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I remember telling him I was gay
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"If I tell you something you have to PROMISE not to tell a soul"
"Yes yes I promise"
"Cross your heart hope to die?"
"Yes"
"Well... Gerard Im gay" I said looking down.

The room fell silent

"Your what?" He asked
"Gay! did I stutter the first time?"
"No.. Its just odd hearing that"
"Yeah well.. Now you know"

It didnt bother me I was only 8 I just knew I was gay
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I remember him telling me he was gay
And remember him telling me how he felt about me

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"Frank?"
"Yeah Gee?"
"I need to talk to you"
"Oh yeah? What about?"
"Can we talk in your room?" He asked so sweetly
"Yeah" I said following Gerard to my room.

He took a seat on my bed and looked at me.. This was big.. This was huge.

"Your not dying are you?"
"No... I wish I was" He replied falling backwards.
"Gerard.. Whats up?"
"Frank.. You know I love you right?"
"As much as I do you"

"Frank.. I think Im.. Im.. Like you"
"5 foot 7?"
"No you idiot! Gay.. I think Im gay!"
"Oh.. Really? what makes you think that?"
"You make me think that"

I didnt answer just gawked at him.

"Huh?"
"Frank... I like you... Like... More than a friend should"
"Are you fucking with me?"
"I tell you I like you and you ask me if Im fucking with you? what the fuck does your Mom put in your vegeterian food!?"
"S-sorry Gee.. Its just a suprise" I said flopping down next to him.
"Tell me about it"
"Well..." He began.
"Gerard! shut up"
I was 10
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I remember when he asked me out
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"Frank?" Gerard asked as he walked in my room.
"Hey Gee.. Whats up?"
"Uhh Nothing.. I need to ask you something"
"Fire at will"
"What the fuck does that mean?" He asked quizicly
"It means Gerard... Go"
"Oh.. Well you know how.. I-I like you and You like me?"
I nodded.

"well I was wondering if you wanted to maybe go out with me?"
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I was 13 of course I said yes

I remember the first time we kissed, Fucked, Stayed at eachothers houses, Told our parents. I was nervous about every single one of those.
I was 14.

Then I remember when I lost him
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I sat in my bed listening to Queen. Dont Stop Me Now to be excat
I was planing to meet Gerard in an hour so I had my hair, Make up and clothes all ready.
I had black eyeliner around my eyes, Red eyeshadow on my eyelids and Black nail polish on my nails.

I pulled my black Chuck Taylors on and was nearly ready to go.. Untill Mom poped her head in the door.

"Frank honey?"
"Yeah Mom?"
"Gerard just came over and asked me to give you this" She said handing me a envolope.
"Okay" I smiled taking it from Mom and sitting on my bed.

I began opening it.

'Frankie. Im really sorry about all this. I love you so much which is why I just couldnt bring myself to do this to your beautiful little face.
But Im leaving Belleview Ha! weird right?
Now love please dont be upset because one day I'll be back and we'll be together again... Maybe not soon... But not long away.

Love from Gee xoxo'
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I was 15