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The substitute soul reaper carefully opened his eyes to the blinding light that surrounded him. He turned his head to the left to see Ulquiorra. The raven's back was turned to him though Ichigo remembered falling asleep in the man's arms. He must not be used to sleeping with someone else and turned away in his unconsciousness. When the berry moved slightly, the other turned around to see that he was wake.
"How are you feeling?" he asked as he sat up and felt his forehead to find out that his fever had gone down.
'Geez he's a fucking light sleeper...' Ichigo thought as he too sat up. "A lot better, thanks." Ulquiorra nodded, starring off toward the door but his eyes returned to the teen when he got out of bed.
"Are you sure you're alright to be walking around?" Ichigo just nodded and smiled in appreciation.
"So do we have anything planned for the day?"
"We're moving out of the main building and into my own later in the evening." the teen nodded again as the pale arrancar got out of bed to make it.
"Oh... okay." he mumbled, not really liking the sound of that. He knew that Grimmjow had threatened him and all but... he still didn't want to be too far away from him.
"I have something for you." the raven said before exiting the room. Ichigo raised an eyebrow. Ulquiorra was giving him a gift? He walked back in holding some white clothing which were neatly folded in his arms. The oranget felt a small wave of disappointment surge through him. He thought the other man was going to give him an actual gift but it was just an arrancar uniform but when he thought about it, he felt selfish for thinking that way. Ulquiorra had taken him in and given him everything already. "I hope it fits, I spent quite some time on it."
"You made this... for me?" the berry asked as he took the outfit presented to him. Now he felt even more stupid. This was a gift and it was handmade by the fourth Espada just for him. The raven nodded and watched as the others face lit up with excitement as he quickly undressed. Once dressed into it, Ichigo looked down at himself and admired the look. It didn't have the usual uniform pants, they weren't nearly as loose though they weren't tight and they fit nicely around his waist, no belt necessary. The top had no sleeves and crawled up his neck a little and though he wasn't used to it, it looked good and he was willing to give it a try. The fabric clung to his chest and it ended passed his waist, a little long for his liking but he would live. The shoes were the only things that were the same and to top it off, Ulquiorra had made him black gloves that reached passed his wrists to end half way up his forearm. He had only ever worn normal gloves, not any of the longer ones but he could get used to it, it was actually suiting and comfortable. "I love it, thank you Ulquiorra!" Ichigo beamed with a bright smile and he swore that for a split second, the fourth gained a small smile of his own.
"You're welcome. Is there anything you don't like? I noticed you looked rather frustrated at something."
"Uh... n-no. It's fine." Ulquiorra's gaze hardened just a touch at that.
"There's no need to be so concerned and nervous around me Ichigo, I won't be mad if you want something changed on the outfit. It's yours after all, you should like it." the raven ordered. "I took you in by choice; you are not imposing on me the least, despite what you may think."
"O... Okay. W-well... the top is just a little long..." he mumbled and the other stepped closer to him and lifted the end of his shirt up to examine it, calculating how much he would need to take off. He reached toward the berry's neck for the zipper and started pulling it down, revealing his chest before he grabbed his pale hand to stop him. "T-t-that's fine-I c-can do it myself." he stuttered, his face gone completely red. Ulquiorra nodded and pulled away to allow Ichigo to finish taking his new shirt off. The berry handed it over and followed the fourth as he headed out of the room again.
"There is something Lord Aizen has requested I discuss with you." the raven stated, without looking back and the berry gave him a confused gaze but listened.
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As the two walked into the large meeting room, Ichigo played with his thumbs, twirling them over each other out of nervousness. It was an understatement to say that he just didn't want to be there. He wanted to strap ten pounds of C-4 to each person, blow the entire place sky high, and go home. They were the first there and that made Ichigo even more nervous. Instead of being the last to arrive like he had been with Grimmjow where they just walked in and jumped right into it, he had to sit there as everyone else arrived before they could start the meeting. Within that time, there was the risk that someone might try to talk to him.
"Are you going to be alright?" Ulquiorra asked worriedly and in response, Ichigo shook his head violently.
"No, no, no, nope... I don't wanna be here, I'm really nervous." he whispered regardless of the fact that they were the only ones in the huge room.
"It'll be alright. No one will lay a finger on you. I will not allow him to hurt you." the raven spoke gently, attempting a comforting smile. Ichigo's lip slightly quivered but he smiled back and thanked him. Zommari was the next to enter but he didn't even spare Ichigo a moment's notice which the boy was relieved by. However the next two to walk in were Nnoitra and Szayel. He hadn't been living in Los Noches for very long but he had hated both of the creepy men from first glance. His hatred for them had only grown during his stay and though he had barely spoken to the pink haired freak, he hated him just as much. Nnoitra spotted him and snickered before draping his arm over the others shoulders. The berry wondered why he always did that when he saw him but shook it off. It didn't matter. He sighed and folded his arms on the table to lay his head on them.
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"You're nothing."
"He'll never return your love."
"He hates you."
'No... No you're wrong-you're all wrong!' I yelled back at the voices that haunted the darkness.
"No one will ever love you."
"You're useless."
"You're pathetic."
'No... no stop it! Stop it!' I screamed, trying to cover my ears but I still heard them.
"Ichigo?" a different voice asked as someone grabbed my shoulder.
... ... ...
"NO!" Ichigo screamed as he jumped up, panting. He looked around to see that he was in the meeting room and everyone was staring at him. Nnoitra began laughing and embarrassment overwhelmed the teen. His quick gasps for breath slowly turned into a soft, nervous chuckle as he sat down again. "Sorry..." he mumbled, burying his head in his arms. He must have dozed off before the meeting started. The berry peeked over at the father of his unborn child though the other didn't meet his eye. He was too busy glaring at Nnoitra who just continued to laugh.
"Are you alright Ichigo?" Aizen asked and he just nodded without looking up. "Are you sure you want to do this?" Ichigo lifted his head to look at the "god" in confusion. Then he remembered why they were all there and his nervousness hit him full force.
"Uh... I'm... well... um... it's..."
"We've discussed it and he's sure, however, he's very nervous about it. With your permission, I would like to deliver the news." Ulquiorra requested emotionlessly and Ichigo silently thanked him as the "god" nodded in approval. Grimmjow's eyes widened, when he realized what they were talking about.
"No! I haven't okay-ed this!" the blunet yelled as he stood, slamming his hand down onto the table.
"Well it's no longer up to you seeing as how you threw us away!" Ichigo yelled back, copying his movements. "You don't want it and you don't care so shut your fucking mouth!" the berry screamed, taking the blunet by surprise. His wide eyes narrowed into a glare as he sat back down and folded his arms, looking toward the door. He wanted to leave, to storm out of there but he knew the consequences of trying to leave without permission and he'd be damned if he was about to let Ichigo see him so weak to another man's power.
"You're right, I don't care." at hearing that, Ichigo held his breath as he bit down on his lip, not wanting to let out a sob. The berry closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
"I'm pregnant with Grimmjow's child!" he shouted before staying completely still, thinking that if he moved, the world would be thrown off balance. The room fell deathly quiet as if someone had just told them that well... that they're enemy who was a guy was pregnant with their comrade who's also a guy's kid. What was anyone supposed to say to that? Suddenly, Nnoitra burst out laughing and Ichigo relaxed a little. Someone had broken up the tension and that came as a bit of relief to the oranget that he didn't have to or that he no longer had to stand there like an idiot. He slowly lowered himself back down into his seat to rest his head on the table and cover it with his arms as he tried to hide. Ulquiorra placed a gentle hand on his back and Ichigo turned his head to see him. The paler man nodded, reassuring him that everything would be alright and he smiled at him in appreciation.
"You think that's funny Spoon?" Grimmjow growled, sending glares of poison daggers in the freak's direction.
"Great… the more kids running around, the better." Starrk spoke with a little too much sarcasm in his voice that made Ichigo think that he was angry directly at him for this but then the berry remembered that the first Espada had Lilinette to care for and was the only one with any experience with kids so dealing with more of them must not really be on his list of things to do.
"I wasn't expecting that… this may be of used to us…" Szayel murmured to himself, adjusting his glassed before turning to Ichigo. "I would be honored if you would come by my lab so I can-"
"NO!" five people rejected him at once and Ichigo looked at each one. His head had shot up to yell at him, Ulquiorra denied him rights though quieter than the berry had, as did Tier, Starrk hadn't said anything but he was glaring in warning at the crazy scientist, and… and Grimmjow had torn himself away from his argument with Nnoitra to yell at him as well. The two ex-lovers exchanged a moment's glance before Grimmjow looked away from him, sitting back in his seat as if nothing had happened. Ichigo smirked and sat up, folding his arms.
"Something wrong there Grimmy?" he smirked.
"Not at all Berry Boy." the sixth spoke with a surprisingly calm voice though it was still outlined with hatred and anger. Was he trying to be nice? "Is there supposed to be?"
"You tell me. How does the great sixth Espada feel about being humiliated by a lowly human?" why the boy suddenly trying to aggravate him?
"Who says I'm humiliated?" Ichigo's eyes widened. If he wasn't humiliated then he had to be proud or happy or something, right? It was Grimmjow's turn to smirk now that he knew he had the upper hand. "In fact, I don't feel a thing. I'm just waiting for someone ta try and take your ass by force." Ichigo stared back at the man he loved in horror. He was pretty much saying that he wanted him to get raped.
"Grimmjow…" Ulquiorra growled in warning though no one really noticed it, being too focused on the two main entertainers.
"The… the fuck is wrong with you!" Ichigo yelled as he stood up, feeling the need to be bigger though he knew that with this man… that would never happen. "Are you really gonna be this big of an ass whole about this?" Grimmjow seemed to think about it for a moment before nodding. Ichigo growled in disapproval but turned toward the exit and stormed off. "That's it! I'm so fucking done with you! I hate you!" the berry screamed at him without turning back. He felt like such a child but he was completely out of patience for the blunet. Grimmjow glared down at the table after the other had gone. What the Hell was he doing wrong? He tried to be nice and the teen eggs him on. No matter what he does, it's wrong. Since when the Hell was that fair? And no matter what… whenever Ichigo said those sorts of things… why did his chest always hurt like this?
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"Ichigo! Ichigo wake up!" Ulquiorra shouted over the screams of said berry. This was the third nightmare tonight that the boy had screamed Grimmjow's name as if he were in intense pain. "Ichigo!" the raven yelled again, holding the struggling teen down. "Ichigo please!" no conscious response. The only thing that passed the berry's lips were the desperate screams for his missing love. Since his hands were occupied, Ulquiorra bit down on the oranget's neck and by the time his screaming stopped, some of the human's blood had filled his mouth. He cautiously pulled away from the others flesh to stare down into the watery eyes of the younger male.
"Ulquiorra…"
"Good you're awake." the fourth said relieved, trying to ignore the crimson liquid that rolled down the corners of his mouth to drip off of his chin and splat softly onto the body below him. He had learned over the last few nights that physical pain was the only thing that was effective in waking him up.
"Ulquiorra…" Ichigo whispered again, fresh tears stinging his eyes as he looked over the scrapes on his pale body. He had really put up a fight tonight, hadn't he? He shot up into a sitting position to wrap his arms tightly around his savior. "I'm sorry… I'm so sorry…" he sobbed.
"I've taken worse." the other replied as he hugged him back. Over the last few days, he and Ichigo had gotten closer and though he wouldn't ever admit it, he enjoyed having him around. After a while of listening to the boy cry, the Espada became concerned. Usually by now he would be calmed down or back asleep but nothing had changed in him from when he had first woken up. "Ichigo?"
"I just want him back… why can't he see me?" he sobbed into the others neck, clinging onto him a little tighter. "Please kill me…" Ulquiorra responded by holding him closer though said nothing. "Please… I want to die…"
"You know I won't do that Ichigo." this wasn't the first time that request had passed the boy's lips and while the raven knew that he wasn't serious about it, he still hated hearing it.
"It hurts… it really, really hurts…" Ulquiorra's eyes softened as he held him a little tighter. He didn't respond. What was he supposed to say? He wasn't sure if Grimmjow would ever wake up and see that he was being a complete asswhole to the kid so he didn't want to say that he would. And of course he wouldn't tell the boy that he didn't think Grimmjow would own up to his mistakes and take him back, doing that would only hurt him more. Ulquiorra didn't know what would happen and really, it was all just up to Grimmjow. Whatever happened… what became of the boy depended solely on what the sixth does to him and so far, that wasn't anything good. Forest eyes narrowed into a glare as he stared at nothing. Time to pay Grimmjow a visit.
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"I'll see if you can stay with Tier while I'm away, there are a few things I must attend to before we leave." Ulquiorra stated as he zipped his jacket up and put his shoes on. They were leaving for the main building soon but the fourth didn't want Ichigo there, or anywhere near, when he went to see Grimmjow just in case there was a fight. So he figured he'd head there himself, stop by Grimmjow's place, report to Aizen if he ended up injuring the panther, and pick up a few more of his things from his room before returning for the berry.
"Oh that's alright, I'll be fine by myself." he chuckled nervously, not wanting to deal with any more people than he had to today. He actually wanted a little time to himself to clear his mind a bit so it could fully wrap around everything that was going on... and well... there's something he needed to do. Ulquiorra nodded and headed for the door.
"I'll be back then."
"Alright... see you later." the oranget called as the other left. He sighed as he sat down on the arm of the couch in the living room. "What am I going to do?" he groaned as he threw himself fully onto the cushions, his legs still hanging over the arm of the white colored furniture. Why should he be worried about Grimmjow? It's not like that bastard cared about him. Ichigo sighed again as he covered his eyes with his forearm, blocking his sight from everything. He blushed lightly as his free hand traveled down his body to his groin where he gently rubbed it through his pants. He never really liked doing this himself but he knew that he wasn't going to get a chance for sex anytime soon and the tension was really getting to him. It had been a few weeks now, nearly a full month. He grit his teeth together to suppress a moan as his hand slipped under the clothing to wrap around his hardening length. The teen let out a relieved breath at the wonderful feeling as he jerked his hand up. He threw his legs over to the front of the couch and pulled himself up into a sitting position as he moved his pants passed his erection and the hand wrapped tightly around it.
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The panther was aware of the footsteps following him down the hall to his room but he paid them no mind, knowing who they belonged to and what he wanted.
"Grimmjow-"
"I'm not listening." he called back as he walked into his room but before the door could close, a hand grabbed it and walked in as well.
"You saw what condition Ichigo is in, are you really going to leave him like that?" Ulquiorra asked strictly though the other didn't recognize the small change in his voice.
"In fact, I am. Now get out." the blunet commanded as he nodded toward the open door.
"I don't think you understand the severity of his state."
"Should I care?"
"This situation is very delicate and-"
"Delicate?" the sixth asked with a low chuckle. "The kid is being a total girl about the entire thing." he stated as he turned away, waving it off. Though Ulquiorra had intended to remain calm, his eyes narrowed into a deadly glare and his hands balled into fists to stop himself from shaking in anger before he started. "He's making things so much harder than they need to be." Grimmjow's life went on without Ichigo while for the boy, living through each day without being swallowed by his fear and his pain was a miracle. The oranget was being put through so much hurt while the father to his child tried to act as if he was nothing more than a thorn that had pricked his finger. Knowing Grimmjow, he was planning to destroy not only the thorn that had crossed him but the entire flower as well. Knowing that Ichigo would bow before the older male, the fourth knew that he wouldn't fight back against the man he still longed for and would be crushed. There wouldn't be anything left of him.
"You really are the worst type of person Grimmjow." Ulquiorra growled low and the blunet shrugged as he walked into the kitchen to grab a bottle of sake.
"I try. Now piss off." he ordered again as he walked back into the main room to hold the door open for him as he waited for the other to leave. His drink was taken from him and his eyes moved down to glare at the other but he was suddenly hit in the face with the stolen object. The glass shattered across his skin and the liquid it held burned his eyes as he struggled to keep them open to see what was happening around him. He was punched and thrown against a wall with a hand gripping his neck tightly, blocking off his airway.
"Do you have any idea how many times he's woken up screaming from a nightmare of you?" Ulquiorra yelled and the blunet stared into his eyes in shock and slight fear. His eyes were full of pure anger. He knew that he must have really fucked up to cause him to act like this. "Do you know how many times he's begged me for death because you don't care?" Grimmjow's eyes widened. Ichigo wanted to die because of him? "He's afraid Grimmjow! He just wants you to be next to him through this but since you threw him out, he's convinced that he's alone!" he yelled before his eyes slowly returned to being emotionless. "He doesn't want to do this alone and you're the only one who can be there." Ulquiorra said calmly, returning to his normal self. He released the sixth who coughed, taking in needed air as the raven brushed himself off as if nothing had happened. "I can do my best to be there for him but I cannot take the place of the man he's in love with." he turned to leave. "The one he cries for at night." those were the last words that he spoke before he was gone, leaving Grimmjow stunned and confused. How could he have done all of this to his Ichigo?