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so this isn't going to go on much longer unless I get some more feedback? please I really need to know what people think!!!!
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I didn't wanna dress up or down but I wasn't sure how to go about it. I secretly hoped that maybe I could ask Frank what people usually wore to his parties but I then remembered why would he of all people pay attention to what girls would wear to his parties, and even if girls even went to his parties. Am I the only one? Will I be the lonely girl at his party with all these guys, I mean it wasn't too bad last night because it was just the guys and me then some girls came over but a proper party? I've never been to a party before, how do I act? do I pretend like I'm used to that kinda scene?

While I was having my little freak out, I hadn't noticed I had received a text from an unknown number.
'Hayley, it's Alicia. I just wanted to ask you if you wanted to hang out before Frankie's party, you haven't been to a 'Frank' party before so I thought I could help you out a little and we can get to know each other :)' I read the text a few times and replied.
'Omg, you have no idea how much I just freaked out, I haven't ever been to a party before, so I need your help! can you come over to my house?' Within minutes I had a reply
'Sure, My dad's dropping me off at yours in 15 mins, I'll bring stuff and get ready there'
'Sure, see ya then :D!'

20 minutes passed then I seen a car pull up outside my house. I ran down the stairs and went out to greet Alicia.
"Hey" She said greeting me with a hug
"Hello" I returned the hug, "Come on in" I smiled
"So did you have a lot to clean up?" She asked
"No, strangely Gerard had cleaned everything up when I had gotten up" I said looking at my feet
"Oooooh, something going on between you two?" She nudged me. I just went red.
"Um, ugh, I don't know if I should say" I said, looking away to avoid eye contact.
"I'll take that as a yes" She grinned
"Okay, you can't tell anyone, at all yet, I'm still so confused" I laughed
"Okay, Mikey has been telling me about some stuff, don't be mad at him. He was worried, then he told me what Gerard was telling him. I will tell you, but firstly you need to spill your guts on what happened last night" She smiled at me
"Well, you know he's been acting so strangely towards me but he invited me over to his house before band practiced yesterday and kissed me. I was confused so much but I went along with it, I can't deny that I was attracted to him from the first moment I seen him, but I dunno, Then last night I went up to my room and he was there, and he kissed me again, and things got serious. I was kinda ready for it all but he stopped me saying he liked me too much to let me make that mistake of doing it drunk" She smiled in an understanding way and nodded for me to continue on "So we fell asleep, and when I awoke he asked me out, and then left. That's why I'm confused three days ago I could of sworn he hated me now we're going out, tell me I'm not crazy!" I asked
She just smiled again and said "Hayley, your not crazy, hell I'd be beyond confused at this point, but why question it, wouldn't you rather this than him hating on you?" She pointed out.
"You have a point" I laughed
"Of course I do, now let's go find you something to wear" She said and grabbed my hand then dragged me up stairs.

"What about this one?" She held up a plain black strapless dress. "No wait that's too dressy for a Frank party" She said putting it back
"I'm not fussed I just kinda wanna wear jeans and a t-shirt really" I said while picking at my nail polish. "So how long have you and Mikey secretly been going out?" I smiled at her back, she turned around and smirked
"When it's not really a secret anymore, but 6 months" She sighed and sat down on my bed.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"Nothing, I just never thought it would get to this point where we would tell people, it seemed to good to be true, but I'm glad the sneaking around is done because it did get tiring. I think I love him" She smiled so sweetly.
"Aww, man that's sweet, why don't you tell him tonight?" I asked
"He will think it's the alcohol talking though" she said looking at her feet.
"Say before you drink" I questioned
"Yeah, I'll give it a go" She smiled
"By the way, I like that one" I said pointing to the outfit she laid out on the bed before she sat down to talk to me, her face lit up
"Me too, you will look amazing!" She jumped up and went to the bathroom to get changed.

The outfit was simple, but nice. Red skinny jeans, that I only wore once before I left Tennessee. and a plain white vest top, until I looked at it properly, it was the only Josh and Zac gave me the week before I moved. I had forgotten about them, I missed them. Josh never did phone me back so I guess I was outta his life for good. The vest had the phrase from a song me and Josh wrote, around the bottom of the vest. 'I'll never let this go, but I can't find the words to tell you, I don't wanna be alone, but now I feel like I don't know you' I felt like breaking down in tears, but I can't explain this to Alicia.

I pulled it together and got dressed, I needed to try and phone them, get this sorted. Ask why there was no reply, ask what was going on? I needed to know the truth. In all truth, before I left, I was in love with Josh, he meant the world to me, we done everything together. I just hated my mom when she said we were moving, because I had not even started my chance with him, the night before I left he sent me an email asking to come meet him, he wanted to tell me how he'd always felt, but my mom wouldn't let me out. I still don't know, and I never will if I don't get a hold of them.

We got a taxi to Frankie's house for this party, I wasn't as enthusiastic about this party anymore, I just really wanted to go home and cry myself to sleep. I seen Mikey and I decided to leave Alicia to go and tell him she loves him. I felt sick at this point, I just really needed a drink now. I'll probably feel better once I get in there.

I walked into the living room and the music was blaring, I couldn't think. I just seen Frank in the corner and decided to go say hi. He was already very drunk so I just had to laugh at every
word he said. The conversation didn't last very long, until some guy from our school came up to me and started talking to me. I was reluctant at first but then he didn't seem to bad.

"SO, Mr Shots was just like get the hell out of my classroom!" Jack said ending his pretty funny story
"Oh, man I wish I coulda seen this!" I giggled away.
"So, your not seeing anyone are you?" He asked
"Um, yeah actually, I'm kinda going out with Gerard Way" I grinned
"Why, are you going out with such a loser? I mean look at you, your fucking gorgeous!" He sounded kinda angry.
"Um, I like him, he's really nice, can we talk about something different" I asked getting a little uncomfortable
"Do you want me to go and get another drink?" He asked with a giggle.
"Sure, this will be my third but hey go for it" I laughed as he nearly fell when he tried to get up.
I was starting to like this guy, he was funny and talked to me like I was a normal person, I just didn't like the fact he was kinda like a jock, I didn't understand why a jock was at Frankie's party...

"Here you go, some yummy beer. I don't know many girls who like beer to be honest" He looked at me
"I'm not like many girls" I smiled
"Your not" He said then kissed me.
Reality hit me, and I pushed him away, "What are you doing Jack!" I said getting up.
"I kissed you, what's the big deal?" He said innocently
"But I have a boyfriend!" I screamed at him

I didn't even listen to his reply before I stormed off, downing the remaining alcohol in my cup. I needed to find Gerard, I needed to know if he wanted me, if he actually liked me, I couldn't even walk straight but I was on a mission.

I seen him sitting out on the stairs out the back door. Alone. I opened the door and slid out to go see him. He looked sad, almost like he was crying, so I rushed over to him and tried to comfort him.

"Gerard, what's wrong!" I said in a worried tone and hugged him
"You, you are wrong" He said moving away from me, I looked at him in shock.
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"Oh, your at a party 10 minutes and your already making out with one of the popular guys in our school. I was so right about you" He said and stood up
"No, I didn't kiss him, he kissed me, and I pushed him away, I literally just told him I was going out with you, he seemed pissed off!" I said standing in front of him, he just looked away
"Please, believe me, I don't want him, I want you!" I pleaded with him
"Okay, but If anything like this happens again you know I can't go out with you" He said
"Excuse me?" I spat. "He kissed me, I didn't want it, so what if some random guy kisses me, it's now my fault? that is so bull!" I said walking away. He grabbed my arm and spun me around
"You know what I mean, just please don't do anything like that to hurt me" He pleaded me.
"You know I wont. I wouldn't be able to hurt you, I couldn't live with myself" I said looking away

He pulled me into a hug and kissed my forehead. I felt safe again, and everything went back to normal. We went inside and hung with everyone. The night was a success and everyone, got absolutely wasted, I don't know how but I ended up sleeping on Frankie's couch and everyone was asleep on the floor.

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