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Authors Note To The Reader: I think I might end this series very soon… Maybe, This chapter is confusing I know, Just note its hard for me being a girl to write in a boys point of view when its serious! Haha well enjoy the last chapters :)
Gerard’s POV
“Just Close Your Eyes, Let The Memories drown you,” my grip was tense, but Frank was the one who winced and squeezed at the reminder of memories.
The wrinkles around her mouth were from faking a smile when she told her patients that they would be okay. It swallowed me to be in therapy. Especially with Mikey and Frank with me.
I tried not to twitch, but I knew she was staring at me with a devil glare,” Mr. Way I swear if you don’t stop twitching…” Frank interrupted her, his voice irritated, “Can we just start already?!”
“Okay Gerard, “ She swallowed, “What do you want to talk about first?”
I hesitated I knew how Frank would react but I said it anyways, “Hawthorne Junior High.”
The bright hallway lights lit up my mind, the blue lockers, it was old to me.
“ It was raining, I remember seeing just jackets, covering everyone’s profile. Mikey was at the school library, he volunteered their sometimes.” I could hear Mikey chuckle, “ No one noticed me, I was an outcast. I heard crying ….”
Alex’s POV (Junior High)
I wasn’t aware that love isn’t real until now. I took a blood red pill to help me fly for the school day. We all know being a new kid sucks ass. Mainly, when you’re being labeled and no one talks to you. The bathroom floor was cold, I look worse than ever, if I went out there who knows what people would think. I could feel my eyeliner smeared from the crying. I feel like a baby sitting her crying about being at school.
God, I’m too young for this! Why do I do these things to myself! I pushed myself up slowly as if I was a brittle old lady who could break a bone in a snap. I could do that with my heart, I fall to easy I guess.
I stared at my reflection in the mirror, my green eyes were vacant and stained. Eyeliner and mascara , streaming down my pale cheeks. Hair stayed big, the layers never let me down, but the curly thick black hair that must be straightened everyday did.
I groaned and moaned. That’s when the door swung open, I knew someone would take those sounds wrong, I know I would. A beautiful hazel eyed boy walked in, I froze, my mouth was the only thing that moved, “Uh what the fuck are you doing in the bathroom?”
He was drop dead gorgeous , God he must be gay!! Fuck that always happens to me. He was sexier than any boy I’ve ever seen. I wanted to kiss him right there, not even knowing his name… But I’m probably right about the gay thing. Guys don’t come out of the closet in Junior High, too much of a popularity contest here.
I shook my head of all the thought that were becoming dirty. I looked at him, he cocked his eyebrow, “I thought someone was dying, I was just making sure…. Are you Okay?”
I nodded , “Just a little high but it’s cool.” He sighed with relief , he held his hand out ,”Gerard… Gerard Way.” I bit my lip to stop from laughing, I hate my annoying laugh, “Your last names way! That’s bad ass!! I’m Alex Rocca.” I grabbed his hand and pulled him into a hug.
Gerard’s POV (Present Time)
“For being a cold, pale skinned girl she gave amazing hugs, She was beautiful,” I opened my eyes for a second, Frank was smiling, his eyes closed, his semi-long black hair was fading to brown, of course he was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
My eyes felt heavy, a side of my lip still moved, I smiled “I remember letting her borrow my eyeliner, I also remember doing her eyeliner for her because she liked my make up.” That when Frank and Mikey Burst into laughter. The brittle lady shushed them, “Go on Gerard.”
My head violently shook ,”There was nothing wrong with that picture, the best friend story just goes on or it just gets to Elena.” The room fell silent, the orange walls trapped me in its autumn feel. Frank sat next to my body, my clothes were uncomfortable to lay in. The green couch I was laying wasn’t helping.
Frank’s POV I placed a hand on Gerard’s toned chest, too bad he had a shirt on this time. His breath was steady, I could feel his heart beat rise just a little.
“Who’s Helena?” the brown nappy haired therapist asked, “Elena,” Mikey corrected her,” She was Gerard and my grandmother who died recently.” I could feel Gerard choke back on the tears, his skin flushed, too much memories in a day. But if this is what it takes for his mother to officially take me into the Way family I’ll do it.
“I brought Alex over that day, I wanted Mikey to meet her.” Mikey laughed, Oh god, ”He practically drooled all over her. Elena thought she was really pretty, but she’s very intuitive, she knew something was wrong from the start.” Oh if only Elena knew….
“Don’t get me wrong Elena loves everyone I bring home, He just knew Alex was going to break down one day, she warned me, she told me to watch her and keep her close. Of course I thought she would be okay, and she was.”
The therapist wrote down some notes ,”Tell me more about Elena.” Gerard closed his eyes fully, he smiled ,”Damn, where do I start? Besides the fact she loved all my friends, she got me into art and music. She was my greatest inspiration, one of the best things that happened to me.”
He started to cry tears of joy, “ I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for her. God I really do love her and miss her. She took us in when my mom abandoned us for work. She didn’t care about me being gay at all. Freedom of expression was her things, she didn’t care what I looked like because she trust me.”
His tears were now joy and sorrow ,”Okay Mr. Way that’s enough for today,” Gerard sat up and I kissed his smooth small lips real quick even if I wanted more that would be a little weird right here , “Mr. Iero it’s your turn.” Shit.
My body replaced where Gerard’s was, not all of it since I’m so short but most of it. His warm body left it aura, my body filled with warmth as soon as I was relaxed.
“Mr. Iero, how did you know you were gay?”
I choked, who the fuck ask that questions, I sighed. “I was in 7th grade, I thought it was only a puberty side effect thing you know? But that year, I had a boyfriend, His name was Chris. “ I shook my head, I never told anyone this, why did I choose now? “He had badass blue eyes he hurt me verbally but loved me psychically, but it never got that far. We had an affair...” I cut myself off in 7th grade you can’t really have an affair can you?
“Well whatever the fuck you call it! I refused sex with him he went and cheated on me with another guy.” I stuttered a bit, “ I don’t know the other guys name but…” I choked ,” I think I might have an idea who.”
Gerard’s POV
“Just Close Your Eyes, Let The Memories drown you,” my grip was tense, but Frank was the one who winced and squeezed at the reminder of memories.
The wrinkles around her mouth were from faking a smile when she told her patients that they would be okay. It swallowed me to be in therapy. Especially with Mikey and Frank with me.
I tried not to twitch, but I knew she was staring at me with a devil glare,” Mr. Way I swear if you don’t stop twitching…” Frank interrupted her, his voice irritated, “Can we just start already?!”
“Okay Gerard, “ She swallowed, “What do you want to talk about first?”
I hesitated I knew how Frank would react but I said it anyways, “Hawthorne Junior High.”
The bright hallway lights lit up my mind, the blue lockers, it was old to me.
“ It was raining, I remember seeing just jackets, covering everyone’s profile. Mikey was at the school library, he volunteered their sometimes.” I could hear Mikey chuckle, “ No one noticed me, I was an outcast. I heard crying ….”
Alex’s POV (Junior High)
I wasn’t aware that love isn’t real until now. I took a blood red pill to help me fly for the school day. We all know being a new kid sucks ass. Mainly, when you’re being labeled and no one talks to you. The bathroom floor was cold, I look worse than ever, if I went out there who knows what people would think. I could feel my eyeliner smeared from the crying. I feel like a baby sitting her crying about being at school.
God, I’m too young for this! Why do I do these things to myself! I pushed myself up slowly as if I was a brittle old lady who could break a bone in a snap. I could do that with my heart, I fall to easy I guess.
I stared at my reflection in the mirror, my green eyes were vacant and stained. Eyeliner and mascara , streaming down my pale cheeks. Hair stayed big, the layers never let me down, but the curly thick black hair that must be straightened everyday did.
I groaned and moaned. That’s when the door swung open, I knew someone would take those sounds wrong, I know I would. A beautiful hazel eyed boy walked in, I froze, my mouth was the only thing that moved, “Uh what the fuck are you doing in the bathroom?”
He was drop dead gorgeous , God he must be gay!! Fuck that always happens to me. He was sexier than any boy I’ve ever seen. I wanted to kiss him right there, not even knowing his name… But I’m probably right about the gay thing. Guys don’t come out of the closet in Junior High, too much of a popularity contest here.
I shook my head of all the thought that were becoming dirty. I looked at him, he cocked his eyebrow, “I thought someone was dying, I was just making sure…. Are you Okay?”
I nodded , “Just a little high but it’s cool.” He sighed with relief , he held his hand out ,”Gerard… Gerard Way.” I bit my lip to stop from laughing, I hate my annoying laugh, “Your last names way! That’s bad ass!! I’m Alex Rocca.” I grabbed his hand and pulled him into a hug.
Gerard’s POV (Present Time)
“For being a cold, pale skinned girl she gave amazing hugs, She was beautiful,” I opened my eyes for a second, Frank was smiling, his eyes closed, his semi-long black hair was fading to brown, of course he was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
My eyes felt heavy, a side of my lip still moved, I smiled “I remember letting her borrow my eyeliner, I also remember doing her eyeliner for her because she liked my make up.” That when Frank and Mikey Burst into laughter. The brittle lady shushed them, “Go on Gerard.”
My head violently shook ,”There was nothing wrong with that picture, the best friend story just goes on or it just gets to Elena.” The room fell silent, the orange walls trapped me in its autumn feel. Frank sat next to my body, my clothes were uncomfortable to lay in. The green couch I was laying wasn’t helping.
Frank’s POV I placed a hand on Gerard’s toned chest, too bad he had a shirt on this time. His breath was steady, I could feel his heart beat rise just a little.
“Who’s Helena?” the brown nappy haired therapist asked, “Elena,” Mikey corrected her,” She was Gerard and my grandmother who died recently.” I could feel Gerard choke back on the tears, his skin flushed, too much memories in a day. But if this is what it takes for his mother to officially take me into the Way family I’ll do it.
“I brought Alex over that day, I wanted Mikey to meet her.” Mikey laughed, Oh god, ”He practically drooled all over her. Elena thought she was really pretty, but she’s very intuitive, she knew something was wrong from the start.” Oh if only Elena knew….
“Don’t get me wrong Elena loves everyone I bring home, He just knew Alex was going to break down one day, she warned me, she told me to watch her and keep her close. Of course I thought she would be okay, and she was.”
The therapist wrote down some notes ,”Tell me more about Elena.” Gerard closed his eyes fully, he smiled ,”Damn, where do I start? Besides the fact she loved all my friends, she got me into art and music. She was my greatest inspiration, one of the best things that happened to me.”
He started to cry tears of joy, “ I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for her. God I really do love her and miss her. She took us in when my mom abandoned us for work. She didn’t care about me being gay at all. Freedom of expression was her things, she didn’t care what I looked like because she trust me.”
His tears were now joy and sorrow ,”Okay Mr. Way that’s enough for today,” Gerard sat up and I kissed his smooth small lips real quick even if I wanted more that would be a little weird right here , “Mr. Iero it’s your turn.” Shit.
My body replaced where Gerard’s was, not all of it since I’m so short but most of it. His warm body left it aura, my body filled with warmth as soon as I was relaxed.
“Mr. Iero, how did you know you were gay?”
I choked, who the fuck ask that questions, I sighed. “I was in 7th grade, I thought it was only a puberty side effect thing you know? But that year, I had a boyfriend, His name was Chris. “ I shook my head, I never told anyone this, why did I choose now? “He had badass blue eyes he hurt me verbally but loved me psychically, but it never got that far. We had an affair...” I cut myself off in 7th grade you can’t really have an affair can you?
“Well whatever the fuck you call it! I refused sex with him he went and cheated on me with another guy.” I stuttered a bit, “ I don’t know the other guys name but…” I choked ,” I think I might have an idea who.”
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