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Mikey collapsed onto his bead tears streaming hot on his face, he cursed as his face hit his pillow; he had forgotten to take off his glasses and now he threw them across the floor not caring that they were broken. He sat up and thwacked his head against the wall behind him, he was to restless to sleep, to exhausted to walk or run, even his headphones couldn't dive out the thoughts in his head, he had fucked his own brother twice! Mikey thwacked his head against the wall again and Gerard had known, he was a sick fuck! Thwack. Thwack. Thwack. No this wasn't happening, it was all a lie a game to punish him for not listening to his mother, why the fuck hadn't he listened to his mother?!

Mikey got up off his bed, he needed a shower, he was so dirty, kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes, but he still wanted to try, try and wash away the things his brother had done, wash away the missed calls and panicked texts, his mothers disapproving eyes the bruise from were Gerard's dad his dad had hit him, he wanted to wash away the passed two weeks, all the memories of how he had watched Gerard day dreamed about him wanted him, but most of all Mikey wanted to wash away the thoughts that he still had, he still wanted Gerard, to hold him to do unholy things with him, Mikey wanted to be ruined by Gee, so there was no way they were brothers, there was no way Mikey was that fucked up. No
never!

After his shower Mikey decided to go downstairs for the first time in days, he needed to
speak to his mum, explain just what he had been thinking, tell her it all was a mistake and that she had to listen. He found her sitting staring into a cup of coffee like it would give her all the answers, like it was telling her everything is fine. But nothing was fine Mikey had ruined the relationship he and his mum had, but unlike the coffee Mikey could fix it.
"Mum"
She didn?t look up
at him, she didn't dare see the purple mark under his eye, look at the lips that had broken their family.
"Mum, please"
Mikey tried again "Its important"
She snapped her head up "I bet it is Mikey! But why should I listen? Why should I pay attention to you?"
Mikey jumped at his mothers shouting,she never shouted ever, but now she did she was on a role every word hit Mikey like she was throwing lumps of ice "You ruined everything I built for us Because you're so wrapped up with how cute Gerard is, to taken by his smile and easy chatter that you wouldn't even listen to your mothers warnings! The warnings that you were dating your own brother!"
"He's not my brother! He can't be Mum please!"
She just looked at him laughed, she reminded Mikey of a serpent about to attack "Still
playing that card are we Mikes, pretend everything is fine, pretend it hasn't happened, cause its not going to work this time sweetie, because Gerard is your brother and you sucked him off"
She wasn't shouting anymore, but her new tone was worse mocking, cynical she got up and pulled a bottle of vodka out of the cupboard, she drank from it then raised her eyebrows at the gaping Mikey "Go on,get out, go to him I know you want to"
Mikey was crying now, but Dona carried on
"Your right you can't be brothers, cause your no son of mine"
"That?s a really fucking cliche line mum"
She flipped Mikey off and took another long sip of Vodka.

Mikey was running out the house, he needed to get to
Gerard now, he needed to apologise, but Gerard lived so far away even running it would take at least 40 minutes to get there so Mikey pulled out his phone and rang "Gee!"
"Fuck Mikey, I?ve been calling you"
"I know I'm so sorry, Gee there wrong!"
"There what?"
"Wrong were not brothers we can?t be!"
"Mikey-"
"Meet me, at the park near school, I need to see you"
"Okay, but Mikey you know there right"
"Shut up just meet me!"
Mikey closed his flip up phone ending the call.

Gerard was sitting
on a swing when Mikey arrived, he had guessed Gee had taken his car, Mikey wished he had a car but that didn't matter at the moment right now he needed to be in Gerard's arms so he flung himself forward so that Gee could catch him they pressed together their lips with more lust than even the first time they had kissed Gerard was dominant like the first time though ravishing Mikey's mouth and once again bruising his lips, they were trying too hard to get close to one another, but there was too much air and clothing in the way so they fell off the swing and onto the floor not breaking in there kiss for at least 5 minutes Gerard was on top when they finally pulled away "I've fucking missed you"
Mikey was crying again "I'm so sorry Gee"
Gerard got off of Mikey and helped him too his feet they walked over to a bench and Gerard wiped away Mikey's tears "No I'm sorry, I'm so lucky you could even look at me again"
Mikey stared into Gerard's eyes though his vision was very blurred without his glasses Mikey could still see how beautiful Gerard's eyes were all hazel and sad they made Mikey speak without even thinking "I love you Gee"
Mikey blushed at his own words, were had they come from? But they were true Mikey did love Gerard, even if he barely knew him; he was in love with the most beautiful man he had ever laid eyes on.

Gerard cupped Mikey's face and kissed himdelicately on the mouth, this made Mikey cry more, how could Gerard want him, a human so stunning it hurt to look at wanted him; the little skinny kid with the glasses and greasy hair. "If we want to
be together"
Gerard spoke "we'll have to leave"
Mikey nodded, he wanted to be with Gerard more than
anything but they may not have to leave to be together, because everyone was wrong, there was no way they were brothers "Gee, we should get tested"
Gerard laughed "For what Mikey mouse?"
"Like a blood test, to see if we really are?"
"Brothers?"
Gerard finished when Mikey couldn?t "Yeah"
Gerard's face had fallen his eyes became so desperate and sad "Mikey please"
"Just listen Gee, what if, what if what we had, what if it wasn't so bad, so disgusting?"
Mikey trailed off as Gerard stood up not facing him "Gee?"
Mikey got up when he didn't respond and put his hand on one of Gerard's broad
shoulders Gerard turned round suddenly grabbing Mikey his eyes were crazy and Mikey was suddenly scared "Fuck Mikey! Were fucking brothers! Just fucking look at us!"
A tear slipped down Mikey's cheek Gerard was breathing heavy staring at Mikey his eyes full of rage but he was right.

Gerard had a slightly wider face than Mikey, darker hair smaller teeth but other than that they could have been twins, Mikey guessed he had known that deep down "I'm sorry"
Mikey mumbled
"But Mikey you're right, this is fucked up"
Gerard had pushed Mikey away, Mikey fell to the floor but Gerard just walked back to the swings a stood staring at the frame. Mikey wanted to get up and run to him, tell him he was wrong that he hadn't meant it but Gee's next words stopped him "I can't fucking do this,
I just wanted some fun okay? I wanted to fuck up our parent's lives using you I needed you, I didn't want to get so fucking attached, this is bad for both of us! I need to go! I can?t do this"
Mikey let out a small sob from his position on the cold hard ground a barely audible "Gee" parted from his
lips Gerard looked back sympathetically for a second Mikey thought he would come back but he just shook his head and walked away leaving Mikey cold and desperate on the floor.

A/N pleaseeee don't kill me for this chapter.. I know I"m mean to
Mikey, Im not exactly sure whats happening next... but youll just have to stay tuned kids!

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