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I remember the first time I felt fat. I know what it's like to be unable to love yourself. I remember the first time I make myself sick. I remember the first time I cut myself.
But I can't remember much else.
I don't remember the first time I saw my girlfriend(sorry).
I barely remember my first kiss.
I'm hopeless with lessons at school.
My head starts hurting trying to remember my BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY!!!April 23rd?25th?
What's her middle name?!
I can't carry on a coherent conversation to save my life, and I don't remember what my mom looks like.I think I saw her this morning.I used to be smart. Able to do anything with my mind I wanted.
It's been this way for months. Am I crazy?Finally?You may see this as stupid trivial things to think and try to remember, but what if you forgot what you used to be able to remember?You don't know what you should be remembering, everything is just...gone.
Being crazy hurts. Maybe I need sleep.Pills usually help...Just one?Food might help.Or would it make things worse?One little cut?What would it change?I'm nuts anyway.
But I can't remember much else.
I don't remember the first time I saw my girlfriend(sorry).
I barely remember my first kiss.
I'm hopeless with lessons at school.
My head starts hurting trying to remember my BEST FRIEND'S BIRTHDAY!!!April 23rd?25th?
What's her middle name?!
I can't carry on a coherent conversation to save my life, and I don't remember what my mom looks like.I think I saw her this morning.I used to be smart. Able to do anything with my mind I wanted.
It's been this way for months. Am I crazy?Finally?You may see this as stupid trivial things to think and try to remember, but what if you forgot what you used to be able to remember?You don't know what you should be remembering, everything is just...gone.
Being crazy hurts. Maybe I need sleep.Pills usually help...Just one?Food might help.Or would it make things worse?One little cut?What would it change?I'm nuts anyway.
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