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Normal.

Why can't I be normal?
Feel happy most of the time
Not spend my hours searching 
For sanity that can't be mine

Why can't I be normal?
Want to go out and play
Not be consumed by the darkness
Every night and all day

Why can't I be normal?
Find interest in things I love
What used to be my passion
Has now flown like a dove 

Why can't I be normal 
Sane and clean and new
Why am I in this body
This mind, I can't break through 

Why can't I be normal?
Not imprisoned within myself
Everything I once was 
Has been thrown off the shelf 

Why can't I be normal?
Not ugly and tainted, diseased 
Infected with myself 
My own worst enemy

Why can't I be normal?
Rested, calm and fun
Everything is so exhausting
I hate everything and everyone

Why can't I be normal?
Stop with all the tears
Because being this way forever 
That's my greatest fear