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Leaving doesn't seem so strange
0 reviewsSongfic, one short. Set after Neo first meets Trinity in the club in the first of The Matrix trilogy. Mild swearing.
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Usual disclaimers: I don't own the characters and I'm not making any money.
Lyrics taken from Korn's "Alone I Break".
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
...Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone...
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind...
"Follow the white rabbit" my screen said. Even I could figure out whoever had sent the message wouldn't want to stay on-line long. Was I really any closer to finding Morpheus? But why this dive of a club? Sure, it was where I hung out on the rare times I went out. But I didn't think I'd find any answers here. Why meet on my territory and not his? I nurse a drink - I wanna keep a clear head - and hover at the edge of the dance floor.
...All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I'm ready
Heart stops
I stand alone...
"The Trinty?" and I know how stupid it sounds immediately I've said it. Can't see her clearly but I know I'd recognise that voice again instantly. It's hard to listen to the exact words: I don't want her to stop talking but I'm struggling to absorb her words. She could lull me to sleep. But I want to wake up. That was the point of coming here.
...Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone...
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind...
It took several moments for me to realise she'd actually gone. I was studying the floor where her shadow should have been long afterwards, or it seemed that way. Leave here, I told myself.
...All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
Is there nothing more to come?...
My apartment's its usual tip. My computer's off. No more messages. Is Trinity really the key to Morpheus? Have I cracked it or am I reading too much? I turn the computer on, wait for it to boot up. Then turn it off. Even the blank screen looks like a whirl of activity: I'm too tired.
...Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to win this race...
What is it that I'm become?
Is there something more to come?
I feel so close now. Maybe all those nights hacking, chasing, networking, searching... maybe this is payday and Trinity's holding the purse.
...Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can...
It's like being in love: you can't tell you are until you are. This feels right and if I have to dive through a rabbit hole to find the matrix, I'll do it.
...Does this make me not a man?
Does this make me not a man?...
Lyrics taken from Korn's "Alone I Break".
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
...Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone...
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind...
"Follow the white rabbit" my screen said. Even I could figure out whoever had sent the message wouldn't want to stay on-line long. Was I really any closer to finding Morpheus? But why this dive of a club? Sure, it was where I hung out on the rare times I went out. But I didn't think I'd find any answers here. Why meet on my territory and not his? I nurse a drink - I wanna keep a clear head - and hover at the edge of the dance floor.
...All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I'm ready
Heart stops
I stand alone...
"The Trinty?" and I know how stupid it sounds immediately I've said it. Can't see her clearly but I know I'd recognise that voice again instantly. It's hard to listen to the exact words: I don't want her to stop talking but I'm struggling to absorb her words. She could lull me to sleep. But I want to wake up. That was the point of coming here.
...Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone...
Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind...
It took several moments for me to realise she'd actually gone. I was studying the floor where her shadow should have been long afterwards, or it seemed that way. Leave here, I told myself.
...All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
Is there nothing more to come?...
My apartment's its usual tip. My computer's off. No more messages. Is Trinity really the key to Morpheus? Have I cracked it or am I reading too much? I turn the computer on, wait for it to boot up. Then turn it off. Even the blank screen looks like a whirl of activity: I'm too tired.
...Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to win this race...
What is it that I'm become?
Is there something more to come?
I feel so close now. Maybe all those nights hacking, chasing, networking, searching... maybe this is payday and Trinity's holding the purse.
...Now I see the times they changed
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can...
It's like being in love: you can't tell you are until you are. This feels right and if I have to dive through a rabbit hole to find the matrix, I'll do it.
...Does this make me not a man?
Does this make me not a man?...
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