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I never thought I would end up here. I never knew I would go this far. I was happy. I was in love. How could it have gone downhill so quickly? I pushed him away, that's how, just like I had everyone else. My friends, my family, everyone. I'm just a shell. Cold and hollow. It shouldn't have went this far. I should have held onto him. I shouldn't have let the darkness consume me the way that it had before. I will get out of here if it's the last thing do. I need him.

The white walls consume me. I am stuck in Trenton County Pyschiatric Hospital. I leave my room twice a day. I was forced into a single person room after I stabbed my previous room mate in the eye with a plastic fork during lunch. I'm not the most stable person now, I guess you could say. But I'm not completely insane either. I mean, sure, I went a little crazy after the incident with my "boyfriend", if anyone would even consider him that. Who wouldn't go a little crazy after that? He left me. I had know him for 20 years, since we were five to be exact, I met him on my first day of kindergarten, and we instantly became inseperable. I spent a countless number of nights at his house during our teenage years. And before I knew it, I had fallen in love. It would never be so easy though.

I only hope that one day we will meet again. When I am stable, and what I mean by stable is, not stabbing someone in the eye because they ask me to pass the salt.