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It was a lie when they smiled and said you wont feel a thing
1 reviewFrank has to face losing his Son... But he also has to face how Gerard and Mikey feel about that too.
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I got on the table and they put the warm gel on my stomach.
The doctor who wasn't my midwife gave me a smile
"You wont feel a thing"
Then he pushed down the stick thing on my stomach
"Ow!! your a liar, It hurts"
He keept looking from the screen to my stomach, From my stomach to the screen. over and over
I looked at the screen looking for James.
"where is he, I- I can't see him"
"I'm just trying to find him"
"What do you mean find him? He's in my stomach its not like he can get up and fucking leave"
"Please Frank calm down"
I took in a few more breaths
"oh.... no"
"what, What oh no?"
I looked to the screen to see James
"Why is that bad, Hes there"
"I'm- so sorry Frank" He said as he turned of the screen and put the stick wand thing back
"what?" I said breaking out in tears
"Your son-"
"hes a person, he has a name and its James"
"James has got no heart beat"
"What are you saying hes deformed?"
"I'm terriably sorry Frank but I have to do this-"
"Do Wha-"
"Time of death 12-"
"NO!!! NO-"
"12:14 PM"
"NO!!! YOUR LIEING. TAKE IT BACK PLEASE!!!"
"I'm so, so sorry Frank. I'll have someone book an emergency abortion"
I pulled my legs up to my Head and rested my head on my legs
This can not be real I have to be dreaming
"no. no this- no"
He opened the door and I heard Gerard
"wheres My Frank?"
"I am very sorry but James was not strong enough to make it. I'm so sorry"
I heard Gee and Mikey both run to my side
"Baby"
Gee wraped his arms around me
"I'm-I'm so sorry Gee, It's all my fault" I was wispered.
I could hear Mikey crying and it reminded me of when Bert was taken from him
"its not your fault Baby"
"It is. Mikey told me not to get in the way and I'm so so sorry Mikey"
"Its not your fault Frankie, please don't be sorry"
We all sat there crying for an hour.
"Frank?"
"Frank are you ready"
"No"
"c'mon babe it'll be ok"
"No I don't want him to go" I said crutching my stomach
"I Know honey, I don't want to say good bye eather but its just what we have to do"
"Please Gerard you can't let them take our son"
Tears fell down his face and I knew I had to except the fact that we had to give him up
No fight for his life. Just say good bye
Gerards hands took mine
"please Baby, you have to. I'm gonna be there too"
I nodded my head
"I'll go get you a-"
"I'll Walk"
"Are you sur-"
"Yes, I don't need your charity"
"baby, Calm down they're just trying to help you out"
"Gee, I dont want it. I want our Son back"
"I know you do" He said as he kissed my forehead.
"We both do"
Gerard put his arm around my waist and helped me up. Mikey being on the other side of me
I gave Mikeys hand a squeeze because I didn't want him to think this was his fault.
His glasses were all steamed up and his face all red.
we were outside the room we obviously had to go in
"You'll have to wear a gown"
"No I wont"
"You have to"
"And you have to do your job and last time I checked that was saving people"
"Please Mr Iero calm down"
"Calm down? We have just lost our son and your trying to tell me to calm down. Fuck you!"
"honey" Gerard wispered in my ear
"No Gee. It's the truth" I said breaking down agian.
Gee pulled me into his chest and patted my hair.
"They say everything happens for a reason Babe"
"Well they shouldn't"
"Hey come on Baby dont talk like that!"
I pushed my head harder and harder into his chest
"Please, Please let it all just go away Gee. This is just to-"
"I know"
he lifted my head just a little bit and his lips found mine.
"I love you Frank"
"Love you too Gee"
"Come on Frank. We have to go now or we wont get another chance"
"Go on sweetie, You'll be fine and me and Mikey will be right here when you get out"
I turned around to see Mikey suporting his big brother as he held him up
"James lee Way 2000 eternal" Mikey said stareing into the ground
"I love you Mikey"
"I love you too Frank"
I kissed gerards lips because I knew he couldn't come with us
"I fucking love you Gerard"
"I fucking love you too Frankie" He said with a kiss on my lips
The man pulled me away and made me dress into this robe thing. It was black... It was cool
I layed on the bed looking around at all the lights and needles and what nots
"Now when we put this mask on you we would like you to count back from 10"
"Okay"
the guy put the mask on, it smelt like strawberrys
"okay away you go"
"10
9
8
7....
I love you Gerard Arthur Way"
OKAY.. THATS IT THE END.. HOPE YOU ALL LIKED IT.
R&R? PLEASE?
LOVE, BRIT XOXO
The doctor who wasn't my midwife gave me a smile
"You wont feel a thing"
Then he pushed down the stick thing on my stomach
"Ow!! your a liar, It hurts"
He keept looking from the screen to my stomach, From my stomach to the screen. over and over
I looked at the screen looking for James.
"where is he, I- I can't see him"
"I'm just trying to find him"
"What do you mean find him? He's in my stomach its not like he can get up and fucking leave"
"Please Frank calm down"
I took in a few more breaths
"oh.... no"
"what, What oh no?"
I looked to the screen to see James
"Why is that bad, Hes there"
"I'm- so sorry Frank" He said as he turned of the screen and put the stick wand thing back
"what?" I said breaking out in tears
"Your son-"
"hes a person, he has a name and its James"
"James has got no heart beat"
"What are you saying hes deformed?"
"I'm terriably sorry Frank but I have to do this-"
"Do Wha-"
"Time of death 12-"
"NO!!! NO-"
"12:14 PM"
"NO!!! YOUR LIEING. TAKE IT BACK PLEASE!!!"
"I'm so, so sorry Frank. I'll have someone book an emergency abortion"
I pulled my legs up to my Head and rested my head on my legs
This can not be real I have to be dreaming
"no. no this- no"
He opened the door and I heard Gerard
"wheres My Frank?"
"I am very sorry but James was not strong enough to make it. I'm so sorry"
I heard Gee and Mikey both run to my side
"Baby"
Gee wraped his arms around me
"I'm-I'm so sorry Gee, It's all my fault" I was wispered.
I could hear Mikey crying and it reminded me of when Bert was taken from him
"its not your fault Baby"
"It is. Mikey told me not to get in the way and I'm so so sorry Mikey"
"Its not your fault Frankie, please don't be sorry"
We all sat there crying for an hour.
"Frank?"
"Frank are you ready"
"No"
"c'mon babe it'll be ok"
"No I don't want him to go" I said crutching my stomach
"I Know honey, I don't want to say good bye eather but its just what we have to do"
"Please Gerard you can't let them take our son"
Tears fell down his face and I knew I had to except the fact that we had to give him up
No fight for his life. Just say good bye
Gerards hands took mine
"please Baby, you have to. I'm gonna be there too"
I nodded my head
"I'll go get you a-"
"I'll Walk"
"Are you sur-"
"Yes, I don't need your charity"
"baby, Calm down they're just trying to help you out"
"Gee, I dont want it. I want our Son back"
"I know you do" He said as he kissed my forehead.
"We both do"
Gerard put his arm around my waist and helped me up. Mikey being on the other side of me
I gave Mikeys hand a squeeze because I didn't want him to think this was his fault.
His glasses were all steamed up and his face all red.
we were outside the room we obviously had to go in
"You'll have to wear a gown"
"No I wont"
"You have to"
"And you have to do your job and last time I checked that was saving people"
"Please Mr Iero calm down"
"Calm down? We have just lost our son and your trying to tell me to calm down. Fuck you!"
"honey" Gerard wispered in my ear
"No Gee. It's the truth" I said breaking down agian.
Gee pulled me into his chest and patted my hair.
"They say everything happens for a reason Babe"
"Well they shouldn't"
"Hey come on Baby dont talk like that!"
I pushed my head harder and harder into his chest
"Please, Please let it all just go away Gee. This is just to-"
"I know"
he lifted my head just a little bit and his lips found mine.
"I love you Frank"
"Love you too Gee"
"Come on Frank. We have to go now or we wont get another chance"
"Go on sweetie, You'll be fine and me and Mikey will be right here when you get out"
I turned around to see Mikey suporting his big brother as he held him up
"James lee Way 2000 eternal" Mikey said stareing into the ground
"I love you Mikey"
"I love you too Frank"
I kissed gerards lips because I knew he couldn't come with us
"I fucking love you Gerard"
"I fucking love you too Frankie" He said with a kiss on my lips
The man pulled me away and made me dress into this robe thing. It was black... It was cool
I layed on the bed looking around at all the lights and needles and what nots
"Now when we put this mask on you we would like you to count back from 10"
"Okay"
the guy put the mask on, it smelt like strawberrys
"okay away you go"
"10
9
8
7....
I love you Gerard Arthur Way"
OKAY.. THATS IT THE END.. HOPE YOU ALL LIKED IT.
R&R? PLEASE?
LOVE, BRIT XOXO
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