipping me slighlty. “Mmm lower.” I started to whine in desperation. He was so close but so far off still. He nipped me a little harder and I shuddered.

“yeah?” He whispered at me and I nodded, stretching my neck for him to do it again.

“left.” I direct him and he did it again but in the total opposite direction that I asked. “the other left.” I tell him and he chuckled a little shifting down the opposite way on my neck. He gave me a quick nip there and then pulled back smiling widely.

“Oh the other left.” He teased me and I rolled my eyes a little as I shifted back from him. I was still on his lap, but just not right up on him.

“Shut up.” I teased him back and he laughed. It was silent for a second. He was just looking at me sitting on his lap like that, running his eyes along my body. I had my skirt hiked up and my bra still on. He had his coat on still. “Hey, you wanna take off your coat and stay a while.” I couldn’t help but giggle as I slid it off of him. Once his arms were free again he placed them back on my waist. I guess it was time for lesson two now.

I reached up and ran my fingertips along the edge of my bra as he watched intently. I felt his hands lift from my waist and I firmly put them back in place and wagged my finger no at him.

“You watch first.” I direct him and he just smiled as he watched me. I began running my fingertips once more along the outside edges of my bra. I shut my eyes and imagined him. How he use to touch me, mimicking his movements with my own hands. First on the outside of the bra, then underneath.

He started to slide his hands gently on my waist, encouraging me to rock softly on his lap which I did. I could hear his breathing picking up, mine was too…finally I reached down and pulled his hands up to my breasts. Placing my hands on top of his, guiding his movements at first. When I couldn’t take it anymore I reached behind me and unhooked my bra, leaving his hands alone now on my bare breasts. I pressed against him, letting him kiss me as I grinded harder into his lap.

He had my nipple latched in his mouth now and he dropped his hands back down and grabbed my ass, sliding his fingers along the lace trim on the back my panties. “harder.” I panted in his ear and he squeezed my flesh harder now.

I reached down and grabbed the bottom of his t-shirt and lifted it up off of him. His warm skin was pressing on mine now but it just wasn’t enough. I needed all of him…

I got up off his lap and forcefully pushed him back onto the bed. While he was shifting to lay vertically on it I slid my skirt and panties down. Climbed up on to it and crawled from the foot of the bed up to his belt buckle. With out any hesitation I undid it and loosened his pants enough to get at what I wanted.

“God damn Elle.” He moaned as I took him in my mouth. I knew exactly what he liked. How to get him the edge with out pushing him over it. And I did. Over and over again.

I finally grabbed his jeans and yanked them completely down off him before climbing up on top of him. I pressed down on to him slowly, shivers were running down my spine. I leant forward and kissed him. I was just about to tell him I loved him when with out warning he flipped me over, pinning me underneath him now.

“Gerard.” I gasped instead and he smiled before kissing me again. He started to thrust slowly as he bit down on my neck. I didn’t even have to tell him where anymore. I wrapped my arms around him and rested my fingertips along his shoulder blades. Swirling patterns along with his rhythm which was steadily increasing. He reached down and hooked my leg in his arm and I shifted my hips slightly. I readjusted his hand and he pressed even deeper inside me now.

“yeah?” He was breathless, so was I.

“mmm yeah.” I felt myself drowning in the pleasure. Nothing else mattered in that moment. Not the past, not the future. It was just me and him alone in the world now.

He began pounding me harder and harder and then I felt him tense up. I hear him groan in my ear as he burst inside me. “damn.” he sighed softly to himself when it was all over. He laid on top of me for a second. I gave him a quick peck on the lips before rolling him slightly off of me. I squeezed out from underneath him.

“Ill be right back.” I excused myself to the bathroom to wash off. When I got back he was laying in my bed with his arms outstretched over his head and his eyes shut. He was asleep.

I climbed back into the bed softly as to not wake him and snuggled up against him. I rested my head on his chest and drifted asleep listening to his perfect heart… alive and beating…