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Despair


Why can't you leave me alone?
Don't leave.
I've never done anything to you.
Except fall in love.
I've done nothing wrong.
Is it a crime?
Why are you here?
Don't go.
Why after all this time?
Finally.
Why now?
Finally, you're here.
I tried to give you my heart but you fed it to the dogs.
It hurt so much.
I forgave you.
Forgive me.
But you still turned you nose at the thought of my name.
I didn't mean to love you.
Why are you back?
I can't stop thinking about you.
Are you here to taunt me?
Even in my dreams.
Destroy what little dignity I have left?
I was proud of my love.
I tried to get over you but then I saw your face and it was all thrown back at me.
I lied to myself day after day.
I tried to drown in my own sorrow, bury myself in despair.
Please...just kill me now.
But you won't let me.
Let me love you.
You won't leave me alone.
Stay with me.
Why?
Please?
Why can't you just die?
Come with me.
Why can't I die?
We can be happy together.
I want you to leave me.
I'll never leave your side.
Leave my mind, my soul.
And you'd never leave mine.
I don't want you near me.
I want to hold you close.
Even if it means to die alone, I want you away from me.
I long for your arms to be around me.
No.
But...
Come here.
Don't.
I want you.
I want you to want me.
I want to send you to hell myself.
But if I can't have that, then I'm scared of what I might do.
I'd claw at your skin until there was nothing left.
I'd regret it for the rest of my life.
Until you never stopped bleeding, like my heart.
I don't want that.
Claw my way to your soul and rip it apart.
I don't want to hurt you.
Hear you scream in agony, begging me to stop.
I don't want you to hate me.
I'll ignore you and start chewing on your heart, your flesh, your very soul.
I'm sorry.
I won't stop until you're on the edge of death, begging for it to come.
I didn't mean for any of this to happen.
I step back to admire my work.
But it did.
Look at your mangled body.
You must hate me.
Smile and walk away from it all.
But I love you.