FicWad

I closed my eyes as the car slowed to a stop. I didn't want to see what was outside the window of Ray and Tori's car because I knew if I did the tears would start again. I had been in the hospital for the past week, stuck in the maternity ward with all sorts of wires and tubes hooked up to me with the sole purpose of keeping the baby within me safe. During my stay Tori was a frequent visitor as was my mother but that was about it. Frank hadn't called or seen me since I had told him about Trace and all of the guys had seemed on his side. Even though Ray came with Tori to pick me up it was only because she was too big to fit behind the steering wheel. He hadn’t said more than a few polite words to me. "Holly, are you asleep?" Tori asked. I opened my eye, "No I was just wishing that all of this was a dream." I said. "I know honey. C'mon let's get you inside." she said and hoisted herself up from the car as I fallowed in a similar manner.

I felt my knees began to shake as I walked toward the house that Frank and I shared, or used to. Almost reading my mind Tori laced her arm through mine and walked with me up the steps of the house. I unlocked the door and it swung open to reveal a dark and empty house. It didn't look like Frank had been here at all. The heat hadn't been turned on, the mail was piled behind the door and the message light of answering machine blinked violently. I walked over and flipped on the heat and headed upstairs, leaving the mail and messages for later. "Alright Hols the doc said that you had to rest when you got home. I'll help you get settled before I leave." Tori said with a smile and took my hand again. "Yes mother." I replied with a small smile and fallowed

We walked up the stairs and headed straight to my room. As we walked my eyes brushed over the door to the nursery but I didn't open it, the thought of doing so was painful. It represented the two of us as a loving family with a new baby on the way, it represented something that was no longer there and maybe never would be again. The door the bedroom was open a little and my heart swelled that maybe just maybe Frank was home, that he'd been too tired to do anything and just crashed on the bed, rolled up in the blanket to keep warm. I pushed the door open but the sight inside killed all those hopes and replaced them with feelings of despair. All of Frank's drawers were open and the clothes were gone. His shaving and bath stuff had disappeared from their places. However it was what I saw or rather didn't see in the corner that made my heart shatter. Frank's guitar was guitar

The first thing that Frank had brought into the house was his guitar. Now that it was gone it was clear that he was too. I heard Tori mutter something along the lines of "God damn you Frank you fucker." but I ignored it and sunk into the bed. "He's really gone Tori. He left and he's not coming back. I fucked it up. All of it and it's my fault. If I hadn't slept with Trace then Frank wouldn't have left and the baby wouldn't be fatherless." I sobbed. "Shh...it's not your fault. You were drunk Holly, it's not like you were in your right mind when all that happened. Look, why don't you relax here and I'll go home, grab some clothes and then we'll have a girls night here okay?" she said. I nodded, maybe a girls night was what I needed. "Okay. I love you and I'll be right back okay?" she said and gave me a little squeeze and left the room. I heard the door downstairs shut.

As soon as it did I got up as fast as I could. I wanted out of that room and I wanted out of there that instant. I grabbed a pair of my pj's and left the room, slamming the door behind me. I changed into my jammies and headed downstairs to start a batch of popcorn. I passed by phone in the hallway and pressed the message button. "You have 10 new messages." the cool voice of the answering machine sounded. The first few were from Gerard, Mikey and Bob all trying to get a hold of Frank to see if I was okay, after that were the few feeble messages that I'd left for Frank after he'd left the hospital and then the last one was from Trace. "Holly? Are you there? I guess not. Look I think we need to talk about the baby and what's going on. I heard that you were in the hospital and I need to know that you're alright, both of you. Call me please. My number is 563-7983. Call me. Bye." he said and the line went dead.

I don't know what made me do it, maybe it was the sound of his voice but I walked over the phone and punched a few buttons. "Hey Trace? It's Holly."

Okay that's the latest chapter. Sorry its been a few days but I'm getting ready for my birthday on Sunday so I have been really distracted. Thank you for all of the reviews please keep them coming and the chapters will too. Thanx!