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Mikey's Pov

I look back to see my big brother, my protector driving away leaving me alone.
This is for the first time in about a year i have been alone at a friends house without Gerard.
To be honest. Gerard's my security blanket, when im restless he calms me when i hate myself he shows me he adores me when i talk about killing myself he soothes me and tells me. "Mikey. Don't you ever think about that. You are the only brother i have and that's why your so special. You are one of the only things i have to make me happy. You keep my life interesting Mikes and without you...i would be hanging myself from our old oak tree."
He'd kiss my cheeks and brush our cheeks together soothingly cuddling and snuggling with me. After dad hurt us...it tormented me that my father may come back to get me one day.
He had besten Gee infront of me and i couldn't stop crying.
I know Gerard survived and was strong only for me that's why...i cried for him. And i do now. I haven't seen him cry since i was three and he was six when some bully Ryan stole his cookie and hit him in the face.
Ryan still tortures Gerard to this day.
Daddy really never cared bout us after he had found out that Gerard was Gay.
Before that, he wasn't as bad. He wasn't necessarily good either though...
I don't know, i just feel...depressed not to mention my secrets Bob's about to discover.
I actually can't wait to tell him Gerard already knows but...what will Bobby think of me?
I mean Gee has to love me im his brother.
This is my friend...my best friend.

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"Mikes want some popcorn?"
"Sure." I mumble as i"m picking at my nails
He gives me the popcorn an stares into my eyes a moment.
"You have pretty eyes Mikey."
I blush. "Thanks."
he strokes my cheek as i turn red he holds me he wispers.
"I'm sorry Mikes im just sad and lonly."
I pet his head and nod assuring him its ok.
We watch James and the Giant Peach for awhile.
"I love the spider." me and Bob sputter in Sync.
We giggle hysterically at that.
I hugg Bob and take in the sweet scent of vanilla and smoke
I grin
He looks at my stupid grin
we finish the movie and go up to his room.
As he"s shutting the door i sit on his bed.
he sits with me and says.
"Mikey iv seen the scare under your eye youve told me the stories of you and your dad...his beatings and all.'
I Nodded
"So ive known you since we were 10."
I look up at him.
He leans into me and i blush as he gently pecks my lips i batted my eyes at him innocently.
He smiled "Mikey baby...what are you hiding from me? Weve been freinds for forever and i know you likwe Ray im just being your freind."
My facee blisters into the reddest of blushes
HE KNEW!!!!!!
"H how did you know i liked him!?!'
He looked at me like duh "Remember in 5th grade? Ray slipped and fell on you and you moaned because you could smell him and his breath warm against your neck and you were blushing and awkward like you MIkey Way is and you held him and he was all suprised?"
I nod so embarrassed i may cry for the first time in years.
"Well then there was that time that you clutched onto him in the rain after your dad punched you and that was like the only time you two got to love each other up and you got turned on and that was the first time you two made out and you just wanted more and more of him. But you were scared."
Im such a wimp....
I nod "Yea, i was actually coming over to talk to you bout it and tell you."
He smilled at me.
"By the way he wants to do you really bad he told me he could barely keep himself together in the rain that day and he got all wound up when he fell on you that he just wanted to lick your neck and cheek you smelt so good and your hair was so soft."
I blush at that.
"He did NOT say that."
"Oh yes he did he said he wants to spend the rest of him life if not with you then around you but he"s scared of you."
"Me?"
"Yea well no not You in particular just the thought of being courageous and dominant enough to ask a hottie like you out."
I Turn red "Weve been threw this Bryar, NOT Hott!"
"Why doesn"t he want Pete or Patrick or sombody like that.?"
"Because Pete's MINE one im gonna get that boy and two Patrick"s a good freind of his."
"We'll help you get a boy Bob. But can i just elaborate a minute?"
"Sure Mikes go ahead.
I say in a bit of a dreamy voice.
"Well i love his wavy puffy brown hair and bright adoreable wide lipped grinnin expressions he's so mellow and huggable and so elaborate excitable and just a total sweetheart dark brown eyes...now thats hottness..."
Bob grins.
"Ray says you smell sweet and your awkward and have that total Michaelangello smile and dirty blonde is a dirty fedish of his your lips are soft you taste good and nice your body is beautiful lean and skiny a bit muscular and he loves how yow you can always stay back but stand out with your styles you have the cutest face and he loves your hands that he cant describe it but he loves your hands and if you sat in his lap he would die of happiness your sweet and your voice is comforting his funniness is the only thing that makes you giggle well one of the things but your silly bouncy and exciteable."
o blush
I think a moment.
Well maybe i should get him alone and make a move...
A devious Grin spreads across my face.
Yeah, that's exactly what i'd do.