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right.
Final part.
Enjoy.
R&R.

epilouge

I sat on the green grass of New Jersey Cemetery,just like I have been every day for the past 14 years since she died.
I looked up at her black coloured head stone with her epitaph written in blood red letters

Sadie Jeanne Way
Born December 16th 1982
Died November 30th 2005
Loving mother,and wife
Will be daerly missed

I choked on the word.

Died

"Dad?"I hear Chloe say behind me.
I turned to see my 16 year old daughter stood beside me.
She looked so much like her.
Round,green eyes,with a hint of brown in them.
Brown,shoulder length hair.
Pale skin.
"Yes,sweetie?"I ask.
"I-I wrote a poem.for Mom."She chokes out as she hands me an A4 peice of paper,with drops of wetness from where her tears had fallen.
"Go on,hon.Go back on the bus.I'll be there soon,ok"I tell her,drying the remainder of her tears.
I turn back to the grave and read out the poem aloud.

Mom.I love you.
I miss you.
Dad misses you.
He can't cope anymore.
He needs you.
We all do.
I still remember that day.
Dad told me what had happened what had actually happened to you when I grew up.
That man got the justice he deserved.
He'll be locked up for a long time.
What I'm trying to say,Mom,is..
I love you.
I will never forget you.

Love,Chloe

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I stood up.
I planted a kiss on the cold,hard stone and walked back to the bus.
--
I was sat in the corner of our room,tears blurring my vision.
I saw us there,on the bed.
The day we concieved Chloe.
Sadie laying on the bed,me perched up beside her.
our lips connected.
tongues entwinned.
Skin on skin.
I could then see another memory.
The day Chloe learned to walk.
Her tiny feet,carefully taking step by wobbly step.
I had my video camera out ready.
I saw the smile on Sadie's face.
The last smile I ever saw again.
--
I was stood in the bathroom.
Pills in hand.
I examined my final features.
My tear stained face.
My raven locks.
My pale,almost vampiric,skin.
My hand started shaking as I undid the cap.
I softly sang her song to myself.

So long to all my friends
Every one of them met tragic ends
With every passing day
I'd be lying if I did'nt say
That I miss them all tonight
And if they only knew what I would say

If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take
The light behind your eyes
One day I'll lose this fight
As we fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright

Be strong and hold my hand
Time will come for us,you'll understand
We'll say goodbye today
and I'm sorry how it ends this way
If you promise not to cry
then I'd tell you just what I would say

If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
never let them take
the light behind your eyes
I'll fail and lose this fight
as we fade in the dark
just remember you will always burn as bright

The light behind your eyes
the light behind

Sometimes we must be stronger
and you can't be stronger in the dark
when i'm here,no longer
you must be stronger

and if I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
never let them take the light behimd your eyes

I failed and lost this fight
as we fade in the dark
just remember you will always burn as bright

And at those final words,
I swallowed those pills,
and died.

;.;
I'm sorry for this pain I caused you..
I truly am..