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Buffy Sized Hole
0 reviewsAngel, Cordelia, and Connor realize that Buffy's presence left a shadow hanging over their relationships.
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Never Will You Be Alone
Chapter Twenty Three-Buffy-Sized Hole
Gunn and Fred were startled when Angel and Cordelia darted past them. Fred caught the worried look on Cordelia's face as she raced after Angel and tilted her head. The young Texan was so tempted to race after them, but Gunn needed her more. She looked back to him.
"How old were you when it happened?" She asked him, breaking the heavy stare he was giving Angel's office door. Gunn turned to her.
"Eight," he announced. "My brother was fourteen."
"You couldn't have done anything even if you wanted too, Gunn. You were too young then." She attempted, unused to comforting others.
"That doesn't stop me from thinking I should have tried."
"Is it you that you really think that about or about your brother?" Gunn jerked his attention back to the obversant southerner. She smiled gently at him.
Never Will You Be Alone
Angel attacked the phone with vigor while Cordelia stood beside him silently. Buffy picked up at the third ring.
"Summers Residence."
"Hey, Buffy. It's Angel. We think we know why this coming power is going to be so strong." The silence on the other line told him Buffy was listening. "The First is going to rise with it." He could hear the wheels turning in his ex's head and cut her off before she could even speak her thoughts. "Dawn said something earlier that got me thinking. The Oracles made her face her own personal demons. She then challenged us to do the same. She said that it would use them against us. The First does the exact same thing because it can't physically harm us."
Cordelia stared at the man she loved as he talked to his ex-girlfriend. A small sigh escaped her as she listened to his rather one sided conversation. 'Does he still know her so well that he doesn't even need to hear her speak?' She wondered. Her heart ached slightly because she knew that no matter how hard she tried she could never fully own Angel's heart. 'Maybe that's for the best,' she thought bitterly, 'after all, he'll lose his soul if he reaches complete happiness.'
"Cordelia!" She jumped in shock at the hand being waved in her face. Angel's worried brown eyes were staring at her. He lowered his hand slowly. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, fine." She said quickly. Angel frowned. Cordelia motioned toward the phone. "What'd she say?"
"She thanked me and told me that if anything else happens to call her." Angel said with a shrug. "That and the usual 'if anything happens to Dawn...' threat." Angel fought the usual sigh as he realized that the same silence always clung to the end of their calls. The silence that 'I love you' usually filled when they were in Sunnydale. Briefly the vampire wondered if he would ever stop hoping to hear those words, no matter how cruel it was to the one that was waiting for him.
Never Will You Be Alone
It would be insensitive to ask his girlfriend why she felt that she wasn't good enough, Connor decided. He was so lost in his own pondering that he missed Dawn's soft smile.He was pulled from his thoughts when a pair of soft lips touched his shoulder. Connor glanced over at her. Dawn smiled gently up at him.
As he stared at his girlfriend, he thought of her previous words: "Being in her shadow." 'Buffy.' Connor realized. 'Without meaning too, Buffy Summers set a standard for her younger sister. Among the Slayer's friends, all Dawn was ever seen as was Buffy's little sister. They didn't accept her as is. They wanted a mini Buffy...' He realized. He had detected it in her tone when she had spoken of the Scoobies before. He had seen it in her eyes when Buffy blew into the Hyperion demanding answers for her sister's lie.
"You okay?" Dawn's voice pulled him from his musing once more. He smiled at her and rolled over ontop of her. She stared up at him in confusion as he lifted one had to trace her cheekbone.
"I meant every word..." he reassured his girl, knowing without words that she needed to hear them. "You are the only one I want. No bouncy-haired sister is going to take me from you. Promise." Dawn laughed at his description of her sister. The young woman was slightly surprised at how easily Connor had seen to the heart of the problem and called her out on it. Still, she felt as though a weight had been lifted from her shoulders at his words.
For Connor, her smile was all he needed to know things were okay between them again. With a smile of his own, Connor leaned down at poured all of his feelings into one kiss. A small sigh escaped Dawn's lips. It wasn't of sadness or any negative emotion, she was simply basking in the feelings the Quor'Toth warrior held for her.
Never Will You Be Alone
Buffy Summers was reeling from her conversation with Angel. A small sigh escaped her as she turned to tell her friends the news. Her heart was still racing slightly from hearing Angel's voice. That silence that they had become so accustomed to still hung in the air. Her want to say the words she knew that he was so desperately longing for still pulsed in her veins. The words would have came so easily. The words would not have been a lie. No matter how much she tried to fight it, she would always love Angel the most. No matter how hard Spike tried. Angel would always be waiting in the shadows like the vampire he was.
Never Will You Be Alone
Cordelia wasn't stupid. She knew that she would never be able to fill the Buffy Summers shaped hole inside Angel's heart. At best, the only thing the Seer could hope for was a little space to sit beside her. Just as Angel was foolish enough to believe he could ever fully get over the blonde Slayer, Cordelia wasn't stupid enough to believe that Buffy Summers wouldn't always come first.
Never Will You Be Alone
Buffy had never seen her friends look so defeated. The news had not been taken lightly. Even Anya had nothing sarcastic or out of the way to say. Buffy sighed. She would have felt better if Anya had something, anything.
"So, the First is rising with this thing? Does that mean that whatever this new Big Bad is, is more powerful than the First?" Xander asked suddenly. Cold dread washed over Buffy as she thought of what that would mean. The First couldn't physically harm anyone without minons and, last she had checked, it could only take the shape of someone dead.
Buffy could see the hopelessness as it polluted her team. She suppressed the urge to scream at them to keep fighting, to keep hoping. The Slayer fought off an ironic laugh at the words she so badly wanted to say. They were the exact same things she was sure Angel would say to her if he were here.
"Even if it is, we can stop it." Buffy swore. Her friends' heads rose slowly one by one. Her words gave them hope.
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Angel knew that he would have to alert his team at some point. Each time he moved to stand from his chair, he would recall the image of Gunn and Fred embracing. A look of pain etched on Fred's face as she rocked the larger man's body. He would always settle back in the chair. Finally, his eyes locked onto Cordelia sitting quietly on the couch, watching him.
"What about you?" He asked. Cordelia blinked in surprise.
"What about me?" She asked.
"You have your own personal demons," Angel stated blunty. A bitter smile came to the ex-cheerleader's face as she thought of the apartment she currently lived in. Dennis was probably getting lonely. She had faced her own demons there.
"I've already faced mine." She drawled as she thought of the old lady's biting words as she attempted to convince Cordelia she was nothing, that death better suited her. Angel stared at her knowingly.
"I believe you," he said. Cordelia gave him a half smile.
Chapter Twenty Three-Buffy-Sized Hole
Gunn and Fred were startled when Angel and Cordelia darted past them. Fred caught the worried look on Cordelia's face as she raced after Angel and tilted her head. The young Texan was so tempted to race after them, but Gunn needed her more. She looked back to him.
"How old were you when it happened?" She asked him, breaking the heavy stare he was giving Angel's office door. Gunn turned to her.
"Eight," he announced. "My brother was fourteen."
"You couldn't have done anything even if you wanted too, Gunn. You were too young then." She attempted, unused to comforting others.
"That doesn't stop me from thinking I should have tried."
"Is it you that you really think that about or about your brother?" Gunn jerked his attention back to the obversant southerner. She smiled gently at him.
Never Will You Be Alone
Angel attacked the phone with vigor while Cordelia stood beside him silently. Buffy picked up at the third ring.
"Summers Residence."
"Hey, Buffy. It's Angel. We think we know why this coming power is going to be so strong." The silence on the other line told him Buffy was listening. "The First is going to rise with it." He could hear the wheels turning in his ex's head and cut her off before she could even speak her thoughts. "Dawn said something earlier that got me thinking. The Oracles made her face her own personal demons. She then challenged us to do the same. She said that it would use them against us. The First does the exact same thing because it can't physically harm us."
Cordelia stared at the man she loved as he talked to his ex-girlfriend. A small sigh escaped her as she listened to his rather one sided conversation. 'Does he still know her so well that he doesn't even need to hear her speak?' She wondered. Her heart ached slightly because she knew that no matter how hard she tried she could never fully own Angel's heart. 'Maybe that's for the best,' she thought bitterly, 'after all, he'll lose his soul if he reaches complete happiness.'
"Cordelia!" She jumped in shock at the hand being waved in her face. Angel's worried brown eyes were staring at her. He lowered his hand slowly. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah, fine." She said quickly. Angel frowned. Cordelia motioned toward the phone. "What'd she say?"
"She thanked me and told me that if anything else happens to call her." Angel said with a shrug. "That and the usual 'if anything happens to Dawn...' threat." Angel fought the usual sigh as he realized that the same silence always clung to the end of their calls. The silence that 'I love you' usually filled when they were in Sunnydale. Briefly the vampire wondered if he would ever stop hoping to hear those words, no matter how cruel it was to the one that was waiting for him.
Never Will You Be Alone
It would be insensitive to ask his girlfriend why she felt that she wasn't good enough, Connor decided. He was so lost in his own pondering that he missed Dawn's soft smile.He was pulled from his thoughts when a pair of soft lips touched his shoulder. Connor glanced over at her. Dawn smiled gently up at him.
As he stared at his girlfriend, he thought of her previous words: "Being in her shadow." 'Buffy.' Connor realized. 'Without meaning too, Buffy Summers set a standard for her younger sister. Among the Slayer's friends, all Dawn was ever seen as was Buffy's little sister. They didn't accept her as is. They wanted a mini Buffy...' He realized. He had detected it in her tone when she had spoken of the Scoobies before. He had seen it in her eyes when Buffy blew into the Hyperion demanding answers for her sister's lie.
"You okay?" Dawn's voice pulled him from his musing once more. He smiled at her and rolled over ontop of her. She stared up at him in confusion as he lifted one had to trace her cheekbone.
"I meant every word..." he reassured his girl, knowing without words that she needed to hear them. "You are the only one I want. No bouncy-haired sister is going to take me from you. Promise." Dawn laughed at his description of her sister. The young woman was slightly surprised at how easily Connor had seen to the heart of the problem and called her out on it. Still, she felt as though a weight had been lifted from her shoulders at his words.
For Connor, her smile was all he needed to know things were okay between them again. With a smile of his own, Connor leaned down at poured all of his feelings into one kiss. A small sigh escaped Dawn's lips. It wasn't of sadness or any negative emotion, she was simply basking in the feelings the Quor'Toth warrior held for her.
Never Will You Be Alone
Buffy Summers was reeling from her conversation with Angel. A small sigh escaped her as she turned to tell her friends the news. Her heart was still racing slightly from hearing Angel's voice. That silence that they had become so accustomed to still hung in the air. Her want to say the words she knew that he was so desperately longing for still pulsed in her veins. The words would have came so easily. The words would not have been a lie. No matter how much she tried to fight it, she would always love Angel the most. No matter how hard Spike tried. Angel would always be waiting in the shadows like the vampire he was.
Never Will You Be Alone
Cordelia wasn't stupid. She knew that she would never be able to fill the Buffy Summers shaped hole inside Angel's heart. At best, the only thing the Seer could hope for was a little space to sit beside her. Just as Angel was foolish enough to believe he could ever fully get over the blonde Slayer, Cordelia wasn't stupid enough to believe that Buffy Summers wouldn't always come first.
Never Will You Be Alone
Buffy had never seen her friends look so defeated. The news had not been taken lightly. Even Anya had nothing sarcastic or out of the way to say. Buffy sighed. She would have felt better if Anya had something, anything.
"So, the First is rising with this thing? Does that mean that whatever this new Big Bad is, is more powerful than the First?" Xander asked suddenly. Cold dread washed over Buffy as she thought of what that would mean. The First couldn't physically harm anyone without minons and, last she had checked, it could only take the shape of someone dead.
Buffy could see the hopelessness as it polluted her team. She suppressed the urge to scream at them to keep fighting, to keep hoping. The Slayer fought off an ironic laugh at the words she so badly wanted to say. They were the exact same things she was sure Angel would say to her if he were here.
"Even if it is, we can stop it." Buffy swore. Her friends' heads rose slowly one by one. Her words gave them hope.
Never Will You Be Alone
Angel knew that he would have to alert his team at some point. Each time he moved to stand from his chair, he would recall the image of Gunn and Fred embracing. A look of pain etched on Fred's face as she rocked the larger man's body. He would always settle back in the chair. Finally, his eyes locked onto Cordelia sitting quietly on the couch, watching him.
"What about you?" He asked. Cordelia blinked in surprise.
"What about me?" She asked.
"You have your own personal demons," Angel stated blunty. A bitter smile came to the ex-cheerleader's face as she thought of the apartment she currently lived in. Dennis was probably getting lonely. She had faced her own demons there.
"I've already faced mine." She drawled as she thought of the old lady's biting words as she attempted to convince Cordelia she was nothing, that death better suited her. Angel stared at her knowingly.
"I believe you," he said. Cordelia gave him a half smile.
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