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"I'm sorry but you have it, you have Cancer" The doctor said looking at My test results. I am Hannah Clarkston and I'm only 17 and I have just been told I have cancer, this wasn't the best time in my life either to have just been told this. 
"Are you sure?" I asked moving a strand of Dark brown hair from my eyes, I had the fear that it was true that I would enter the black parade.
"I'm sorry but it's the most accurate test we have in medicine and it has never Been wrong before I'm so sorry" She said once again, I felt the tears move from my eyes down my cheeks,
"How am I supposed to tell my parents? My friends? My family?" I asked
"We will contact your mother and Father and you can do the rest I'm so sorry miss. clarkston" He said leaving the room, leaving me in a white colourless room like my life now I assume. The tears just came on heavier and heavier to think how I would tell Mikey, Gerard, Ray and Frank my bestest friends ever and my parents Jill and Cameron Clarkston. I never call them mum or dad it's always Jill and Cam to me. The doctor came back in and watched the tears fall from my eyes,
"It's okay Hunni, we will try everything we can to help you and trust me we will make sure you don't get it too bad" She said hugging me, her hugs were comforting but not like Gerards as his hugs were more soft and warm but I guess this is what I have and not to let it go to waste. 
"Thankyou, but I guess I need to go and tell my mum, dad and everyone before it gets any worse" I said standing up off of the white bed.
"Okay but before you go here is your next appointment" She said handing me a card with the 15 March 13:00 pm written on it.  
"Okay, Thankyou cya later" I said and walked out of the door. 
As soon as I got out I felt horrible, tears started streaming from my face again and I felt my heart just crumble basically, thank god I asked no one to come with me and just came down myself after I started loosing lots of hair and getting pain all over my body. I dried my eyes and walked out of the hospital and walked over to the park just across the road and sat on a bench up the top of a hill which over looked the entire park, the sight was beautiful. I looked up to the sky as the sun was at it's highest, I had dropped out of school after I failed all of my exams but Gerard and everyone was still in so that gave me two and a half hours on my own as my parents still think I'm there. 

I just sat and thought about everything and everyone and all the great memories I had, I smiled to myself and giggled too I think everyone who passed me thought i was crazy but I didn't care. I kept thinking about the very first concert I ever went to, that was the time I met Gerard, Mikey, Ray and Frank the shortest guy in Jersey. It was a sex pistols concert and we were only 13 so I had basically grew up with them they were like brothers to me. I twirled my dark hair and noticed that a bit had fallen out on the bench, I picked it up and just smiled if this was going to be me I would enjoy it no matter what. I saw all the kids play on the swings and jungle gym, this one little boy was shy and wouldn't do anything but I saw his mother convince him it would be fine, 
"That's the comforting I need right now" I thought to myself as i put my bit of hair in the bin. I got up and went for a walk around the lake which took me about an hour but it left me to think about everything and how great my life was and will be until I die. I looked at my phone and noticed the time was 2:37 
"Gerard, Mikey, Ray and Frank should be out by now" I said quietly and picked al four of them off my contact list and text them saying,
"Hey guys meet me over the park across from the hospital I have some news" I then pressed send, the first reply was two minutes later from Gerard which said
"yeah sure I'll be by the oak tree near the lake and so will everyone else" 
I presumed they were all walking home together, this was it and I had never felt more nervous in my life but it had to be done I guess.
 I sat down beside the oak tree which was surrounded by dasies as it was approaching summer. I picked a daisy and looked at it, it reminded me of the time me and Gerard make the biggest daisy chain ever! He was an amazing guy and my best friend. I looked up and saw four figures run down a giant hill which was unmistakably Gerard, Mikey, Ray and Frank. Gerard was the first to see me and took my hand and pulled me to my feet which made us both laugh a little.
"So what do you want to tell us?" He said
"Yeah! I'm missing pinky and the brain" Frank blurted out which had us all laugh
"I'm missing a bass lesson too" Mikey said
"Guys give her time" Gerard said and looked at me wit his Hazel eyes full of happiness
"Well you guys know I was going to the hospital about all the pains in my body and why my ahoy was falling out and why I was getting so pale right?" I said
"Yep" They all replied
"Well it turns out I have-I have-I have-"
"You have what?" Ray asked, the happiness in Gerards eyes had gone and looked more like fear now
"Cancer" I said with tears one falling from my eyes again. Gerard was the first to hug me his tears pressed against my cheek and I guess my tears pressed against his too. 
"Everythings going to be fine I will do everything to help" he said pulling away because Mikey and everyone else wanted a hug too.
"Thankyou" I said and then Mikey hugged me,
"You'll be fine your a fighter and we know it" He said
"Thanks" I said then Frank hugged me
"You'll be fine, your stronger than this shitty disease" He said, this made me laugh a bit 
"Thanks" I said and then Ray hugged me
"You'll be fine and you will survive" He said
"Thanks but I don't think I will" I said
"Hey listen you will don't doubt it" He said 
"True thanks" I said and he pulled away, by this time my eyes were red from crying. Gerard stepped forawrd and wiped my tears away with the sleeve of his jacket
"You'll be okay now who wants Starbucks? it always makes you feel better" He asked
"Fuck yeah!" Mikey said
"Obviously" I said too. 
"Yeah sure" Frank said
"Starbucks it is" Ray said walking beside Frank and Mikey infront of me and Gerard.
"So what did your parents say? Gerard asked
I stood and then felt like I was going to be sick, I forgot I would have to tell them it was bad enough telling Gerard the guy I have had a crush on since I met him never mind my parents!
"Well you see, I haven't told them" I said now sounding scared
"What me to come over with you to tell them incase they get mad and then you can stay with me?" He said
"Yes please I would love you forever and ever if you did that" I said hugging him. 
"It's no bother and pick any coffee you want when we get to Starbucks I'll pay" He said smiling softly and getting his wallet out of his back pocket.
"You sure?" I asked
"Completely, it's the least I can do for my best friend" He said putting his wallet in his jacket pocket and linking arms with me.
"Aw Thankyou" I said and put my head on his shoulder. There was just someone about him that made me feel comfortable and happy all the time I was around him. 
"D'awwwww" Mikey said as he turned around and faced me and Gerard
"What?" Ray asked and then turned around 
"What?!" Both me and Gerard asked 
"You guys would be so cute together!" Frank said smiling and laughing a little
"Em okay?" Gerard said not sure whether to take it as a compliment or an insult.
After about twenty minutes of walking and everyone making 'cute couples' out of everyone we knew we finally reached it, Starbucks.
We all walked inside but Gerard held the door open for me because he knew I loved it when people did that.
"Thankyou Mr. Way" I said laughing a little
"It's not a bother at all Miss. Clarkston" He said linking our arms again.
Everyone around us just looked at us and glared at us and probably thought we were  weird or something but this only encouraged him to start singing,
"We're off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of oz" But then he forgot the rest of the words and I swear I had never laughed so much before with the looks of off everyone and embarrassment on Mikey, Ray and Franks faces it was just so funny. The queue took forever but finally me and Gerard got served, the guy behind the counter didn't even have to ask out order because he knew what me and Gerard always got which was sad but funny at the same time. After we got given our coffees we walked over beside Mikey and everyone looking for an open booth until we finally spotted one at the very back of the room but it was still a seat. Frank went in first, then Ray, then Mikey, then Gerard and finally me. We just sat and talked about everything and all the memories we had and stuff like that but I wasn't long before me, Gerard and Mikey had finished our coffees and Ray and Frank had only drunk half of theirs, but Ray gave Gerard some of his and Frank gave Mikey some of his but I didn't want anymore. 
We all finally got out and headed outside, we all walked with each other until Franks turn had came he gave me a hug,
"Never give in no matter what" He said 
"Dont worry I won't" I said and then he took off.
"Well I can say, that was the best coffee I think I've had out if there" Ray said as we started walking again.
"Yeah it tasted different but better" I agreed
"It just tasted great they way every coffee does to me" I said 
"I agree with Gerard" Mikey said lastly, Mikey was always last to have a say in something well he normally was. When we reached Rays turn which Gerard and Mikey usually went down but only Mikey did as Gerard was walking home with me.
"Tell mom I'll be home later" He said to Mikey
"Yeah sure bye" He said and him and Ray headed off, and me and Gerard walked down the rest of the road together. 
"Trust me everything will be fine, they'll understand" Gerard said as we came closer and closer to my house.
"What if they don't? What If their made because I never told them I was going to check to see if I did have it?" I asked
"You listen to me Hannah Clarkston your parents will understand, if they don't then obviously they have no heartor they're not human" He said putting his hands on my shoulders.
"Okay but if anything goes wrong I'll blame you as per usual" I said
"Okay" He said happily as we reached my front door, i was now scared, anxious and extremely nervous. I pulled down the handle on the brown wooden door with Gerard following me this was it, 
"Mum!" I shouted
"You honestly think it's my fault?!" I heard come from the living room
"Well yes if you were a better influence then maybe she wouldn't have quit school!" My mum shouted back to my dad 
"Shit" I said quietly
"What?" Gerard asked
"They've found out I've quit school" I said in fear
"You never told them that you had to leave?!" He said surprised
"There was never a good time" I said and opened the door to the living room with Gerard still standing in the hallway. 
"Hannah why did you not tell us?!" My dad shouted furiously at me
"You guys were always arguing and there was never a good time and I and to, I failed all of my exams because you guys never cared!" I shouted at them 
"You are a stupid little girl!" My mum shouted and slapped me across the face. I turned around and saw Gerards face through the opened door, he looked scared and frightened for me. 
"Your doing this to your daughter who has just found out she has Cancer?!" I shouted at them
"You dont have cancer, if your going to lie about that then out of this house that's a serious matter!" My dad shouted at me
"Well I guess I'm leaving" I shouted back
"Good it's your fault this family is falling apart!" My mum shouted, just then I felt tears fall from my eyes, I was hurt and felt helpless where was I going to go? 
I ran out of the room, I hated them.
"Hannah" Gerard said but I  just ran right passed him I didn't want to see anyone right now but he still followed me upstairs to my bedroom. 
"Hannah shh listen to me, your parents are just being pathetic" He said sitting down beside me on my bed hugging me and wiping my tears away with his jacket, he was an amazing guy but he would never feel the same way about me obviously.
"Thankyou for being here for me but where am I supposed to go? The set of my family are back in Scotland maybe I have to move back too" I said with even more tears coming on. 
"You listen to me, you are not going back to Scotland never you are staying with me until we figure this out I can't let you stay in this place any longer" He said getting up and going under my bed and opening my red suitcase and he started to pack it.
"Gerard don't, I can't so that to your family" I said 
"This is not your choice it's mine, I'll tell my mom that" He said folding all my jeans and putting them in. 
"Wow, thanks you are the best" I said hugging him tightly then came a bang on my door.
"Hannah i thought i told you to get out of this house?! Go now!" My mum shouted
"I'm packing now leave me then I'll go!" I shouted back and then I heard her footsteps as she went downstairs then I knew it was safe to talk to Gerard again. 
"Wow, she really doesn't like you right now" Gerard said
"She never really had and neither has my dad" I said getting all my t-shirts and packing them too.
"Wow, you've lived with that your whole life?" He asked
"Unfortunately yes" I said "And now so will my mums new child that's not born yet will" I said almost crying thinking about how miserable their life would be. 
"It's not about you mum or the baby right now, it's about you and keeping you safe" Gerard said after he just finished packing all my things.
"Thankyou Gerard you really are the best person in this world and I love you for it" I said hugging him tightly, and it was the truth I had just said.
"It's no bother now come on we need to go now" He said zipping my suitcase up and opening my room door to reveal a small teddy bear, my old teddy bear called 'hugs' 
"Is this yours?" Gerard asked picking it up of the ground.
"Oh my god yes, I need to take him with me" I said taking 'hugs' from Gerard.
"Why do you love it so much?" He asked taking my suitcase down the stairs and finally putting it down at the bottom. 
"Give me two minutes and I'll tell you when we're alone" I said opening the front door for him. 
We walked outside and down the small street that had turned from being very light to being dark within twenty minutes.
"Now why do you love your bear so much?" He asked
"Well I got him when I was six I think and that was when my parents stared arguing and I would always feel alone and I always turned to him as a friend and. Always hug him when I need a hug so I called him hugs. Then my parents thought moving would help us but infact it jus made everything worse" I said holing my tears back and hugging my teddy
"wow, and now your here and your my best friend" Gerard said putting an arm around me to console me
"Thank god for that one too" I said putting my head on his shoulder.
"Yes without you who would I be myself around?" He said 
"I don't know" I said laughing a little and so did he when we finally reached his street I got a terrible feeling in my stomach as if his mum wouldn't want me like my parents. Gerard turned and looked at me and noticed something wrong with me.
"What's up?" he asked
"What if your mum doesn't let me stay then what will happen?" I asked
"My mum loves you and obviously will let you stay" He said smiling happily as we reached his front door. He opened the door to be greeted by a hug from his mum, how I wish that I got that all the time. 
"Oh hello Hannah what can I do for you?" She asked
"Mom, Hannah got told she had cancer today and her parents think she's lying and kicked her out and I said she could stay here if that's alright" Gerard said all in one breath. There was a moment of silence and then Mikey appeared
"What's going on?" He asked
"Hannahs mom kicked her out and were seeing if she can stay here" Gerard said anxiously waiting on his mums answer
"Welcome to the family"