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I don't quite understand
The words that leave your mouth.

Those words are hushed.
Those words are quiet.
Those words are... ashamed. 

You tell me, that I have a problem
That, I'm not what I used to be.
That, I've changed.
That, I'm not the same person anymore.

But if I'm not who I was,
Who am I now? 
Could you tell me what's changed?
How I am I... different?

Your eyes.
It seems they've lost their shine.
Lost their color.
Lost their fire.

I'm sorry.
If... I did something wrong.
But I figure
Since I don't have a clue
What exactly I did
It doesn't change anything.

Still. 
You're so still. 
Why? 
Are you...
Afraid of me?

You won't look at me.
You say you can't look at me.
Why can't you?
What did I do wrong?

You cry.
I can't... 
Get to you.
You're so quiet.

Why can't you talk to me?

I wish I could know
What exactly I did.
Your crying
Hurts me.

It hurts me
Because you're hurting
And 
I can't do anything to help you.

You look so small.
Hugging yourself so tightly.
I could hug you,
I would squeeze away all the pain.

I tried.
But,
You moved away from me.
And 
Pushed me away.

What did I do?

Did I not love you 
Enough?
Did I not be there
Enough?
Was I...
Not Enough?

I don't quite understand.
Why you're so far away.

Was I 
Too close?
Did I 
Smother you?
Did I 
Hurt you?

Now you're running.
Running away from me.
I don't know why.
You've locked the door.

Now you're sobbing.
Why are you running from me?
Why are you crying?
Can't you let me in?

Baby...
Honey...
Sugar...
Love...

Please let me in.

Can you hear me?

Are you in there?

Open the door.

Please. 

I need to know.

Aren't you there?

Let me in.

You're not answering.
It's been an hour.
Can't you come out?

You don't have to love me
Anymore.
You don't need to feel anything
For me.

Just let me know...

The things I did.









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