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I walked around the corner expecting to see 15 year old Gerard looking back at me.

"Hey Frank" this tall beautiful man smiled at me.

He had shoulder length Black hair. His eyes stayed the same a Green hazle color you could die in.
I see he still wore his Black Flag top proudly. His hair perfectly straightened. Was that eyeliner around his eyes?
His black skinny jeans griped his skinny body.

He looked so much like little him but so different at the same time.

I didnt notice my hand on Gerards face.

"It really is you.. Your back" I wispered to him
"Didn't I tell you honey?"

I didnt notice the tears that escaped my eyes.

"Honey dont cry" He pleaded
"But you left me. You just got up and left Gerard."
"Well Im back now" He said with his beautiful smile
"Gee I lost you for 2188 days... And everyone of those days I went looking for you"
"You did?"
"Yeah I did because when I told you I loved you. I ment it and I dont give things up easily"

While I told Gerard all this he stood there with a smile playing on his face.

"Gee?"
"Yeah honey?"
"Please dont leave me again?"

Gerard just shook his head

"Living without you was hell Frankie"
"Now you know how I felt"
"I couldn't say Im sorry enough times for leaving you Frank.. I had to I had no choice"
"What do you mean you had no choice! you knew Mom would have taken you in.."
"I know... I just didnt know what to do... Mom told me we were leaving... The day we left I couldnt get my head around it let alone say goodbye"

"Gerard?" Mom asked coming in from the kitchen
"Yes Mrs Iero?"
"Its not Mrs Iero anymore" I corrected Gerard.

He just narrowed his eyebrows.

"Please love, call me Linda"
Gerard smiled and nodded.

"Would you please stay for dinner?"

Gerard looked at me before answering.

"I'd love to"

"Mom. We'll be in my room"
"Okay Frankie"

"Frankie" Gerard smiled.
"I remember calling you that"
"I remember you calling me that too"

I led Gerard up to my room.

He looked around.

"Wow it hasnt changed much"
"Nah... I liked remembering being little"

Gerard looked at my nightstand and the look on his face was enough to break my heart all over again.

"You keept it?"
"yeah" I wispered.
"why?"
"Because when I was having my emo moments I'd read it and know one day you would come back"
"I promised I'd come back"
"Yeah. You did."

"Your songs are really beautiful Frankie" He said sitting next to me.
"How... How do you know about my songs?"
"Pencey Prep.. I came to lots of most of your shows"
"You did?"

He nodded.

"You know what my favorite song is?"
"What?"
"Florida Plates"

I sat there looking down into my hands.

"Its about me isn't it?" He asked lifting my head up.
Tears fell from my eyes.

"It was my way of not losing you completely"
"Honey you never lost me completely... I was always with you"
"You were always on my mind if thats what you mean"


"How did you know I was in Pencey Prep?"
"Mikey" He answered quickly
"How did he know?"
"He found you on Myspace read your bio and told me"
"How come you never talked to me after a show or something?" I asked getting angry.
"Because Frank, I didnt want to distract you and I knew if I came back into your life at that point you would have given it up and your to good to give up"
"Gee? I would have given everything up to just see you again"
"But you didnt have to did you? I mean well Im back now and you haven't given anything up"

"I nearly gave my life up" I said walking out of my room to find Mom.