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They both walked out the door and I went back into our room. Mikey followed me
"Thank you so much for not saying a thing, Me and Bob have called it off"
"Well you shouldn't have started anything in the first place Mikey."
"yeah I know that now, I'm sorry for even involving you in it"
"Well I'm glad you did other wise you might not have stoped".
"True well I'm going to clean my room so I'll talk to you a bit later"
"Yeah ok see ya" Gerard came in just as Mikey was leaving. Gerard just had a towel around his hips
"you don't mind me getting dressed here do you?" Gerard asked
"No honey not at all" I said as I fell back wards on the pillows
"baby I know theres something up and I want to know what it is"
"Its nothing please Gerard just drop it"
"No frank I wont drop it"
"I promised I wouldn't say any thing and I'm not going to."
"Oh so when we said our vowes and you promised to not keep secrets are you gonna let that one go this time?"

"Gerard I've never keept a thing from you just PLEASE let this one go" I pleaded
"your Fucking him aren't you?"
"WHAT!!!"
"BOB,I KNOW IT. THATS WHY YOU KICKED MIKEY LAST NIGHT FOR STEARING AT HIM, THATS WHY YOU WERE OUT THERE THIS MORNING
THATS WHY YOU WERE TENSE YESTERDAY WHEN YOU CAME BACK BECAUSE YOU FUCKED HIM"
I sat up being really hurt from Gerards acusations

"Gerard do you honestly not trust me that much. HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES DO I TELL YOU I FUCKING LOVE YOU BUT JUST TRUST
ME. HOW MANY?!!!!!!! I DIDN'T FUCK BOB I NEVER FUCKING HAVE AND I DON'T FUCKING PLAN ON IT." I spat at him
"Really or are you just saying that? Because Frank. ALL THOSE TIMES I THOUGHT THAT IT WAS MIKEY BUT NOW I REALIZE IT WAS
YOU FUCKING BOB NOT MIKEY"

I got up and walked out to the kitchen because I was about to cry I saw Mikey standing there.
"How much have you heard?" I asked Mikey
"From when the yelling started"
"So from the start.?"
"yeah"
"Great Now he thinks I've been fucking Bob"
"Yeah I heard"
Gerard came out and he was fully clothed. I hoped he wouldn't yell any more because I didn't know if my little ears
could take it any more. Or my eyes really. Me and Gerard had never argued.. Ever
"Mikey go to your room" Gerard said standing by the bench looking at him.
"No, Ger-"
"Mikey. now"
"but Gerard"
"MIKEY FUCK OFF" I think he started scareing Mikey because Gerards never in his life been like this.
"FRANK HOW COULD YOU? WHAT AM I TO YOU? A FUCKING TEST DUMMY"
He threw a glass on the floor and thats when tears fell down my cheeks, I wanted to pick up that piece of glass and
slit my wrist or better of my throat.
"Gerard, please"
"NO FRANK, NO I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT ANY MORE YOUR JUST GONNA SAY YOU HAVE TO TRUST ME, WELL I FUCKING DON'T FRANK.
RIGHT NOW I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I FUCKING LOVE YOU OR HATE YOU" As soon as he said that I turned to go to the door.
"WHERE ARE YOU GOING I'M NOT FINISHED"
Mikey came out
"Gerard stop yelling your scareing me. and Frank"
"Ohh Mikey have you heard? FRANKS OUT FUCKING BOB"

I opened the door
"FRANK I ASKED YOU SOMETHING, WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING"
By this stage I had enough I walked back threw the door.

"YOU KNOW WHAT GERARD I'M GOING TO FUCK BOB BECAUSE APPARENTLY I'VE BEEN DOING IT FOR THE PAST 24 HOURS AND THEN HEY
MAYBE I'LL DO RAY, OR BETTER YET MY OWN BROTHER IN LAW" I screamed slaming the door shut. I walked down the road holding back
tears because people were looking at me funny.

I walked all the way to West Hudson park and sat on the ledge thinking
about the first time I ever came here with Gerard. And I started crying even more. I saw the grassy bank where we
kissed for the first time and I went and sat there. I put my head on my knees and put my arms around my legs and
just cried. I was there for about 40 minutes. Thats when someone sat next to me and put there arm around me

"Gerard?" I said as I looked up
"No the other one" Mikey said
I looked back down and he pulled me into his shoulder. I put my head on it almost as if it were Gerard and he put
His head on mine.
"I'm really sorry Frank"
"Its ok im just sorry you had to see it."
"no its all my fault. I'm sorry we didn't stop the first time. Frank I'm sorry he went off like that its not like him"
"It scared the shit out of me and I know it did you too"
"well yeah because I never knew he was like that"
"Neather did I."
"Do you wanna stay with Ray or Bob tonight because you can if you want"
"No I think I'll stay with my Mom tonight and hopefully Gerard doesn't hate me tomorrow and we can sort it out."
"Dude he doesn't hate you, He was just angry because of what he thought you were doing"
"I hope he doesnt because then I'd have no reason to live."
"well I told him it was me and he started crying"
"Really?"
"Yeah because he went physco at you for no reason and he made you cry"

I looked at Mikey for a second

"It was when he said he didn't know if he hated me or loved me is what hurt me. And that he doesn't trust or believe me"
"yeah I really thought he would believe you man I'm still really sorry"
"Its ok Mikey" I said as I felt Mikeys lips on my own
"Oh god I'm so-" I cut him off and kissed him again. Mikey kissed me back but thats when I stoped
"No thats not right"
"Its ok Frank your upset. How about I take you to your Moms?"
"Yes please" Mikey pulled out a smoke
"You left these and I just figured you could use one right now"
"Yea thanks Mikey" I put it in my mouth and lit it.