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ELLY'S POV
After all the fun we were having on the bus, I decided to go and take a quick nap before we got to all the chaos of having to settle into the first venue.
When I woke up I saw Frankie laying next to me asleep and I smiled reaching up and running my fingertips across his scorpion tattoo on her neck. I looked back up at him and realized how much more I fell in love with him as each day passed. I wanted to marry him and really hoped that one day he would ask me to because I would marry him in a heart beat. I wondered sometimes if it bothered him that I wasnt more intimate with him, I wanted to be but the fact of trying to be sexually intimate with someone scared me, Bert turned it from something that was suppose to be loving and beautiful into something ugly I felt disgusting like i didnt want anyone to touch me, I felt numb and I just wanted the ugliness I felt inside to go away. There was still something inside me that kept me scared and made me feel so undeserving of anyones love. I wanted to go back so badly and just have all the bad stuff that happened to us not happen at all, and as much as if hurt me to think and say it sometimes I wished I hadnt gotten involved with Trace. It would have spared my feelings and his and we could of just found our own paths without having them have crossed like they did under the circumstances that we unfortunetly met in. I sighed kissing Frankie's lips softly and I cuddled into him feeling his arms around me as he he held me closely to him and I fell asleep listening to his heartbeat.
I felt like I had been asleep for the longest time when I heard all the commotion in the front of the bus and I sat up rubbing my eyes and I saw that Frankie was gone. I got up and I walked out to the lobby looking out the window and I saw that we were at the first venue.
"Hey sleepy head" Frankie smiled giving me a hug.
"were here already" I yawned laying my head on his shoulder.
"yep and its got the guys all crazy" he laughed watching as everyone was looking thru the play lists.
"its about to get crazy isnt it" I smiled
"yes it is" he smiled as the bus pulled into thek venue.
"alright guys time to work" Ray yelled walking off the bus.
"you wanna come check out the venue with us" Mikey walked by grabbing his cell.
"ya let me just grab a hoodie and put some shoes on" I said walking back to the room. I quickly changed and grabbed my cell walking off the bus with Frankie hand in hand.
I looked around at the booths and the bands that were already there and I got the feeling I really missed about touring, the fun the music and just all the friends you share this wonderful experience with.
"you miss this huh" Frankie said looking down at me" I nodded smiling "ya I miss watching you guys play"
"well lucky you you get to watch me play for the next two months and you get to see me up close you lucky girl" he leaned down kissing my lips.
"mmm do i get a kiss everytime before you go onstage"
"yes you do" he said kissing me again.
"your my lucky charm love" he smiled.
"your mine to" i hugged him him tightly as we made our way to the dressing room.
I watched the guys practice there set and I just watched Frankie playing his heart out even thru practice he still put his everything into it. When they were done we decided to walk around the venue and check out the merch tents. We stopped by our merch tent and we helped Mikey set up everything up.
"you wanna run the tent for me while we go do meet and greats elles" Mikey asked as he unpacked the last of the boxes.
"ya you guys know I love working the merch tent" I smiled
"you gonna be okay" Frankie asked me as I sat down.
"ya Ill be fine dont worry go ahead and do the meet greet"
"ok I love you" he leaned kissing my lips "i love you to" I smiled as they walked off. I was having so much selling time just flew by. I was fixing up some clothes when i heard a familiar voice behind me.
"hey there" I turned around and I saw Mason standing there with his arms open. I just laughed and hugged him tightly.
"when did you guys get here"
"earlier today have you guys played yet." Mason shook his head sighing.
"how are things on the bus mase" I asked as I saw the fustrated and sad look in eyes.
"Okay i guess, awakward as hell but I'm just counting til the last show so I dont have to be stuck on the bus with Trace" He said with a hint of anger in his voice.
"dont worry mase just go up there and sing, have a good time for the fans I know you like to make them dance" I smiled.
"ya thats exactly what I'm gonna do thanks elly" He smiled giving me a hug.
"your welcome Mase"
"so I guess I'm gonna be seeing you til we finish our tour dates"
"ya i heard you guys were doing a few dates from taste of chaos"
"ya just have of them so we better hang out and get drunk" he laughed.
"oh you know it"
"well Ill let you get back to work, im gonna head back to the bus and pick up some stuff"
"ok Mase Ill see you when your on stage" He nodded and took off. I sold a bit more stuff and I looked down at my watch, the guys had been gone for almost two hours and nobody had come to help me out. I sat back and I just sighed as i heard the first band take the stage and a bunch of kids ran by knocking some shirts off the table.
"great" I muttered getting up and walking around to front of the table and kneeling down picking the pile up.
"need some help there" I looked up and I saw Trace standing over me.
"no I dont so can you please go away" i said grabbing the pile and setting it the table. I walked past him back around behind the table and started folding up the shirts again.
"so your not gonna talk to me ever again" He asked grabbing my hand. I looked up at him and i pulled my hand out of his.
"you have no idea what you did to me outside of my brothers reception do you"
"come on Elly I was drunk okay, I wanted to see you and I know how stubborn you can be so me calling you and asking to see you we both knew that wasnt gonna happen"
"Trace of course I'm not gonna see you again, but you came fucked up and you forced yourself on me" I yelled at him and he just looked down breaking eye contact with me.
"did you forget what i went through, did you even care Trace huh"
"of course I cared Elly I'm sorry for what I did at your brothers reception I'm sorry for everything but I cant be with out you, the day you told me you loved me, it was the greatest day of my life, I've loved you sense the first day I saw you, I knew I wanted to be with you but I never thought you would give me the time of day and at that time you were in a relationship with my friend but for some reason I couldnt stop pursuing you and I still cant, deep down I know you still feel something for me and im gonna make you see it I promise you that" he said looking back at me and smiling as he walked away.
Once he was gone out of view he left me with a really creepy feeling and I was more anxious to get out of there even faster. When I finally saw Frankie and a roadie walking towards the booth I sighed and frankie ran to me pulling me into his arms.
"hey you okay you look a little shaken" he asked looking down at me. I looked back up at him and i decided not to tell him about the whole Trace thing casue i knew it would cause a problem and we didnt need that here at this moment.
"ya I'm fine I just anxious i want to watch you guys play already" I smiled.
"well where on in like half of an hour" he said grabbing my hand as we made our way back to the bus. we were walking back to the bus and we walked right by the metro station merch tent and i turned and saw Trace sitting there and he looked towards me and he just blew a kiss at me mouthing the words I love you as we walked by. I shook my head and I hugged frankie tight as we got to the bus.
we all changed and got ready for the set quickly and we made our way to stage area and we could hear all the fans going crazy. we got to the side stage and looked out and saww all those faces in the crowd going nuts. This was the biggest crown i had ever seen in all the tours I had been on. The cheering was getting louder and you could tell the guys were all getting hyped up.
"wish me luck love" Frankie said pulling me into his arms.
"good luck Mr. Iero" I smiled kissing his lips. He pulled me tighter deepening the kiss even more.
"hmmm i want another kiss like when you get off stage" I replied.
"oh you'll get more than that" he laughed kissing me again.
"I love you, good luck and rock your heart out babe"
"I love you to Mrs. Iero" He said as they all ran out to the stage causing even louder screams. I stood by the side stage and went crazy along with the fans when they started to play there first song.
After all the fun we were having on the bus, I decided to go and take a quick nap before we got to all the chaos of having to settle into the first venue.
When I woke up I saw Frankie laying next to me asleep and I smiled reaching up and running my fingertips across his scorpion tattoo on her neck. I looked back up at him and realized how much more I fell in love with him as each day passed. I wanted to marry him and really hoped that one day he would ask me to because I would marry him in a heart beat. I wondered sometimes if it bothered him that I wasnt more intimate with him, I wanted to be but the fact of trying to be sexually intimate with someone scared me, Bert turned it from something that was suppose to be loving and beautiful into something ugly I felt disgusting like i didnt want anyone to touch me, I felt numb and I just wanted the ugliness I felt inside to go away. There was still something inside me that kept me scared and made me feel so undeserving of anyones love. I wanted to go back so badly and just have all the bad stuff that happened to us not happen at all, and as much as if hurt me to think and say it sometimes I wished I hadnt gotten involved with Trace. It would have spared my feelings and his and we could of just found our own paths without having them have crossed like they did under the circumstances that we unfortunetly met in. I sighed kissing Frankie's lips softly and I cuddled into him feeling his arms around me as he he held me closely to him and I fell asleep listening to his heartbeat.
I felt like I had been asleep for the longest time when I heard all the commotion in the front of the bus and I sat up rubbing my eyes and I saw that Frankie was gone. I got up and I walked out to the lobby looking out the window and I saw that we were at the first venue.
"Hey sleepy head" Frankie smiled giving me a hug.
"were here already" I yawned laying my head on his shoulder.
"yep and its got the guys all crazy" he laughed watching as everyone was looking thru the play lists.
"its about to get crazy isnt it" I smiled
"yes it is" he smiled as the bus pulled into thek venue.
"alright guys time to work" Ray yelled walking off the bus.
"you wanna come check out the venue with us" Mikey walked by grabbing his cell.
"ya let me just grab a hoodie and put some shoes on" I said walking back to the room. I quickly changed and grabbed my cell walking off the bus with Frankie hand in hand.
I looked around at the booths and the bands that were already there and I got the feeling I really missed about touring, the fun the music and just all the friends you share this wonderful experience with.
"you miss this huh" Frankie said looking down at me" I nodded smiling "ya I miss watching you guys play"
"well lucky you you get to watch me play for the next two months and you get to see me up close you lucky girl" he leaned down kissing my lips.
"mmm do i get a kiss everytime before you go onstage"
"yes you do" he said kissing me again.
"your my lucky charm love" he smiled.
"your mine to" i hugged him him tightly as we made our way to the dressing room.
I watched the guys practice there set and I just watched Frankie playing his heart out even thru practice he still put his everything into it. When they were done we decided to walk around the venue and check out the merch tents. We stopped by our merch tent and we helped Mikey set up everything up.
"you wanna run the tent for me while we go do meet and greats elles" Mikey asked as he unpacked the last of the boxes.
"ya you guys know I love working the merch tent" I smiled
"you gonna be okay" Frankie asked me as I sat down.
"ya Ill be fine dont worry go ahead and do the meet greet"
"ok I love you" he leaned kissing my lips "i love you to" I smiled as they walked off. I was having so much selling time just flew by. I was fixing up some clothes when i heard a familiar voice behind me.
"hey there" I turned around and I saw Mason standing there with his arms open. I just laughed and hugged him tightly.
"when did you guys get here"
"earlier today have you guys played yet." Mason shook his head sighing.
"how are things on the bus mase" I asked as I saw the fustrated and sad look in eyes.
"Okay i guess, awakward as hell but I'm just counting til the last show so I dont have to be stuck on the bus with Trace" He said with a hint of anger in his voice.
"dont worry mase just go up there and sing, have a good time for the fans I know you like to make them dance" I smiled.
"ya thats exactly what I'm gonna do thanks elly" He smiled giving me a hug.
"your welcome Mase"
"so I guess I'm gonna be seeing you til we finish our tour dates"
"ya i heard you guys were doing a few dates from taste of chaos"
"ya just have of them so we better hang out and get drunk" he laughed.
"oh you know it"
"well Ill let you get back to work, im gonna head back to the bus and pick up some stuff"
"ok Mase Ill see you when your on stage" He nodded and took off. I sold a bit more stuff and I looked down at my watch, the guys had been gone for almost two hours and nobody had come to help me out. I sat back and I just sighed as i heard the first band take the stage and a bunch of kids ran by knocking some shirts off the table.
"great" I muttered getting up and walking around to front of the table and kneeling down picking the pile up.
"need some help there" I looked up and I saw Trace standing over me.
"no I dont so can you please go away" i said grabbing the pile and setting it the table. I walked past him back around behind the table and started folding up the shirts again.
"so your not gonna talk to me ever again" He asked grabbing my hand. I looked up at him and i pulled my hand out of his.
"you have no idea what you did to me outside of my brothers reception do you"
"come on Elly I was drunk okay, I wanted to see you and I know how stubborn you can be so me calling you and asking to see you we both knew that wasnt gonna happen"
"Trace of course I'm not gonna see you again, but you came fucked up and you forced yourself on me" I yelled at him and he just looked down breaking eye contact with me.
"did you forget what i went through, did you even care Trace huh"
"of course I cared Elly I'm sorry for what I did at your brothers reception I'm sorry for everything but I cant be with out you, the day you told me you loved me, it was the greatest day of my life, I've loved you sense the first day I saw you, I knew I wanted to be with you but I never thought you would give me the time of day and at that time you were in a relationship with my friend but for some reason I couldnt stop pursuing you and I still cant, deep down I know you still feel something for me and im gonna make you see it I promise you that" he said looking back at me and smiling as he walked away.
Once he was gone out of view he left me with a really creepy feeling and I was more anxious to get out of there even faster. When I finally saw Frankie and a roadie walking towards the booth I sighed and frankie ran to me pulling me into his arms.
"hey you okay you look a little shaken" he asked looking down at me. I looked back up at him and i decided not to tell him about the whole Trace thing casue i knew it would cause a problem and we didnt need that here at this moment.
"ya I'm fine I just anxious i want to watch you guys play already" I smiled.
"well where on in like half of an hour" he said grabbing my hand as we made our way back to the bus. we were walking back to the bus and we walked right by the metro station merch tent and i turned and saw Trace sitting there and he looked towards me and he just blew a kiss at me mouthing the words I love you as we walked by. I shook my head and I hugged frankie tight as we got to the bus.
we all changed and got ready for the set quickly and we made our way to stage area and we could hear all the fans going crazy. we got to the side stage and looked out and saww all those faces in the crowd going nuts. This was the biggest crown i had ever seen in all the tours I had been on. The cheering was getting louder and you could tell the guys were all getting hyped up.
"wish me luck love" Frankie said pulling me into his arms.
"good luck Mr. Iero" I smiled kissing his lips. He pulled me tighter deepening the kiss even more.
"hmmm i want another kiss like when you get off stage" I replied.
"oh you'll get more than that" he laughed kissing me again.
"I love you, good luck and rock your heart out babe"
"I love you to Mrs. Iero" He said as they all ran out to the stage causing even louder screams. I stood by the side stage and went crazy along with the fans when they started to play there first song.
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