Categories > Celebrities > My Chemical Romance > I think I'll die alone
Mourning,Elena, Alex , all of this chapter is Frank's POV Like i said Recommned song:Early Sunsets over monroeville
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Frank’s POV
I watched as he slipped into his Tragedy, Vacant and Stained,
but still manages to say he loves me, which is harder on him at best.
The Way Family sits in the living room and mourns, I didn’t belong there.
“Frank you belong here, you were like a son the Elena, she adored you.” He hugged me.
I didn’t need the hug but he did.
“I love you Gee,” I kissed his forehead as silver tears slid down both of our cheeks.
We both knew people were staring but her kissed me anyways.
“Frankie, I think I need to die my hair again,” he giggled, but he winced in pain as if joy was pain.
I saw the comfort and closeness that my family didn’t have that Gerard’s did.
I just stood there admiring the family as they hugged Gerard. A hand grabbed my shoulder.
Gerard’s mom stood there, her curly locks fell perfectly in place.
Her hazel eyes stared into my eyes ,” I’m sorry, when Mikey told me I thought of it really bad, I never wanted it to be this way, I mean Gerard has been with a couple girls in his life and it kind of was a surprise for me to hear this.”
I smirked, she gave me the warm hugs and mother should give to a son.
“Thank you.”
Kate and Jeanine walked into the house, they gave Gerard a hug.
They didn’t notice me and walked over to a crying Mikey.
Gerard’s mom walked over to some gothic punk looking chick.
Shorter than me, 16 maybe, pale, short brown hair, black shirt with dark red designs, choker, and black flats.
She had tears in her eyes, she walked over to me, “So, your Gerard’s new uh toy?”
Kate suddenly seemed to notice and came over, “Shut up Chloe you’re just sad that Gerard left you for another guy.” She giggled.
The thought of Gerard being straight poisoned my mind,
Chloe looked at me, “I’m just kidding, I’m sorry if I sounded bitchy, I’m Chloe, as you know, I’m an ex..er.. Friend of Gerard’s. Uh , I’m not to good with names, your uh Frank right?”
I nodded, so that’s Gerard’s type of girl?
Kate and Chloe walked to Mikey, it seemed as if every chick was attracted to a sad Mikey. That thought made me laugh. “Hey,” Gerard’s voice taunted from behind me.
I turned around to see his bloodshot eyes and a smirk, “Lets walk to the store.”
**
“Um Gee, just got a text from Robyn , she said you and I need to go to Ray’s house at 9”
Gerard was searching through the shelves, trying to ignore the fact his life has changed into a nightmare , “ Humph uh okay we should go,” he picked out a box color “Jet black.” He smiled but choked on his tears, his finger traced the sticker on the back as he tried to read.
I placed my hand on his shoulder, He turned to look at me, I wrapped my arms around his neck and reeled him into a kiss.
Smooth lips, so much passion, I felt as if I was taking away the pain.
People are staring , but no one was caring. This is the way the world needs to be.
I pulled away, but Gerard’s arms wrapped around my waist, and we kissed one more time. This wasn’t a pity kiss.
Can we give love one more chance?
I whispered into Gerard’s ear ,” Lets hurry I have a suprise.”
**
It was weird taking Gerard to my house willingly.
She was waiting in my room , her white and gold outline stood out.
Gerard sat on my bed, “What did you want to show me?”
I grabbed Pansy and slung the strap around my shoulder.
Gerard looked at his feet.
I started to play Early Sunsets Over Monroeville and sang along,
“Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes
Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen
And the whole time while always giving
Counting your face among the living”
Gerard looked up in awe, “Oh Frankie,”
I kept singing and playing,
“Up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains
Elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains
Running away and hiding with you
I never thought they'd get me here
Not knowing you'd change from just one bite
I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But would anything matter if you're already dead? “
I looked up to see Gerard’s eyes water.
“And well should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
And would anything matter if you're already dead?
And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
And our memories defeat us,
And I'll end this direst.
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But does anything matter if you're already dead?
And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
But does anyone notice there's a corpse in this bed?”
Gerard got up and hugged me, Tears illuminated his eyes like jewels.
I wiped the tears with my thumb, words came slipped through his mouth, “Did you write that?”
I nodded,” Gee, you we’re my inspiration, if anything happened to you…”
**
If anything happened to Gerard, I don’t know where I would be.
I decided it would be best if I stayed at Gerard’s house for tonight, the familiar fumes of hair dye , you could almost taste it, though tasting it would kill you, I think.
I sighed ,” Frank, I kind of have to shower now.” I laughed ,”And I can’t stay?” He smirked, “What if someone walked in?” I got up and raised my hands as if I surrendered, “Alright, Alright, “ I walked out, was Gerard’s room always this artistic.
He seem to dedicate his life to art, but It seems like he could go far with what he has in music. A pinboard on his wall held pictures of his old school and drawings.
A picture of Mikey holding a plastic unicorn, a drawing of a couple with blood splatter on their face, and one of Gerard sticking his tongue out and Alex smiling.
The two people I care about, ruined, loved, and yet fallen. I took the pin out and looked at the picture. Familiar handwriting on the back “If I fall and don’t look back, baby don’t stop , bury me and fade to black. Words of Wisdom Gee ;) , Love Alex”
“How does it look?” I slipped the photo in my pocket and turned around, Gerard’s hair was back to jet black, “I don’t care what your hair looks like, Gerard, Your always beautiful.”
I watched as he slipped into his Tragedy, Vacant and Stained,
but still manages to say he loves me, which is harder on him at best.
The Way Family sits in the living room and mourns, I didn’t belong there.
“Frank you belong here, you were like a son the Elena, she adored you.” He hugged me.
I didn’t need the hug but he did.
“I love you Gee,” I kissed his forehead as silver tears slid down both of our cheeks.
We both knew people were staring but her kissed me anyways.
“Frankie, I think I need to die my hair again,” he giggled, but he winced in pain as if joy was pain.
I saw the comfort and closeness that my family didn’t have that Gerard’s did.
I just stood there admiring the family as they hugged Gerard. A hand grabbed my shoulder.
Gerard’s mom stood there, her curly locks fell perfectly in place.
Her hazel eyes stared into my eyes ,” I’m sorry, when Mikey told me I thought of it really bad, I never wanted it to be this way, I mean Gerard has been with a couple girls in his life and it kind of was a surprise for me to hear this.”
I smirked, she gave me the warm hugs and mother should give to a son.
“Thank you.”
Kate and Jeanine walked into the house, they gave Gerard a hug.
They didn’t notice me and walked over to a crying Mikey.
Gerard’s mom walked over to some gothic punk looking chick.
Shorter than me, 16 maybe, pale, short brown hair, black shirt with dark red designs, choker, and black flats.
She had tears in her eyes, she walked over to me, “So, your Gerard’s new uh toy?”
Kate suddenly seemed to notice and came over, “Shut up Chloe you’re just sad that Gerard left you for another guy.” She giggled.
The thought of Gerard being straight poisoned my mind,
Chloe looked at me, “I’m just kidding, I’m sorry if I sounded bitchy, I’m Chloe, as you know, I’m an ex..er.. Friend of Gerard’s. Uh , I’m not to good with names, your uh Frank right?”
I nodded, so that’s Gerard’s type of girl?
Kate and Chloe walked to Mikey, it seemed as if every chick was attracted to a sad Mikey. That thought made me laugh. “Hey,” Gerard’s voice taunted from behind me.
I turned around to see his bloodshot eyes and a smirk, “Lets walk to the store.”
**
“Um Gee, just got a text from Robyn , she said you and I need to go to Ray’s house at 9”
Gerard was searching through the shelves, trying to ignore the fact his life has changed into a nightmare , “ Humph uh okay we should go,” he picked out a box color “Jet black.” He smiled but choked on his tears, his finger traced the sticker on the back as he tried to read.
I placed my hand on his shoulder, He turned to look at me, I wrapped my arms around his neck and reeled him into a kiss.
Smooth lips, so much passion, I felt as if I was taking away the pain.
People are staring , but no one was caring. This is the way the world needs to be.
I pulled away, but Gerard’s arms wrapped around my waist, and we kissed one more time. This wasn’t a pity kiss.
Can we give love one more chance?
I whispered into Gerard’s ear ,” Lets hurry I have a suprise.”
**
It was weird taking Gerard to my house willingly.
She was waiting in my room , her white and gold outline stood out.
Gerard sat on my bed, “What did you want to show me?”
I grabbed Pansy and slung the strap around my shoulder.
Gerard looked at his feet.
I started to play Early Sunsets Over Monroeville and sang along,
“Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes
Then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen
And the whole time while always giving
Counting your face among the living”
Gerard looked up in awe, “Oh Frankie,”
I kept singing and playing,
“Up and down escalators, pennies and colder fountains
Elevators and half price sales, trapped in by all these mountains
Running away and hiding with you
I never thought they'd get me here
Not knowing you'd change from just one bite
I fought them all off just to hold you close and tight
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But would anything matter if you're already dead? “
I looked up to see Gerard’s eyes water.
“And well should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
And would anything matter if you're already dead?
And now should I be shocked by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
And our memories defeat us,
And I'll end this direst.
But does anyone notice?
But does anyone care?
And if I had the guts to put this to your head...
But does anything matter if you're already dead?
And should I be shocked now by the last thing you said?
Before I pull this trigger,
Your eyes vacant and stained...
And in saying you loved me,
Made things harder at best,
And these words changing nothing
As your body remains,
And there's no room in this hell,
There's no room in the next,
But does anyone notice there's a corpse in this bed?”
Gerard got up and hugged me, Tears illuminated his eyes like jewels.
I wiped the tears with my thumb, words came slipped through his mouth, “Did you write that?”
I nodded,” Gee, you we’re my inspiration, if anything happened to you…”
**
If anything happened to Gerard, I don’t know where I would be.
I decided it would be best if I stayed at Gerard’s house for tonight, the familiar fumes of hair dye , you could almost taste it, though tasting it would kill you, I think.
I sighed ,” Frank, I kind of have to shower now.” I laughed ,”And I can’t stay?” He smirked, “What if someone walked in?” I got up and raised my hands as if I surrendered, “Alright, Alright, “ I walked out, was Gerard’s room always this artistic.
He seem to dedicate his life to art, but It seems like he could go far with what he has in music. A pinboard on his wall held pictures of his old school and drawings.
A picture of Mikey holding a plastic unicorn, a drawing of a couple with blood splatter on their face, and one of Gerard sticking his tongue out and Alex smiling.
The two people I care about, ruined, loved, and yet fallen. I took the pin out and looked at the picture. Familiar handwriting on the back “If I fall and don’t look back, baby don’t stop , bury me and fade to black. Words of Wisdom Gee ;) , Love Alex”
“How does it look?” I slipped the photo in my pocket and turned around, Gerard’s hair was back to jet black, “I don’t care what your hair looks like, Gerard, Your always beautiful.”
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