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More or less for me to face my fucking issues, rather than pretend like they don't exist
1) I have a phobia of being alone
I am fine with being alone in my room/left alone at home. But I don't want to be truly alone, with nobody there for me, nobody caring, and nobody to talk to.
So pretty much, I had people turn their backs on me for various reasons, causing this.
2) I Will Never Outright Say if Something Bothers me Or Not
Like if you say something, and it affects me. I won't say a word. Unless I am shaking with anger, I will keep my mouth shut, and pretend like nothing ever happened.
So, I am actually a pretty fucking good liar
3) I have 0 self esteem
Self explanatory; and because I used to get bullied like fucking crazy, so I just said fuck it and stopped trying to find anything good about myself
4) I Have 0 Confidence
I used to have quite a bit; like I have to build confidence, which I actually got quite confident. Except someone broke it on me, they probably didn't notice. But just some shit that happened, really fucked with my mind, phobia even. And I am back at no confidence whatsoever.
5) I Actually Think I have MPD
I've changed, ask anyone who has went to school with me last year and now. I went from the shy, quiet, socially anxious chick to the opinionated, headbanging "fuck you all" chick.
-Sam has social anxiety
-Skye doesn't give a shit what anyone thinks and has fun
Yeah
6) I blame myself for everything
Something goes wrong, I am automatically thinking I did it. I caused it, I fucked everything up
7) I have had nights where I want to kill myself
Extremely suicidal fucking sucks guys.
8) I have Been Getting Really Bad Nightmares
Hence why I am typing this out at 10:30 at night rather than going to sleep. I am actually getting scared of sleep because how bad they're starting to get.
Like I don't need to talk to people about why, because I think I have a reason on why they would be occurring; but fuck.
9) I'm anorexic
I hate admitting it, hell I try not to.
I tell myself and everyone else that I eat a lot at my house (Not a lie, I eat lots) but at school I will eat nothing.
Ever since October I haven't been eating lunch all that often. It's rare if I do, and most times my friends force me to.
10) I'm going to finish this sometime else, because I have school tommorow, so bye.
1) I have a phobia of being alone
I am fine with being alone in my room/left alone at home. But I don't want to be truly alone, with nobody there for me, nobody caring, and nobody to talk to.
So pretty much, I had people turn their backs on me for various reasons, causing this.
2) I Will Never Outright Say if Something Bothers me Or Not
Like if you say something, and it affects me. I won't say a word. Unless I am shaking with anger, I will keep my mouth shut, and pretend like nothing ever happened.
So, I am actually a pretty fucking good liar
3) I have 0 self esteem
Self explanatory; and because I used to get bullied like fucking crazy, so I just said fuck it and stopped trying to find anything good about myself
4) I Have 0 Confidence
I used to have quite a bit; like I have to build confidence, which I actually got quite confident. Except someone broke it on me, they probably didn't notice. But just some shit that happened, really fucked with my mind, phobia even. And I am back at no confidence whatsoever.
5) I Actually Think I have MPD
I've changed, ask anyone who has went to school with me last year and now. I went from the shy, quiet, socially anxious chick to the opinionated, headbanging "fuck you all" chick.
-Sam has social anxiety
-Skye doesn't give a shit what anyone thinks and has fun
Yeah
6) I blame myself for everything
Something goes wrong, I am automatically thinking I did it. I caused it, I fucked everything up
7) I have had nights where I want to kill myself
Extremely suicidal fucking sucks guys.
8) I have Been Getting Really Bad Nightmares
Hence why I am typing this out at 10:30 at night rather than going to sleep. I am actually getting scared of sleep because how bad they're starting to get.
Like I don't need to talk to people about why, because I think I have a reason on why they would be occurring; but fuck.
9) I'm anorexic
I hate admitting it, hell I try not to.
I tell myself and everyone else that I eat a lot at my house (Not a lie, I eat lots) but at school I will eat nothing.
Ever since October I haven't been eating lunch all that often. It's rare if I do, and most times my friends force me to.
10) I'm going to finish this sometime else, because I have school tommorow, so bye.
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