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I stayed in my room for two and a half weeks. Not eating and not talking to anyone. I barely sleep and when I do, I'm having the nightmares again. Every meal Lind-z would bring up a plate for me and place it outside my door, taking away the previous uneaten meal. They would try to come in but I wouldn't answer. Lind-z, Gerard, Mikey, Frank, even sometimes Ray, would come into my room, sit on the edge of my bed and try to get me to talk. I just lie there and look at the ceiling. I find my self in my bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. My skin looks pail and my eyes look sunken. My cheek bones are sticking out of my face. I didn't look this bad after my... my family died. I suddenly feel worse then I have in days. I take my perfume bottle and throw it at the mirror, screaming as loud as my unused throat will allow. It shatters into a million pieces. I gasp. That was loud. Everyone is downstairs. Well Everyone except Bob... Bob... I sob out loud, it tears at my throat. I pick up bits of glass trying to find the biggest piece I can. I cut my hands doing so. I finally find the piece I want. I hear banging on my bedroom door, I hear it fly open. I then hear banging on the bathroom door. It's locked. I lower the piece of glass to my wrist and make a cut. I try and cut as deep as I can. I hear voices calling my name, Bandit is crying. Everything goes black.
I wake up in a white hospital room. There are drips attached to my arm. There is a bandage around my wrist and my hands. Lind-z is asleep with Bandit on the other hospital bed, Gerard is asleep in one of the chairs.
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At night when they think I'm asleep, they come into my room and stand at the foot of my bed, watching me sleep.
"Gee, I'm worried about her." Lind-z whispers. "She's pale, she wont eat or talk to us. She's lost weight."
"I know, I know."
"She's been having nightmares again. And.. And now this!"
"I know Lind-z!" Gerard says a little louder. I roll over pretending that they almost woke me. He lowers his voice again. "I can't go back on my word with Bob. Can I?" My heart skips a beat at the mention of Bob's name. I try to hold back the tears. It's been two weeks since I've seen or heard from Bob.
"I don't know Gerard, it was your idea." Lind-z scowled. "But it's not doing her any good. There are like three days till her birthday, can't you just.. I don't know Gerard. I want Hinkley back." She starts to cry "I just want our daughter back please." She leaves the room in tears. Gerard stays behind. I hear him walk around the side of the bed, he kneels down beside my head and leans over and kisses my forehead.
"I'm so sorry I caused you all this pain baby girl." he whispers "I love you so much, I guess I just freaked out that you've found someone else to replace me. I'm not ready to loose my daughter. I know I said that you didn't think you could call me dad, and I said I wouldn't expect anything less. I just... I've come to think of you as my daughter and well I love you Hinkley. When Lind-z came into my life I didn't think it could get any better, and then Bandit came along and I thought the same. Then YOU came along and I stand corrected. My life got better again. I panicked when I found out Bob could take you away from me, but then this happened and I almost lost you. Now instead of spending your birthday with us as a family, you'll be in this hospital room." He holds my hand up to his mouth. I feel his tears on my hand. "Goodnight."
He leaves the room and I cry. I cry for my lost family, I cry for Bob and I cry for the pain I've caused my new family. My dad, my mum, my baby sister, my uncle and my honorary uncles. Once I've done crying and I can't cry anymore. I sleep. I sleep for days.