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Nikki's POV

I took a deep breath as I watched my mom take a seat next to Josh. I knew that if I didn't tell them now, they would find out eventually. I relaxed slightly when Stevie put his arm around my waist. At least I didn't have to tell them alone.

I smiled when his sister, Ashley, put her hand on my shoulder. Ashley had been my best friend since we were little, that was how I met Stevie.

I appreciated that they would both help me tell my mom and Josh.

My mom frowned, "What is it, Nikki?"

Stevie tightened his grip and pulled me closer to him, "Nikki has some big news for you," he smiled.

I took a deep breath, "Mom... I don't really know how to tell you this, but..." I took another breath, "I'm pregnant."

Stevie kissed me lightly just above my ear. I knew he was just doing it for support.

My mom's jaw dropped and she looked at Josh. I could only imagine what they were thinking...

Josh started shaking his head and looked at me, "Nikki, You only just turned 16..."

"You think I don't know that...?" I sighed.

My mom stood up and grabbed my hand, "I want to talk to you in private." She turned to Josh, "You too.”

Stevie let his arm fall as my mom pulled me to my room, Josh following behind us. When we were there, she shut the door behind us.

She smiled at Josh and then turned back to me, "I know that you've never broken my rules before, unlike Danni, so you don't know what the punishment is..."

She laughed and sat down in my computer chair, "Okay, Josh."

Josh smiled and grabbed my arm, making me wince, and then pushed me down on my bed.
"Oww..." I said, rubbing my arm where he had grabbed me.

At that moment he slapped me across the face. I could feel tears building and when I saw my mom sitting in my chair, laughing. I let the tears fall.

Josh shook his head, "We don't allow crying..." He slapped me again, harder. This time after a few seconds, I felt blood drip down my face.

My mom frowned, "That's enough for now."

Her and Josh left the room, leaving me lying on my bed, alone, and crying. Now I knew why Danni hated being left alone with them...

After a few minutes of being alone, Stevie and Ashley walked into my room. Stevie gasped when he saw my face. He ran into my bathroom and came out with a hand towel and some bandages.

He and Ashley sat down on either side of me. Stevie cleaned the wound on my face, while I continued crying. On my other side, Ashley had wrapped her arms around me in a semi-hug.

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"And this is the first time they've ever done this to you?" Stevie asked as we turned the corner at the end of my block for what seemed like the millionth time. We had been walking around the block for about half an hour.

I nodded, "This is the first time they did it to me..." I paused, "I used to wonder why Danni would get cuts and scratches on her face and arms... Now I know..."

Ashley, who had been walking in silence the whole time, snaked her arm around my waist and pulled me into another semi-hug, "You don't deserve that... No one does." She let go of me and pulled her sleeves down.

I knew exactly why. Her dad had only ever wanted sons, so he beat her. Stevie had no idea that it was happening because Ashley had only ever told me. I was scared to be around their dad...

As we got closer to my house, I saw a car in the drive-way. I didn't recognize it, but as we got even closer, I saw Danni sitting in the back seat.

I also saw my dad and Frank standing in the front yard. It looked like my dad had his arm around Frank's waist. I never thought that they were actually together...

Standing on the front porch was my mom and Josh. No one looked very happy.

Stevie wrapped his arm around my waist. Ashley fell behind us. She never liked yelling or any form of confrontation. I didn't blame her...

When my mom saw us, she yelled, "Nicole Michelle! When the fuck did you tell your father that you were pregnant?!"

I froze. I never told him... I hadn't even told Danni. I knew that Stevie wouldn't have told anyone...

Stevie tensed beside me. I looked up at him, "Nikki... I called Danni to ask her to help me because I thought you told her. She must have told him... I'm so sorry..."

I nodded and took a deep breath. I started walking again. I stopped as far away from everyone else as I could, while still standing in the small yard.

My dad smiled at me. He and Frank walked over to me. I saw my mom tense out of the corner of my eye. My dad and Frank stopped a few feet away from where we were standing.
Frank half smiled, "Danni told me about your situation... Then she told your dad and convinced him to come talk to you."

My dad smiled, "Nikki, I just want you to know that if you ever need to talk to anyone, I'm here for you.”

I laughed and shook my head, "Are you fucking kidding me? What makes you think that I would believe that? You were never around before."

"It's not my fault..."

I cut him off, "Yes it is! You’re a fucking ass hole!" Stevie tightened his grip on me.

"No... Your fucking mother over there pushed me out of your life! If she wasn't such a self centered bitch, maybe this family would still be together!"

I didn't know what to say... After what had happened earlier between me, my mom, and Josh, I couldn't find anything to say to defend her...

After a few minutes of silence my dad placed his hand on my shoulder. I felt Stevie tense and he pushed my dad's hand away.

I put my hand in Stevie's back pocket and felt his pocketknife. At that moment all I could think about was how much easier it would be to just kill myself...

I took a deep breath and slowly pulled the knife out of Stevie's pocket.

"Nikki...?" He said cautiously. He must have noticed what I did.

I flipped the blade out and brought it to my throat. I heard everyone around me gasp.

"Nikki, put it down..." Stevie said. I could hear the fear in his voice.

My vision started to blur because of the tears that were building in my eyes.

"Nikki, please... I don't want to lose you again..." My dad took a step towards me and I pressed the knife closer to my throat. It was now touching my skin...

Stevie turned to face me, "Nikki, I love you more than anything else in the entire world... I don't want to lose you... I can't..."

I tightened my grip on the handle and closed my eyes. All I could think about was Stevie. I loved him so much. But then again, my life was going downhill... fast.

I opened my eyes and saw Stevie with his head in his hands. I felt so bad for doing this to him... I took a deep breath and lowered the knife.

I turned to my dad and I saw that Frank had his arms wrapped around him. They were both crying. I turned to the front porch. I frowned because my mom and Josh were no longer standing there... I turned back to my dad and smiled. I was glad that at least one of my parents cared for my safety.

I turned back to Stevie and smiled. I tapped him on the shoulder and when he looked up, he had a big grin on his face. He walked closer and wrapped her arms around me. As he did so, I felt the knife that I was still holding, pierce my stomach

My mouth gaped open and I dropped the knife. Stevie quickly released me from his grip. When he did so, I fell to the ground.

The last things I remember happening were Stevie yelling at Ashley to call 911, and my dad, Frank, and Danni all standing over me, crying…