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I kiss him back with my arms around his neck. He holds me at the waist and slowly runs his tongue over my bottom lip. I part my lips allowing his entrance. He runs his tongue along mine and explores the rest of my mouth. His hands slip down a bit past my waist as he takes my bottom lip between his teeth. I let out a small moan, making him grin into the kiss. I decide its my turn to take control. I grip his hair and slip my tongue into his mouth. Caught by surprise, he gasps. I explore his mouth and twirl my tongue around his a time or two. Then my phone beings to ring. We pull apart and I sigh, hearing Mikey’s ringtone.

“Mikey?”

“H-Hey! C-C-Can you come g-get me?”

“Um... sure... Where’s Ray?”

“A-asleep!”

“Wake him up and hand him the phone, I’m on my way, but I need to talk to him!”

“K-Kay!” he wheezes.

I jump up and grab my keys.

“What’s wrong?”

“Mikey... panic attack!” I run downstairs.

He rushes behind me, locking the door because I forgot.

“Gee?” Ray mumbles.

“Ray! I need you to keep Mikey calm until I get there alright!”

“Alright I-I’ll try!”

“Thanks!” I hang up and speed like hell to Ray’s house.

“You’re gonna get pulled over for this one day...” Frank frowns.

I chuckle “I’m not worried.”

“Why?”

I shrug “I’m just not. They leave me alone for the most part.”

I pull into Ray’s driveway and realize that I forgot my shoes. I shrug and run inside before Frank has closed his car door.

“Ray! Mikey!” I yell running to Ray’s room.

I smile when I walk into the room. Ray is leaned against his headboard and Mikey’s is curled onto his lap, completely calm. Ray is stroking his fingers through Mikey’s hair.

Ray smiles up at me “Hey Gee.”

I nod “You seem to have the situation handled...”

Mikey blushes and nods.

Frank walks up behind me “Awe!”

Ray blushes a little but has a huge smile on his face.

I hand Mikey his inhaler “You have really got to keep this with you! So... How’d you calm him down?” I ask Ray.

Ray shrugs “Like this.” he begins stroking his fingers through Mikey’s hair again.

Mikey is immediately calmed and closes his eyes with a small smile pulling at the corner of his lips. I chuckle, shaking my head. Beside me, Frank looks at Ray and nods vigorously.

Ray blushes and shakes his head.

Frank nods.

Ray mouths “No!”

Frank nods and mouths “Yes!”

“Hey Ray...” Mikey says, barely audible.

“Yeah Mikey?” he looks down at my younger brother with a smile.

Mikey blushes “I...”

I pull Frank out of the room, but we, of course, listen at the door.

I hear Mikey sigh “N-Nevermind...”

I can hear the frown in Ray’s voice “You ok honey?”

A pause.

“Kinda... just... I’ve been stressing about something...”

“Wanna talk about it?”

“Yes...and no.”

Ray chuckles “Well its one or the other Mikes...”

“I’m just worried that... what I say... it’ll mess up our friendship.”

“Mikey, I highly doubt that anything you say will mess our friendship up. Have a bit more faith in me then that, yeah?”

Mikey groans “It’s not that... Ugh! I just... it’d make things awkward.”

Ray’s voice is very soft “Try me.”

“I-It’s erm.... more along the lines of a question....” Mikey’s voice shakes.

“Alright, ask me.”

“I-I-I can’t!” Mikey sobs.

“Alright, can I ask you a question then?” Ray asks.

I assume that Mikey nods, because Ray continues.

“Mikey, hey look at me... its ok. Calm down because if you’re crying when I ask that might give me a complex...”

Mikey laughs “Alright ask away.”

“Will you go out with me?” I can hear the nervousness in Ray’s voice.

“Wh-what?”

BAD reply Mikey!

“Will-“

“Yes! Sorry I wasn’t sure you actually said it and I kinda went into a state of shock because that’s what I was going to ask but I’m such a coward and but yes! Yes!” Mikey says very quickly.

Ray chuckles “I didn’t catch much of that, but I think I heard a few yes’s?”

I then hear them kissing, so I remove my ear from the door. Frank does as well, giggling.

“You’re brother’s quite the nervous wreck!”

I nod “He’s worse then me, and that’s an accomplishment!”

Frank nods in agreement “Yeah that’s definitely true!”

I text Mikey “Not trying to interrupt but... I’m still here to give you a ride... need it or not?”

Mikey walks out, blushing “I ah... Let me text mom and ask if she can pick me up when she gets off work...”

I shrug “Alright.”

Frank gets a mischievous grin and sits beside Ray.

Ray, who noticed the mischievous grin, raises an eyebrow “What?”

“So... is Mikey a good kisser?”

Mikey and Ray turn red, I just feel sick.

“I do not want to hear about my brother’s kissing skills!” I frown.

Ray chuckles “You’re just jealous Gerard.”

My eyes widen “Of what?”

“You’re brother’s amazing kissing skills!”

“Ew!”

Frank grins “Trust me, he doesn’t have to be jealous!”

“Ew!” Mikey groans.

Frank and Ray laugh at our disgusted expressions.

“Ugh!” Mikey and I chorus.

Mikey gets a text “Mom said she can pick me up later...”

I nod “Alright then, later”

“Hey Gerard, you don’t have to run off...” Ray frowns.

I roll my eyes “What do you want Ray?”

He smiles “You know me to well! In all honesty, you can stay and hang out but... my mom keeps forgetting to go shopping and... I lack a car and license...”

I roll my eyes “We gotta stop by home first so I can get my shoes.”

Mikey tilts his head in confusion “You.... didn’t wear your shoes?”

“I was in a rush to get here and forgot them..” I shrug.

Mikey grins “Awe! I feel important, you forgot your shoes for me!!”

I nod “Ah, Ray... you’ve got money right? Because I don’t have a job anymore...”

He nods “Yeah I wouldn’t ask otherwise Gee.”

Frank looks confused, so I explain “I had a job before...all that... but no one wants to hire a kid that wont talk to people...”


He nods “That really sucks...”

I nod “Heh, I could probably get used to talking if you were there with me.”

“We could try that...” he offers.

“I highly doubt they’ll hire both of us or allow you to sit up there the whole damn time.”

He shrugs “Never know if you don’t try.”

I shrug “So, come one guys I really want my shoes!”

I drive home and run in for my shoes. When I get back to the car I look back at Ray.

“Where too?”

Ray shrugs “You pick Gee.”

Anxiety hits the pit of my stomach “I honestly don’t care Ray.”

“Why not?” Ray pushes.

“Because!”

“Because you don’t want to eat!” Mikey frowns.

I roll my eyes “No, I don’t!”

Frank frowns “Why not?”

“I’m not hungry!” I snap at him.

“Gerard you haven’t eaten all day and you barely ate dinner last night!” Mikey glares at me.

“I can’t believe I’m just now putting this all together but.. Every time there’s food involved, you have to be persuaded to eat... why?” Frank frowns.

“Ugh!” I jump out of the car and slam the door.

I walk inside, slam that door and proceed to my room, slamming that door as well. Fucking Mikey and Ray can’t keep their fucking mouths shut! I hear them walk inside, so I lock my bedroom door. I gaze over at the mirror with a frown. Why do I even bother looking if when I don’t like what I see? I sigh and remove myself form the bed and look into the mirror, as Mikey begins pounding on my door.

“GERARD OPEN THE DOOR!” He screams.

I bite my lip and watch as my reflection does the same. My eyes begin to water as I lift my shirt to inspect the scar on my back. It looks horrid. A few tears find their way to the floor as I continue to stare at my flawed reflection.

“Gerard, open up!” Ray says through the door.

I can’t take my eyes off of my crying reflection. My messy black hair. My disgusting paleness. The scars on my back and wrists. The door swings open as I’m slowly sliding down the wall, staring at what I can still see of my reflection. When I finally find the floor I pull my knees up to my face and begin to shake from the tears.

Mikey pats my back “Erm Frank he has a bit of an... eating disorder...”

I lift my head and glare at Mikey “I don’t have a fucking eating disorder! I’m not really under the impression that I’m fat and I don’t starve myself!”

Mikey sighs “Gee... it ties into your depression but it is, in fact, an eating disorder.”

I scream, quite loudly, making them all jump.

Ray frowns, “Gee...”

I shake my head. Fuck them. Even if I could talk right now, I wouldn’t. I shove Mikey’s hand off of my shoulders.

“G-Gee!” he frowns.

I glare at him and stand up. I go over to my bed and cover my entire body with the blankets.

“Gerard will you fucking talk to me!” Mikey yells.

I sit up, grab the nearest thing and throw it at Mikey. He’s lucky it was just a fucking pillow. I give him an unkind hand gesture and go back underneath the blankets. I feel a sudden weight on me and the covers are ripped from over my head. I try to grab them but Frank pins my hands and smiles down at me. He leans down and presses his lips against mine. Damn you! I kiss back with equal, if not more force. He pulls away and goes for my neck. The cold metal of his lip ring gives me the chills, though that may not be all that contributed.

“Ugh! What the fuck! ” I chuckle, a bit evilly, as I hear Mikey groan.

Frank pulls away and slowly releases my arms, exactly what I’ve been waiting for! I quickly maneuver our bodies so that I am now sitting on Frank’s waist. He grins mischievously.

I look back at Ray and Mikey “Get out.”

Ray groans “But I’m hungry Gee!”

“Final warning!”

“But Gerard!”

“You’re really going to do this? Now?” Mikey questions.

I shove my lips onto Frank’s and kiss him painfully slow.

“Gerard are you sure-“

“Mikey, Gerard doesn’t need your sex-ed tips! Shh!”

“You’re... actually watching them?”

I growl and get off of Frank. I grab Mikey’s wrist and drag him out of the room, go back and grab a handful of Ray’s fro.

“Ow-ow-ow-ow-ooooow!” He follows me out of the room.

“Gerard you shouldn’t-“

I slam the door, lock it, and return to Frank’s lap. I immediately meet his lips with my own and tangle my fingers in his hair. His hands decide to skip my waist totally and rest in the back pockets of my jeans. I grin and I slowly run my tongue across his lips. He parts his lips and I quickly make my entrance. I honestly don’t have much experience with kissing, I’m just sort of winging it. And though I’m the one on top, he’s pretty damn good at keeping the control, which I really prefer. He explores my mouth while running his fingers down my spine, with one hand remaining in my back pocket. My hair falls around our faces, and I finally have to surface to breathe sufficiently. He grins up at me, and I can’t help but grin back. Wasn’t I depressed, oh... five minutes ago?

He grins again “Feeling better?”

I nod, blushing.

“Wanna go get some food before Ray starves to death?”

I nod again and he takes my hand into his hand places a soft kiss into my palm. I grin and pull him into a hug. We walk into the living room, hand in hand, and I can’t stop grinning. Great now Mikey’s REALLY gonna think we had sex... Mikey is pacing and Ray is sitting on the couch rolling his eyes.

“Mikey, I don’t think that’s what they’re doing but this is not something you tell your mom!”

“I’m not stupid! I just... can’t keep anything from her!”

Frank decides that this is a good time to speak up “Well, you can relax Mikey, there’s nothing for you to hide form her. Now, let’s go get some food I’m hungry!”

Ray tilts his head “You’re... smiling...”

I nod.

“You were on the verge of murdering me a minute ago!” Mikey frowns.

I frown and walk over to him and pull him into a hug and whisper “I’m sorry. I know you just worry and I shouldn’t push you away so much but... its not as easy as it would seem.”

He nods “Sorry Gee.”

I nod again.

“So, ah... I love you both, really.... but can we please get some food!” Ray whines.

I chuckle and grab my keys and phone. On the way to the car I text Ray.

“I’m eating but I don’t care where so...”

Ray smiles “Pizza?”

I roll my eyes “Should have known alright pizza it is!”

How the hell DID my mood change so quickly? There’s something truly amazing about Frank...