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I have lied to myself way too much.
i have walked away from situations,
i have waited too long for the truth.


it took me so long to discover,
the me i buried within.
the person i long to be,
is tightly kept .... and never released,
my mind is a terrible place to be...

the thoughts that consume me are impecable...
the way my mind works is incredable...
i cant even imagine my life...
outside of this cage...

im like an animal....
locked away in the zoo...
but its more like im a mental patient...
locked up cuz im a crazy fool...


im crazy for loving...
and insane for my beleifs...
i am almost completely alone..
in all that i think..

i miss knowing...
what tomorrow would bring..
knowing that my heart...
wasnt hanging on a string...

cuz as of yet im alone...
forever embedded to a figment...
a phantom my fantasies imagined...
my wildest dreams incured....

so i have to drift to my dreams...
mostly im happy there....
but in the back of my subconcious mind...
i know ill awake and have to face all my fears.


of being alone...............
no matter the company.............
ill always be alone............................
isnt that something....