FicWad

Note 4/10/12: Again, editing- I'm going through all my songs and poems. Sadly, again, this has been rated down. It did used to be green, but y'know. Trolls. Anyway, this song is one of the most personal ones I've ever written, so I hope you guys like it. It's very much inspired by MCR, because without their inspiration, I wouldn't be writing something like this. Rates would be amazing.


Life in Your Coffin.


My footsteps are crumbling,
Disenchanted prints mottled red,
Sullied with fake-smile fatigue,
And accusations I cannot shed.
Wend along eternal cul-de-sacs,
Of fictional hope and things I’ve never said,
Lost in all these inflexible expectations-
Go on. Choke me in your regrets.

You’ll try and squash me down,
Bind up my freedom,
And turn my smile upside-down.
But you don’t appear to see them-
These glittery golden hopes that flutter behind my eyes…

I’ll take the hardest way,
Stitch up my cries,
Oh, I’ll take the hardest way,
‘Cause it’s the only route to stay
Permanently
Alive.

Try and pull at my strings-
You’re not my puppeteer anymore,
Control-slimed fingers like yours,
Would drop any purity to the floor.
Call me a liar, call me pathetic,
But your rigid rules have no colour;
You’re open minded-diabetic.

You’ll crush my enthusiasm and shatter my smiles,
Defy your weaknesses and label them mine.
Hand-me-down flaws are all I seem to own-
Apart from these bloodstained scissors
On temporary loan.

But still,
These glittery golden hopes flutter behind my eyes…

Nurturing me, believing me,
Spitting
Out
Your lies,
This empathy you lack-

And telling me I don't need to flee,
Because-
I can
Fight
Back.

So I’ll take the hardest way,
Stitch up all these cries.
Oh, I’ll take the hardest way,
‘Cause it’s the only route to stay
Permanently
Alive.

Tell me I’m nothing, tell me I’m lying,
Worthless, defeated, never fucking trying.
Do you think I’m just a speck of dust
In your coffin of mistakes?
Take a look, open your eyes, and see
This fate.

You’ve force-fed me your flaws,
Made my throat raw.
You’ve choked me in your sins,
Made my soul thin.
You’ve worn me down.
You’ve fashioned these frowns.
You’ve criticised my choices.
You’ve drowned out my voice.
You’ve locked me away,
Compelled to obey,
You’ve disregarded my feelings,
And left my life reeling.
Made me cry,
Left me to choke,
To sputter and bleed and convulse,
In your monstrous lack of hope;
You’ve made
Me want
To

Die.

But I won’t.
What makes you think you can steal my pulse?

‘Cause I’ll always have these glittery golden hopes,
Fluttering behind my eyes,
Telling me;
I can make it out alive.

So I’ll always take the hardest way,
And stitch up all my cries,
Oh, I’ll take the hardest fucking way,
‘Cause it’s the only route that’ll keep me
Fighting
To get out alive.

The glittery golden hopes flutter behind my eyes;
Wishes, dreams, fireflies; smiles of this mind.

With a life trapped inside your coffin,
In your black-and-white rulebook of a life,
They’re the only thing healing,
Keeping me hoping and feeling-
Keeping me dreaming.

But I've fought long enough;
I'm stronger than you think.
I'm tearing down this prison door-
I refuse to drown, I refuse to sink.

I refuse to live in your coffin anymore.

Oh, watch me take the hardest way,
Watch me stitch away my cries,
Watch me always take the hardest way,
Watch me stay
Permanently, really, forever,
Always:

ALIVE.

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I really hope that made sense to people, 'cause like I said, it's pretty personal. Anyway, I hope you guys liked...I'd love to know what you think! Rate? Review? Please? :D Thanks for reading!

Lucy X_O